Boscoe Jenkins

I have a question...god forgives all our sins right? What about when It comes to finding yourself? My friend asked me do I believe that god will forgive us for the mistakes we make along the way while were finding out things about ourselves. Im just coming into the realization that maybe God really does forgive us for all our sins. There are sides of my life that I do want explore but at the same time im confused because if there are things tht we are not supposed to do does that mean we should explore it anyway? What do we do in that situation?? I think eventhough he would forgive me I dont want to develope this liscence to sin attitude. "Its ok God will forgive me." If that makes any sense

awsome, i will be reading it when u do post it :)

It went great! I ended it in the afternoon. Hit a bump while ending it. Cnt do solids right away lol (lesson learned) i am happy im just glad that i made the choice to do it thats when i was hit the most but God kept me the entire way.....WE did it! I feel open in some way its hard to explain feels like i tapped into something u know? & im sure the Lord will reveal it to me over time :D I would like to continue to do this so i can keep getting closer to the lord, & just to spend time with him. Thank you ladies for all your hlp & guidance! More than appreciated.

lol :) i understand! I really appreciate it. I have church in the morning so i think im going to push for one more day on this fast. That will be my last day. :)

Awsome! I didnt expect that word to be spoken to me like this. Im glad you allowed the Lord to use you like that :D

im giving u ladies an update in how im doing with this fast. I woke up this morning tossing and turning. I kept having this reocurring dream that god was showing me one way to handle a situation and his way to handle it. He was so kind in showing me how to do it & patient. Im so not used to that lol. He just brought this back to me because at first i couldnt remember what the dream was about. I kept tossing and turning i didnt feel good. I looked at the time 4:58am i was told to get some water. As i was drinking the water i felt worse. Head started swimming , felt like i was gonna be sick & faint. I thought i was gonna panic so i went to my room. Dropped to my knees & told god whatever u want u can have it i submit everything. My flesh, anything that he thinks is not of him he can have it just make whatever this is go away. Im stubborn i dont like to cave but i think thos morning i did. I dont care how he had to do it i needed something's broken & torn down!. I went back to sleep and when i woke up it was so still and quiet in my mind. This is my first time doing this on my own. If im able to go to church tomorrow morning im debating if i should extendthe fast to one more day. I think it would be easier for me to recieve gods word. Not trying to get ahead of myself though. Still kinda shaken up about this morning. Astra, thank you for those words that is very encouraging. Thank u ladies for your support! :D

Wow, god is good! Thank you mia for posting this reply. I am currently fasting. My goal was two days. My first day was friday. So far its hard on me mentally because its hard to focus mentally when your mind is all jumbled up. I thank you for the confirmation its omforting to know that im somewhat doing this the right way!!

I didnt think of that but it makes sense. I go back and forth alot in my mind about talking to him very often. I seen him recently & he was wondering why i havent spoken to him. Im afraid because im way too trusting when it comes to men & im not sure about his motives. Ive been going to church recently & have been told tht it has opend many doors. I need to be aware of who i allow into those doors.

Before his teeth start changing in the dream i like his teeth..(in real life, i like his teeth.) Also, i made a personal choice to stop talking to him. I am the type who likes to spend time & i thought maybe getting into a relationship with him wasnt a good idea. Now, everytime i speak to him i would have a dream about him. This one was the second dream i had. I think this may be a soul tie & ive been having a hard time letting him go.

I had a dream that i was back home in california. I was walking down a street by my house when i seen an old classmate. (irl, he doesnt care for me much) i was walking & there were these two kids playing outside they started talking to me but i was trying to get home. They came up to me and started attacking me. I was pushed down by one kid & the other one slapped me across the face. The left side was red and swollen. (i dont believe these were kids. I think they were midgets because they didnt hit like kids) My classmate could hear me screaming so he ran up & grabbed the kid who slapped me & said "so u want to put your hands on women huh?" & he slapped him the two kids ran off to their parents house we ended up talking to the parents. When we left we didnt say anything to each other he just looked at me and we kept walking. I didnt understand why he helped when he doesnt even like me. (whenever i see this man in my dreams he is never literal. He always represents some1 else.) Im just confused.

I haf this dream that a man i was seeing had come to visit me. When i looked at him his teeth would change. They would be straight, & then would become crooked like they wouldnt fit. Some of them had to come out it was impossible for them all to be there. The teeth changed from straight to crooked about 2 or 3 more times & i want to add that his face would change as well. I was seeing a different person everytime he moved.

I will begnning my first Fast & prayer tomorrow. Im nervous because the last time i did this i didnt take it seriously like i should have. There is something going on with my attitude its ugly, and im too prideful to change it on my own. I recently started going back to church & ive been doing well at staying devoted to this being that im not devoted to much. There are times when i dont absorb the lesson like i should but it doesnt stop me from going. Thats when i need to be there the most. I feel that theres something in me that needs to be torn down & i need to seek gods presence. Im not expeting this to be easy i will be fasting for two days maybe even three days. Are there any pointers that anyone would have that may help me to remain focused??

I recently started going back to church i am not suree about whayt exactly im looking for but i feel as long as its with god i cant go wrong. So far, i feel good about my choice. I went this morning & for a min i was strongly tempted to stay in bed. But god reminded me that its when i dont feel like doing something is when i need to do it the most. I feel strong when i go to church & im reciving comfirmation in alot of stuff. Im a little lost because im not sure what part of my life i should begin working on. I try to pray but my words get jumbled up & i honestly dont know how to just take one thing on at a time. But how cn i do that of i dont know exactly what i should start with? Whay should i do??

I think thst is perfect idea Daisy :) i recently ended an involvement with someone. I have alot going in in my life & it turned out that he couldnt hang in there with me on the small things which only means he doesnt deserve me when im at my best. Im slowly becoming content with that choice because for once im starting to have balance in my life. I so did not need him. I will def do what u say.

im my real life, there was a man that i did stop tlkng to recently. I felt that my focus was on the wrong things. My mother is in stage 4 of throat cancer & i need to be paying attention to her. I told him that i dont have room for relationship & that i really needed a friend right now. I took a break from him & got only two responses from him. Nothing else. I ended up telling him how i felt about it because it was making me bitter he didnt even attempt to be my friend at a timecxwhen i needed him most that hurt me BIG TIME!!. I asked god to break the soul tie & my feelings for him started changing for the better. Now im having this dream about him which has never happend before. I kept going back to this dream where it left off everytime i woke up. So i need to know what the lord is trying to show me. Any insight would be great! :)

i havent had a dream like this in a long time. (in my waking world there was a guy i was talking to & i recently stopped speaking to him) in this dream we had spent alot of time together. We were intimate several times during this time. Everytime we stopped he would play this video game 2k13(basketball) the he'd come back to me & the process would repeat. So the last time we got intimate he ended up stopping because he had to go home. My bff & i were taking him home. I was messing with him, i threw a ball of paper at him. He got upset got out of the car & walks home. I tried to get him back in the car but he was upset. So i let him walk. When i got back hom i go to check my facebook & theres a video posed of me. I open it & theres a collage of pics of me then the video speeds up of him & i having sex. The video stops at me removing my shirt which left me topless. I tried to find a way to take it down but couldnt & something snapped in my mind. I found 4 hats. Two white ones, a pink one, & a hat with te letter A which represents where he's from (IRL) i found some dishwashing powder with bleach. I poured it all over them & water which ruined them.i it i "knew i should if stopped but i was so hurt & i felt robbed. My bff's boyfriends friends seen it & had alot to say. I ended up sitting on a curb & my sister comes to tell me that the guys was getting a divorce, & that he was out of some contract because he was injured. I believe it had something to do with the military. It was such a huge burst of anger from him & i didnt understand why he had to take it out on me like that. I remember thinking that i didnt want to deal with anyone anymore.

You two maske a very good poing there is only one offense that crosses my mind. The ex in my dream tried to tear the friendship apart betwn my two best friends & i. I felt so stupid & weak for allowing that to happen because i wascso bent on making us work & i never want to feel that again or be that vounerable again. I told myself that i wouldnt let it happen to me again. It scares me.

Hello, i had this dream a couple of weeks ago. I was lost i a desert with my ex. It was windy & it was like it would never end. Next thng i know i woke up laying in the sand. Weak, tired & bleeding. I asked my ex what happend i looked dwn & there was a metal bucket betwn my legs. I didnt know i was pregnant. I kept asking what happen but he wouldnt tell me. I looked again & my baby was in the bucket. Id given birth to a stillborn. It as a boy & the only thng intact was his head. By the end of the dream my ex was trying to ruin & tear everythng apart in my life. Im my waking life i had problems like that with my ex. We dont tlk anymore & i dnt know wgere this came frm.

I am asking that everyone please keep my mother i your prayers. She has been diagnosed with throat cancer. She begins her chemo on wednesday & i want her to beat this. I cant wrap my mind around the thought of having to let her go....i dont want to.

Yes, tht does make sense im worried though because im not doing too good at passing these tests tht r coming my way....i know I hace to ask for hlp but ive been stubborn lately when it comes down to bring my issue to the lord because I feel like im not changing...smh

she ment tht I dnt show enough devotion to myself when it comes to little and simple stuff.....she said tht gods strength is within me & tht I need to learn to love him first...srry, I thnk I wrote tht msg above wrong...i fell off track a bit so I need some hlp getting back. :D

I was wondering does anyone have or know any scriptures on devotion? I have a close friend tht is gifted & always gives me advice & guidance. She told me tht I neef to learn to be devoted to myself first & realize tht the most important love of all comes from God. When looking at my bible I dnt know where to begin so im asking for hlp as to where I should strt..i would like to bein with devoting to myself more.

Wht does it mean when u dream of being in labor but ur not giving birth. Had a dream tht I was fully dialated but whn I pushed the baby wouldnt come out. No matter how much I pushed it wouldnt come out....wht does tht mean?

Wht does it mean when u see your friend of loved one in someone elses body? I havent had a dream like this in a long time. They strtd again when I began tlkng to this guy. This was about a month ago. Whoever the person is, I can alwys sense tht I feel like I know them, then somewhere in my dream my friend will reveal themselves. the last dream I had my best friend was in someone elses body & I kept feeling like I knew the woman. When I looked into her eyes I seen my bestfriend inside.

IHello, I had this dream the I was trying to find my best friend. Couldnt find her and something was telling me that she died I could shake the feeling tht somethng was wrong. Went to work everything was blocked off & no one would let me in. I knocked my manager out of the way & went in. I found her under a white sheet & I broke down. But it wasnt her. This woman had blonde hair & blue eyes. She was white & pale. But when I loooked into her eyes I could see my friend..as I was leaving someone yells out shes not dead & the manager was doing cpr. My friend was waking up & reaching out for me. It turned out tht she had slipped into a coma while wrking. How her body ended up disappearing idk. Kept having this dream all night.