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Boscoe Jenkins

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  1. I wanted to know spirituailly, how can someone overcome the feeling of constantly being attacked?? Ive been stuggling with this for about two yrs now since moving out of my mothers house. By nature, I am a very sensitive person...overly sensitive to most people. So when it comes to a person correcting me on somethng thr may or may not be wrong, I take it very personally. That is not healthy I know. I notice it with my friends especially. They mean me no harm when they try to hlp me with an issue. If anythng, I respect the honesty. At one point I WAS doing alot wrong & when they would tell me somethng I would automatically think that I'd done somethng wrong. Now tht we have moved & I have a lil more freedom to roam I notice tht I still have this problem. I cant discern when nothing is really wrong & when it is. Like I said its an automatic response "I think ive done something wrong." It is also affecting my job. I take things wayyyy to personally & I misinterpret wht is being told to me as an attack. Im so used to feeling like tht, tht I dont know how to change...ive been trying to find out where this is steming from. When I was a child I was in fostercare & the family I styed with was not very good to me. The mother used to abise me alot. I need & want to find the source behind this because I feel tht its a detrmental threa to things & people who are important to me. Especially God.

  2. Im getting hit emotionally & im having a bad time controlling it. Like, my emotions are strtng to manifesy in bad ways. The things tht I normally dnt care about r startng to bother me. An associate in the store told me tht god is trying to grow something out of me. It made me thnk of a kid tht uded to play with toys & now theyre not because their getting older.

  3. I was wondering, when Ive been spending time with the Lord I cnt figure out why I start distancing myself from my friends...i dnt know if tht is a good thng or a bad thing My sister made a good point to me recently. She said, wht the other person is doing wrong has nothing to do with me, they will change in their time, & if anything we should love them the same. I felt tht she was right me getting cloaer to god should not affect how I treat those close to me. How does somebodg balance God & thoer loved ones??? Because when I do spend time with him I get real still on the inside, which trigfwrs the urge to distance. I dnt want anyone around me to think tht im better than them because I am not. I need to learn gow to balance the two.

  4. I had this dream this morning, I was out taking a wlk I was pregnant with a girl & just about due. As I was wlkng I felt somthing tht kept running dwn my leg and hitting the ground. I looked dwn and the ground was wet. At first I didnt pay mind to wht was going on so I kept wlkng. It happended again & I realized it was water & it was coming frm me so I went home. I told evryone tht I was in labor & tht my water was breaking. nobody seemed interested or excited. So I went to lay dwn. Contractions strd getting worse so I got up & said tht I needed to get to the hospital. They said these things take hrs but tht wasn't the case with me. One of my friends just got home from work. The labor was getting worse & I felt the need to push. Still, everyone sat around like nothing was going on. Thts the prt tht bothers me, why wouldnt anyone help me?

  5. that definately resonates with my spirit...I was wondering if tht may be whts going on because these dreams didnt strt staying with me until I strtd spending time with the Lord. I noticed a piece of paper blowing by & a screen coming off of a window but thts it. There was no death & no destruction. Just the way the trees looked. They didnt stand straight anymore just bowed over & leaning...i get a lil worried when I hear trials & tribulations beacuse I dnt do too well with those.

  6. I have a question, I would like to know wht tornadoes- hurricane wind & rain mean in a dream. these themes have been showing up often in my sleep. Nothing is destroyed though in the dream just shifted. Like a tree leaning from so much wind. These dreams began when I strtd seeking God & attempting to spend tims with him. This has been showing up for about a week on & off. scratching chin

  7. Good morning, I was wondering wht does the bible say about the spirit of guilt? & how do I overcome this? Guilt has a very strong hold in my life. Especially when it comes to my friendships. Ive wronged them & they've forgiven me reapeatedly. My friends & I are getting older & I realize tht not everyone is as forgiving & maybe I deserve not to be forgiven. I dnt know how to cope with the things ive done because ive never had to face them. I see my friends everyday & there isnt a fay tht goes by tht somethng ive done wrong doesnt creep into my mind. I feel like it torments me. Yhere are days when im doing good it feels like I might beat this but no sooner, a problem arises & I hear tht im not doing as great as I thought & im back to square one. This guilt runs deeper than just my friendships it affects the way I deal with my family. The enemys goal is to steal, kill, & destroy. Im starting to wonder what if he suceeds? I think tht my friends deserve to have someone better than me as a friend & tht maybe things would be better if I were dead. I dnt know what else needs to happen but im getting tired & im not sure how long I can keep doing this.

  8. Good morning. Im trying to make sense of some things & I am also seeking advice about this. One of my best friends is moving back to nevada in about a month. Now when she left I was sad about it but I felt tht I could relax. I usually feel like im wlkng on egg shells. When we met we didnt exactly care for each other but being tht we have a bond strong bond with our friend we learned to get along. But im guessing now its time to be honest with ourselves. when she said was coming back i didnt want to go back to the wlkng on eggshells feeling, & I felt so guilty about tht because this is my friend. I told my sister about it & she told me how I was feeling wasnt right. She was right, I prayed & asked the lord to forgive me. She's done nothing wrong to me. She has one of the biggest hearts ive ever seen thts why she's my friend, & I miss my friend..i felt tht I overcame those feelings. So last night my sister told me thtmy best friend feels tht we dnt have a bond like she & my sister do. We barely tlk so lets just take this for wht it is. Our friendship is not wht we think & we shouldnt fake it.she is not wrong. My first question is, when it appears tht we have reached the point of overcoming an issue we had with someone, how come something bad still happens? She said she loves me but I feel like were not going to be friends anymore eventhough tht could change. Yesterday, I prayed & asked the lord to begin preparing my heart. I need him to make whatever changes he needs to make within me & now this. When I found out this information I thought " wht did I do?" & did I do something wrong? Ive been really trying to changr & then I heard everything happens for a reason. I want our friendship to be mended but I dnt want to let her anyone dwn likre ive done before. I respect & appreciate her saying how she felt because she didnt want to hurt me. I just need to know whts going on in the spiritual relm. Is this apart of gods plan, was this a consequence of somethng I did? Or maybe the enemys at it again..somethngs going on.

  9. yes, its nemo. thts my favorite movie lol...i have a question. When u say tht god wants me to rest wht does he mean by tht? As u've probably read im kinda troubled about somethings. Its amazing how now tht ive attmpted to wlk with god (feels more like im scooting) how severe my problems really are. I am in need of a huge breakthrough from him & it worries me tht I feel like I cnt overcome it. He told me through some1 recently tht he has a BIG plan for me & ever since then I kid u not the enemy has been so busy. Its ridiculous.

  10. Hello, I am seeking prayer for strength & guidance with my job. Im having a hard time getting along with the people I wrk with. Im not sure how long im gonna have this job. I just need enough time to transfer, or find another job. Im praying that I will trust tht god knows wht hes doing & tht my situation is already fixed. I am attempting to begin my wlk with christ & the enemy is really busy so im guessing tht im doing somethng right.

  11. Hello all, I have a question. As I make this attempt to get to know & bond with the lord I want to know when is the best time to heed the advice from my loved ones & when should I heed the advice of the lord?? A prophet told me tht I disreguard my friends & ive been guilty of tht & it scares me I dnt want to repeat tht. Im beginning to notice tht when im spending time with to the lord I dnt want to tell my friends about it. Not out of shame, I feel like im gonna burst some days thts how bad I want to share my good news. But im so afraid to fail with this. I feel tht people look at u different when working with the lord I dnt want to be view as a hypocrite, or a liar. I feel kind of bad because im hiding him u know? But at the same time I feel like I can focus on just him & I because I am concerned about my well being spiritually. Is this wrong??? Please let me know.

  12. thnk u connie for the verse tht brings u peace. I will be reading it...i needed the wake up call I will not deny tht & I appreciate my friend for being honest. but also I feel tht there wasnt enough encouragement u know? Feeling down like tht is not of the lord & now I know tht....i'l be sure to remember tht if I ever help any1 whos lost thier way. To every1 who responded & gave me these words of wisdom it is appreciated more than u know. Thnk u all & god bless.

  13. I would like to strt by thnkng everyone who responded to the email I sent it meanse everything to me. its like dreamster said, wht my friend has told me about myself may be fact, but its not the truth. The woman who spoke to me at the deli I held onto tht for days & the my friend to tell me the things she's seen, those are definately clashing right now. Like I said tht moment of happiness I had I felt like it was taken & it hurt my feelings so bad. I come home feeling like maybe I can do this & then read a msg & feel dwn all over again. In my mind I didnt picture a god whos pulling me off the ground & telling its alright, I got u & we'll try it again :) I seen a god who was mad & I felt like him & my friend just sat & tlkd about me. I have to remember tht the way god loves us, is the complete opposite of how we love each other... Daphnie, thnk u for those verses I will be reading them..

  14. It has helped. I felt like the little happiness I experienced when tht woman tlkd to me at th deli was taken. It hurt my feelings because I felt like I just cnt catch a break. I know ive made some stupid mistakes and im stubborn when it comes to change but maybe the last thing I needed was to be let down. Now I feel like ill nver be able to change.

  15. The rest of tht day was perfect. & then to hear something so different from my friend who is gifted. Either im too sensitive, it was bad timing, or the devil is really busy. I cant make heads or tails of this. I dnt know too much about wht I need. Im already scared & the last thing I need is discouragement. Plz, alot of responses are needed.

  16. I have a question, what exactly does a prophet do???? I heard that they come to confirm things god has already shown us.. I have a close friend ho has such a gift. Everything she's seeen in my life good & bad has come to pass. We have been true speaking recently & she told me th true t my soul is in trouble. I have problems with firgiveness & faith. Thts just to name a few. The things she'said are true. I want to change my ways so bad but I feel tht im too weak & lazy to do so. When I say Jesus died for my sins & that he loves me all I can do is say it when i dnt feel it in my heart its scaring me because im trying to build my faith, tlk to the lord, & i'll be happy & the little faith I have might just get bigger, then hearing whts going on with my soul is discouraging. I am in no way trying to make excuses for myself nor am I bashing my friend she has left a huge impact on my life & I know tht if something is wrong & ur friend doesnt tell u then they dnt care. Maybe I needed to be shaken up. But I cant shake the feeling tht something isnt right. About a week ago, I was helping a woman in the deli she said god bless u & at first I didnt say anything because I feel tht I dnt deserve anything the lord has to give me. She asked me did I believe in our lord & savior jesus christ? I told her I try. She said tht god has a big plan for me &

    to stay strong. She told me to read my bible even if its just one verse a day. U have no idea how en encouraging it was to see god break through like tht. All I could say was, through all this he still loves me & I heard him say, im still here.

  17. Thnk u so much for yiur reply. I need the positive reinforcement badly. I was at work & I felt like I have a problem with believing in something tht I cannot see. & it made me wonder if that is me saying I dnt believe in god?? My answer was im not sure if I do or not. It scared me. In that instant I felt empty like nothing was there but @ the same time there was also something inside of me that refused to accept that & I didnt want to settle with tht. I wasnt comfortable. Im not a strong person right now, very weak I finally understand wht "the flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing. I positioned tht all wrong but u get my gist right? Lol

  18. What is faith? Because I fnt have it. Lately ive been battiling with myself about god. I havent been spending time with him like I should. I haveva friendd who is also a prophet & she told me im in alot of trouble my soul is. Im not a forgiving person. I dnt know how to let things go, dnt know how to forgive, & let it go sincerely. & I read my bible, & I read the thngs u all have posted in here about how much god loves us Its :baeautiful but it wont resinate in my heart. I want/need to change my ways but I fear tht I am too weak & too lazy to do it......dnt know wht else to do with myself. If I dnt change I WILL be going to hell.

  19. In this dream, iys december 21 & i'm in love. I'm at this event with my partner and some friends. In the middle of this party theres an earth quake. In the distance I can see everything falling it changes direction and heads towards us as a shockwave. Everything collapsed & alot off people died. Only a few made It out. I turn around & I see trees starting to walk & they trample on everything n their path. Me & two othet women make it to this house. It sits high & u could see everything. We find the woman who lives there & she doesnt care if she lives or dies we manage to convince her to come with us. When we get back to where the party was the government is tying people up & putting them in white vans. I see my partner in the van & he t tells me to go the other way. The two othet women & I go out & look for people who know or work with the government because they know how to set the prisoner free. we speaking to a woman who didnt want to help us until I found out that sje had a loved one who was being held. I told her I wouls have still tried to help. She was affiliated with the government that use the only way her loved one would stay alive. Plunge ofd the women can discern the thoughts of people. Thats where the dream ends.

  20. hello, im asking for prayer in thearea of my job. Im being bullied by my manager. We had an arguement on saturday about helping a customer. I am a Deli clerk at grocery store, new to the department and was trained that we always look out for each othr & help each other too. I plan on speaking with her today about how the issue affected me. I'm not the only one she's treating this way. Im just praying that the lord works in my favor today. Thanking everyone in advance for your prayers.
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