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I haven’t been here for a long while and last time u looked at this site you could send personal messages to other members here but I can’t seem to now? I’m trying to find Mia on fb

A word really is supposed to confirm what you already know in your heart. Even a word of knowledge will be in support of things you know. I wouldn't worry about this word as it could be used by the enemy to make you cautious about your studies. If it happens you will know that it was from God if not then perhaps your mum misfired and that is ok too as we all make mistakes when we give words. Sometimes it is important to be careful about words given by family or close friends as we admire them so much we think they know best. If it was from God it shall be revealed in due time. It is good that you remember it though. Just keep it in a journal. But please, don't bank on it coming to pass. Truthfully you want good experiences at your course and looking for bad things to happen is not a good thing. Even if the word is cautionary, you really need to go to God with all these words. Do not come under a spirit of foreboding. The Lord directs our paths and makes them straight. Be of good cheer and do not fear tomorrow. I hope this helps.

Hi everyone,

Long time.

I have been popping my head in here every six months or so.

Missed you all.

Hope everyone is doing well and hope to see some of your dreams and comments and to exchange a few good banter between us all.

Thanks,

Claire

Hi all,

It's been a long time between posts.

I had a dream last night that was quite alarming and was wondering if anyone had any thoughts?

Dream:

I was in my home town where I spent most of my childhood. (may parents still live there) but it was very different looking. It looked like a island resort place where the rooms were in a tree house like labrynth.

There was a flood that came or was about to come as I feel I was seeing prophetically in the dream itself.
I knew God was going to flood the place. The entire place was going to be destroyed and all of my friends and family were going to be gone, even my identity was going to be taken from me.

It seemed that the flood came and then suddenly I was at the outer edges of the tree house resort looking out towards roads in Brisbane which is 3 hours from my parents home town. Before the roads were these weird looking prehistoric looking trees and I was thrust into them. (it was nighttime now) and I fell into this forest of trees.

I then seemed to lift out of them and step back then I realised that God was going to strip me even of everything I owned and everything I identified with of my past. Even my name was going to be stripped and also my looks. It was an entire overhaul of my identity.

I was really scared as I didn't want to lose my family, but even my family was going to be taken from me.
Th is felt almost post apocalyptic and was surreal. The tree house like resort I kept walking around thinking "Everything that I was is no more and where am I going to live?" Then I heard a voice from behind me say "GO and don't even take your clothes with you".

Then I woke up.


This dream really disturbed me but also I felt like it was a God dream for sure.

Thankyou both to Cholette and to Exo. I really needed help in this. I guess for me it has been so hard. But what you said Cholette about feeling lonely is so true, but the funny thing is when I broke up with this guy and cut all contact to the men I had been chatting to, I felt peace and as though it was perfectly ok to be alone.

I have been trying to work on my health and to gain some kind of newness to my life and for some reason I feel that this season of my life is about ME. God told me this several years ago now and it has been so very hard as the moment he told me this it was as if all my friends started to drop off like flies. I even had to confront several of my friends who were in bad relationships and so they punished me by withdrawing themselves from me. I really felt as though God wanted me to confront them and there were some really bad decisions they had been making, all of these women chose to compromise and marry second best and I really mean it. One of these women married a guy who was into some serious sexual immorality and the Lord told me to confront her before they even got engaged. She is now separated from him last I heard. Even though I told all these women the truth, they did not want to hear it and now it seems I am being tempted by the same demons and my own flesh to cave to impatience and try and make a relationship happen. I guess I have to take my own advice.

So I now have only 3 friends, two of whom live so far away from me and the one who lives close is moving away soon. lol

I have to laugh cause I just know it is an end to some seasons. The thing is I changed my name two years ago and as I did, the Lord has been cutting off the old me and birthing me into the new me. Part of this has been to end the toxic relationships I was involved with mostly with women. I have all my life attracted needy and problematic women. Most of these women have had eating disorders and sexual abuse problems, all of them very damaged in some way, not that this is a reason to not love them or be in their lives, but I felt the Lord challenge me as to why I always attracted these troubled people into my life. It was as if I needed to be needed and that I actually was in relationships only to rescue and be a sound board. It was very draining and taxing on my life. I felt none of these women ever wanted to have 'fun', all they wanted to do was complain about their lives and go in circles. Pretty much what God has shown me I was doing in a way. They say insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result.

So now God has wiped my slate clean so to speak and everything is all new. I feel like a new woman and now that I am free of all these entanglements, it is as if I have no idea how to have fun myself and yet I am so hungry for it.

I felt as though God was saying that now was the time to get fit and healthy and to begin to do things that made me happy.

I haven't even gone to church for months cause I found that church was so boring and religious and full of people with problems. I mean I couldn't even walk into a church without some person with mental issues sitting next to me and dumping all their problems onto me. So I thought to myself, 'does God even want me here". I know some of you reading this may think I'm not doing the right thing but for the first time in my life I decided to opt out of pew sitting and just hold Jesus hand and enter into the day to day relationship with him.

I'm now often reading chapters of scripture and am more close to HIm than ever and I have been delivered of the need to please people.

A woman I went to church with even stopped calling me once I left their church and we had been so close but I am sure now she has avoided me as she sees me as 'straying from the flock'.

This is so judgemental and typical of a lot of church culture as they are taught to fear and I honestly believe God is doing something amazing in my life right now. I feel as though I am hidden in His cave and that it is just me and Him. I honestly feel so close.

The only thing I felt I was rebelling in was in venturing out to find a man. I felt that I was sinning.

I never thought I would feel like I was sinning in going to church, but I do. It just feels like I am going around the same stupid mountain.

I go there and people try and put me in a box or make me 'serve' and join their programs. I sit in the church and sing a few songs that they say is worship and they preach a palatable message and then the service finishes, everyone gets into their clicks and says a polite hello but they actually don't want to get close, then some disabled guy comes up to me and tries to crack onto me or some nutty lady starts talking to herself in some kind of schizophrenic psychosis and so I go home feeling like a bloomin wreck, exhausted and as though I achieve nothing. If I want to worship God I can do it in my own home. If I want to be treated like an outcast I can find better places to go and have more fun being abused.

I guess I am over it and in all of this the Lord is saying to me, "I never told you to go, you deserve to be treated with respect and honoured". It is as if I need to enter into what God is doing and all these men I have been chasing have just been stalling and wasting time.

I know I have said a lot here. I thankyou for your input.

I know that I need peace to be my umpire.

Thanks guys.

DS

Dear Jasmine,

Firstly I want to say that while I am not going to 'counsel' you , I want to say that I was very touched by your post.

Secondly I want to say that you truly do have a gift of communication. You truly are talented.

Thirdly, I related so much to your story. If anything I could say, I would say to you is this. I have walked before you and been emotionally abused. I have been psychologically abused. I have been emotionally neglected and name called and insulted in so many legal ways that in all honesty should have been deemed illegal but unfortunately so much of society says sticks and stones may break our bones but names will never hurt us. The thing is, dear one, it would seem you have been abused in the worst of ways. Your pain has been dismissed as unimportant by those who should consider it important, cause dear, you are in pain. You are on your way to healing though. Just remember Jesus never sinned in his anger and yet he got so angry at injustice that he overturned the tables remember. Jesus is more angry at the way your family has mistreated you and the issue here is not forgiveness, the issue here is being heard. Your family choose to dismiss your pain cause they are in so much pain themselves. So forgive them. However sister, do not put up with their abuse. You need to be vocal and honest, if not for them, for yourself. Stand up for yourself. Hold your head up high and while the industry is full of evil (am am a film and television graduate who struggles with mental illness and was very hurt by the demonic activity in the film school I attended), the industry in itself is not evil. God needs good people in the industry and especially scriptwriters. And to be honest, you don't need to mingle with too many people in writing, you just write your script and send it to producers. I majored in creative writing and I also love writing scripts. THe things is Hollywood is going down the gurgler anyway, so don't feel too overwhelmed at where you're headed, media can be done from the comfort of your own home these days, so don't even think in analogue terms as to making it big in Hollywood when more and more films are being made on location and from various smaller companies that are often started by one or two people. Don't stress matey. The truth is for a 17 year old you have more than enough insight and talent to shine anywhere you go in whatever you do. The thing is, are you wanting to become important to prove to your parents that you are someone who should be listened to? Cause honey, you don't need their approval and you will most likely never get from them what you really need and that is to be heard. I wanted to be an actress at your age and after going through film school and several mental breakdowns, I realised that all I wanted was for my mum and dad to love me and see me as the beautiful girl I never thought I was. I thought that if the world could see me up on the big screen then they would love me. That no one would ever tease me again or belittle me or tell me I was insignificant. I would SHOW them which is why I was attracted to SHOW BUSINESS. I wanted to prove to them I was lovable cause deep inside I wanted to be loved and to be honest, my family loved me in their own way, but not enough. They told me I was fat and not good enough. Then society did the same thing. If I had scars for all those emotional wounds I'd be a bleeding mess and would need an op to remove the scar tissue. But the thing is emotional wounding has its evidence these days in labels and medication to try and fix the problem when really most likely what would fix your issues would be if your family were made to account for their words and inactions. You are right in putting blame where it is due. The issue is, how can you remove yourself from such abuse. Only you can answer that one. I'd say you need to find supports in somewhere like a church or in a good friend who listens to your pain. Sweety, you're not alone. Blessings

Hi everyone,

Hope you guys are having a great week.

I just wanted to stop by and say how much I appreciate this site. It has been some time that I have been on here but I always seem to find amazing stuff on here and fellowship from very mature Christians on here.

Anyhow, I have been getting counselling on and off for the past few years and it has been abysmal in that I have found it hard to get a Christian perspective in many ways.

So I guess I am writing here as a final attempt at wanting some clarity.

My dilemma is that I have had guy trouble for many years. I have dated so much since 2008, but have found myself in all sorts of trouble.

Mostly it is that many of these dates, the guys said they were Christian but were not and wanted to sleep with me. Many of them were met online since I Live in a rural area where it is hard to find single men.

IN my town, it is even harder to find Christian ones in my area. Mostly the guys at church are married and the only single ones seems to be either ones with a disability (no offense) or ones who are in the drug rehab centre which is backed by the church and well even though they look, they are not allow to date and to be honest, I'm not up for a troublesome guy or one who is on his way to recovery.

So in my searching, it has been one bad experience after another, so much so it has made me feel as if my old pastor who I am still friends with is right about saying I have a gift of singleness, cause in all honesty, it just doesn't seem to be happening.

But there is this one guy whom I am communicating with. He is a couple of states away from me (I'm Australian) and he is new to the country. I have been getting along well with him and yet I have tried to call things off with him several times. There are many reasons. He is African and many of my friends have said that he may just be wanting to get into the country. Another, is while he says he is a Christian, I am not so sure of his maturity or approach to God.

I am unsure about the whole thing. Yet on the other hand I am wondering why it feels like I am pushing him away cause I am more worried about what my friends would think of me going out with him and if they are right than what I feel when I am skyping or talking with him. He really seems so mature and kind and sensible.

However, there is always that voice in the back of my head saying "am I just past relationship and does God actually want me all to Himself?"

I just have no idea.

I am also very lonely cause a lot of my friends have married and moved on. To be honest, all my friends married really bad guys and so I am also worried that I am being tempted to do the same thing.

THe last time I broke up with this guy was last week and to be honest, I felt so much peace when I thought it was over. There was just me and my cat to worry about. Then he got back in contact with me and said he couldn't stop thinking about me and we basically started talking again. I have so much affection for him, but to be honest, my parents, my pastor, people very close to me, have not really encouraged me to seek a man in my life. My mum used to say all men were bastards and would warn me even as a young girl never to get married and my pastor who is a female and in her 60s and reckons she has the gift of singleness, pretty much thinks the same thing, It is like all the people that are important to me would rather I be single than married.

My pastor said I have a gift of singleness and yet all I have wanted is to be married. Yet at times, I feel that maybe she knows better than me about all this and that the reason I am having such problems with men is that I am meant to be single and that I must die to self or something?

In all honesty, I just feel so out of my depth when it comes to men, I really want to have a man, but whenever, I am in a relationship or semi relationship, I go through this tug of war constantly thinking God doesn't want me to have a man and I end up thinking he sabotaging my dating experiences in order that I remain single.

THis is so huge, but my question is, could someone shed some light on my confusion? Cause this is really exhausting.

Thankyou. I really appreciate and value your words. I'm going to visit this woman this weekend and I pray I have the courage to speak assertively.

I have peace in my heart about being single right now but my desire is for greater things. I guess marriage is the beautiful home, a good one.

Thanks so much. Even though I knew the interp I think apart of me just wants support in my dreams from another family member.

My parents don't even encourage me to find love.

Its a lonely road sometimes.

Blessings

Anyone????

Hi all,

I had a dream the other night that made me wonder.

I dreamt I was looking at these palatial homes and they were so beautiful and a real estate agent was taking me around and showing me all these places. They looked truly lovely. Then I turned around and I was automatically inside a home that was inside an estate for the retired and pensioners. I was sad cause my friend who in real life lives in one and she has been trying to encourage me to live there with her when I turn 50 which is like a decade away. I think in all honesty she wants me to look after her in her old age, so in real life I feel like she is manipulating me to come live in one of her complexes. I used to live with her when I was very young and it was a nightmare, she ruled the roost and she nearly drove me insane.

So this dream was really frustrating. In my dream I wanted the best home for me and was looking at palaces compared to the small but comfortable home in the complex. I did not want to go to the complex and felt this was settling for someone elses desire for my life and not my own.

At the moment I am currently seeing a guy and am fighting feelings of not knowing whether God wants me single or married. This woman in real life has often said I have a gift of singleness which really has hurt me as all I have wanted was to be married. And yet I am a mature christian and finding a man as mature as me is proving challening so at times I feel like throwing in the towel with my searches. Even though the guys I meet are lovely, they never 'feel' right for me.

I am wondering if this dream has to do with my desires for marriage and wanting the good things in life?

Hope someone can help.

Thanks for reading this.

Hi everyone! Just thought I would pop my head in and say Hi to everyone! Hope all is well

Daisy wrote:

I had a dream that I was back being friends with a certain person I used to be very close with. I cut her out of my life completely last summer. She wants to still be friends, but I just dont trust her, and I will not choose to let her back into my life. I know her character will more than likely never change.

I THINK THIS IS WISE, IF THERE IS NO TRUST, IT WOULD NOT BE WISE TO PURSUE FRIENDSHIP

In the dream, I offered to help her move (of her home) out of the kindness of my heart. My husbandTHE LORD? was questioning why I would do this, it confused him. THERE IS A PULLING TUG OF WAR YOU ARE GOING THROUGH THAT PERHAPS THE LORD IS WONDERING WHY YOU STILL CONSIDER HER YOUR FRIEND AND ARE HELPING HER - IN YOUR HEART PERHAPS?

In the dream though, it was a peace offering to keep my heart right towards her. I brought my son along to help with the move, then realized he would b
e in the way more than anything, so I asked my husband to take him back home with him. Only I went to help her move. Next scene we werent moving at all, PERHAPS YOUR FRIEND WANTED HELP BUT IN FACT WAS TRING TO INVOLVE HERSELF WITH A PART OF YOUR LIFE THAT IS MORE PERSONAL AND VULNERABLE PERHAPS?

we were at my new church that I love (IRL). She knew all kinds of people there somehow. I asked her if she belongs to this church, and told her that we just started going to this church too. She said she sort of goes to this church, like she was torn or something. THIS IS REVEALING OF HOW SHE PERHAPS IS NOT SETTLED IN HERSELF OR RELIABLE

I seen other people who went to our old church, and they were kind of like hiding that they also went to this church...like they didnt want others to know they were considering going to another church. I said Hi to a person who is a key leader at our old church, and she quickly said she attends first service at my new church, but then goes to the later service back at our old church. I thought to myself, 'WOW, people come to my new church to actually get FED and then they go back to my old church to minister to others and serve.' We went into the church office, and my old friend handed one of the office administraters a letter. We were waiting there for something, then I seen her son standing next to her. He must have been 13 or 14 years old (IRL he is 6). I hardly recognized him bc he grew so much. I told her and him what a cutie he still was. Then I asked her how long it had been since I seen him? She said some date...a while ago. I couldn't believe how much he had grown up.
PERHAPS YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR CHURCH RATHER THAN ALLOWING THE FEELINGS OF ABANDONMENT YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR FRIEND AS THERE ARE THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR CHURCH AND IF YOU DO NOT BE CAREFUL YOU WILL MISS OUT ON SEEING THE GROWTH IN YOUR OWN LIFE ?

Scene change: Then we were in a gymnasium and we were moving a few things around, these people were helping her move things I think. THIS SOUNDS LIKE A CONFIRMING POINT THAT YOU ARE MOVING ON IN YOUR LIFE FROM YOUR FRIENDSHIP AND THE NEXT PHASE IS ABOUT PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT PERHAPS?


There was a young adult there, and she introduced him to me. I think he was one of the pastors son. She said he was high on pain meds, and was laughing about it...like it was an uncommon thing for him to take pain meds or something. DO YO U HAVE A HEALING MINISTRY OR HAVE YOU WANTED TO PURSUE ONE?

Then she joked, that he should try some of her stronger pain meds (she had a surgery and got hooked on them last year). Scene change again.

I was in a bedroom, and I looked under the mattress, and there were unwrapped fiber/breakfast bars under the bed. There were like 10 of them. I had the thought that I needed to talk to my daughter about hiding food in her room. When I took a second look under the mattress,, there was moving objects under the bed with the fiber bars, which I couldn't make out what they were but I concluded they were bugs. Then the bed ended up being my old friends bed. She was laying in the bed. I seen this BIG brown blob on the floor! It started moving my way. I tried to go into the back room, but the door wouldnt close all the way. I thought about putting a rag or cloth in the door, to keep the door from opening up when the blob came my way...but then my old friend yelled at the blob and told it to go away!!! It listened! Wierd, I woke up!!!

COULD THE HEALING MINISTRY BE SOMETHING YOU NEED TO DEVELOP BUT THE MORE YOU DEVELOP IT YOU WILL NEED TO LOOK AT THE HIDDEN AREAS OF YOUR LIFE THAT ARE REALLY UNPLEASANT AND OF A PERSONAL CLOSE NATURE? BED DENOTES A RESTING PLACE SO PERHAPS IN PURSUING THE MINSTRY YOU NEED TO LOOK AT THE PERSONAL AREAS OF YOUR LIFE?

i HOPE THIS HELPS. gOOD TO SEE YOU ON HERE dAISY
Please share your thoughts on this one....

P.S. Once again, there is NO CHANCE I will ever befriend this person again irl. I will pray for her and her family, but I want zero interactions with her. I do feel bad for cutting her off, but I know in my heart it was a very good decision, as I keep hearing things that confirm that she not only is in a really bad place in her life, but she also is NOT a safe person. God keeps confirming my decision, and I have a peace with that. It hurts me though to reject her, especially bc she wants to still be friends.

anyone?

thanks,

Hi Everyone,

Long time no see, been really busy of late and was reminded of how this is such a good site and have got a really good friend from this site whom I met on here about 4 or 5 years ago now. The Lord is good.

I have put a dream up, but really just wanted to see you all here and say Hi, missed ya'll.

DS

I pray that more is uncovered and that the enemy is twarted with all his plans.In jesus name, Amen

Hi all,

It's been a while since I have been on here, thought I would grace you all with my presence with a dream i had of recent.

I dreamt I was in a warehouse for gardening, the place was huge! I was talking with a friend who has recently IRL asked to not be associated with me anymore.
As I looked at what I bought, I saw I had a ceramic pot full of dead bones and arms and legs that were from a statue. I was thinking in the dream, "this is from a grave".

I am wondering if this dream is about the death of my friendship and whether the Lord is saying to just acceot that the friendship is over.

It was really strange cause my friendship ended just as my goldfish began to die and the fish was named by the friend I mentioned and I had an idea that once the fish died, the friendship was over. The friend came to my house a week or so later to tell me they didn't want to be friends anymore.

My friend I had been hoping to witness to and it was a really hard call as she was gay and her partner had been an old friend of mine who used to be a christian when we were teenagers. She even had spoken in tongues and I had so hoped to lead them to Christ, but due to some disagreements, they decided to end the friendship.

Anyhow, i thankyou all for your time and am glad to see you all here.

Love DS

I had dreams (two to be exact) lately where bugs and insects were coming out of all of my orifices. - discusting I know- could someone please help me with this? It was really disturbing to have them.

i hear ya.........i used to have a friend who when stressed would twitch. God knows so lift them up in prayer, but nevertheless this sort of thing is being labelled and yet again people do not know what to do with these sorts of things and love to coin a disease. It kinda looks good on their resume for medical experts if they have coined a term. I suffer from M.C.B.A which is a mild case of baloney avoidance so I would be careful about all these terms that are flying around too.

Thing is the enemy wants us to take our focus off the situation at hand and that is, Jesus is the healer and focus of our lives, no mattewr what doctors diagnose people as having, He wants us well.

Good on you for spotting this one out and no matter where it is NYC or Kansas or Timbucktoo as we Aussies say, the devil is roaming about, but Jesus is everywhere!

Wow this is answer to prayer Linda. I pray you respond well to the operation and treatment in His healing name, Amen.

where is this place exactly?

HE IS!

IM glad you received the response I had Jasmine as it was something I felt on my heart to reply with. God will move you in His time and in His way. TRUST is the key.

BLessings.

Helicopter could be a vehicle of some sort and could mean part of warfare.

Teapot could mean service of some sort, hospitality.

Hope Ive been of help. Let me know as I have found the two symbols very interesting.

Think about what a bear does. It devours. I know this may sound wierd but in spiritual warfare a demon who is characteristic of a bear will display the characteristics of something that is attacking you and is commonly known as a spirit that is trying to kill resources of the person it is attacking. The fact it is coming through the back door suggests it is coming from behind at grass level. Something attacking you of late that is being sneaky but determined at the same time and coming at you at grass level? I would pray about this. And come against the attack in the spirit. Hope this has helped.