I would really appreciate all of the prayers that my brothers and sisters in the Lord here would offer. In the past year, I have been outright betrayed by three people very close to me. I don't mean had a disagreement with. I mean literally, unexpectedly thrown under the bus for no obvious, rational reason. Each has been painful in it's own unique way. Each has come completely out of left field from people who would seem to be solid at the time and have no real reason to turn on me. The most recent just a few hours ago from a relative whom I have helped in ways you can't imagine, mentored when no one else would give this person the time of day, and loved when no one else on earth would. I am/was literally this person's only friend in human form. What started as a normal phone call ended with this person misunderstanding a situation and threatening violence toward me and my immediate family. This relative has a history of violent behavior, and I have tried my best to be a source of stability when everyone else had discarded him. I don't fear him, personally, as I trust God to protect me, but I fear a boundary might have been breached that will be next to impossible to repair even with forgiveness. This is all very crushing, and when emotion is invested like in these situations, it's hard to get out from under the weight of the hurt even when giving it to the Lord. I know that I have a High Priest who certainly understands betrayal. My health has been suffering dramatically from the stress and pain of the situations. I have gone from a vibrant, healthy 210 pounds to 150 pounds in a matter of months, have no appetite and am having some potentially major health issues due to malnourishment and lack of sleep, and have grown weary of force-feeding myself as it didn't seem to be working anyway. All of this has hampered my ability to work, minister, and even pray. Needless to say, with my work hindered, I'm not exactly rolling in cash at present. I know God is able, I'm just so tired, and there's strength in numbers. My heart is so tired. I can't begin to imagine how to describe how tired my heart is. Thank you for your prayers.
Hey guys...I have a meeting with an attorney tomorrow morning regarding a VERY delicate and important subject. Please join me in praying for God's direction and the wisdom of James chapter 1, both for me and the attorney. Thank you for the prayers. God bless.
I would really appreciate all of the prayers that my brothers and sisters in the Lord here would offer. In the past year, I have been outright betrayed by three people very close to me. I don't mean had a disagreement with. I mean literally, unexpectedly thrown under the bus for no obvious, rational reason. Each has been painful in it's own unique way. Each has come completely out of left field from people who would seem to be solid at the time and have no real reason to turn on me. The most recent just a few hours ago from a relative whom I have helped in ways you can't imagine, mentored when no one else would give this person the time of day, and loved when no one else on earth would. I am/was literally this person's only friend in human form. What started as a normal phone call ended with this person misunderstanding a situation and threatening violence toward me and my immediate family. This relative has a history of violent behavior, and I have tried my best to be a source of stability when everyone else had discarded him. I don't fear him, personally, as I trust God to protect me, but I fear a boundary might have been breached that will be next to impossible to repair even with forgiveness. This is all very crushing, and when emotion is invested like in these situations, it's hard to get out from under the weight of the hurt even when giving it to the Lord. I know that I have a High Priest who certainly understands betrayal. My health has been suffering dramatically from the stress and pain of the situations. I have gone from a vibrant, healthy 210 pounds to 150 pounds in a matter of months, have no appetite and am having some potentially major health issues due to malnourishment and lack of sleep, and have grown weary of force-feeding myself as it didn't seem to be working anyway. All of this has hampered my ability to work, minister, and even pray. Needless to say, with my work hindered, I'm not exactly rolling in cash at present. I know God is able, I'm just so tired, and there's strength in numbers. My heart is so tired. I can't begin to imagine how to describe how tired my heart is. Thank you for your prayers.