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I was at home with my parents, yet I remember relating to my mother only. I found somewhere a 2-inch, heart-shaped ruby stone. I also happened to have a sterling silver heart setting that it somehow snapped into from behind. I didn't feel that it was secure enough, though, so I went and asked my mother for something that could help, even lighter-duty glue. Before I did this, I slid the whole piece on a chain and placed it around my one cat's neck. I also let him outside into my front yard. It seemed like he wouldn't go away too far, yet I would never do this in reality.

Mother thought it was nice that I found it, but she neither knew about the stone being here or was thrilled that we had it. I remember telling her that I was going to use the glue she found for me because, "I don't want to lose something that uncommon/rare." Then I went outside and picked my cat up to retrieve the piece, but the stone was gone. Mother was indifferent about what happened, like she didn't really care and practically expected me to lose it.

I actually didn't panic, although feeling terrible that I may have lost the stone for good, but I wanted to be optimistic that I might find it again. Besides, it seemed like kitty stayed close by while talking to mom. There was some light snow while there was daylight, yet it melted away at night. When I first looked down to where kitty was prior on my front step, I found a stone that looked close to what was in the setting, but it didn't have the same center faceting like the original. I wanted the first stone because it looked better in all ways than this one. I scanned more of the front yard and it was now dark as I reached the upper part of our front sidewalk, and I found another slimmer, checkerboard-faceted pink heart stone. Moreover, this one I could tell was definitely glass. I felt sad, though I didn't get to look in our back yard. I woke up shortly after finding the faux pink stone.


Not much of the scheme of this dream made any sense, like the stone fitting into the back of a random silver setting that we just had, or me gracing one of my two cats with a valuable piece, or even my mother's attitude. And why did I find the other stones rather easily? I usually have dreams that leave me feeling disappointed and sad, and like most of the ones I remember after waking up I really wanted to forget this dream. Maybe it is still valid to an extent. What do you think?

Can sin repel angelic presences, even mild stuff like watching daytime tv?

After thinking about the situation, how would anyone know that she became a mass of salt when no one was allowed to turn aroud and look?: chinscratch:

Was there someone walking behind her?

I had a falling-out with the pastor of my church this past Sunday. We have practically opposite views on divine healing and God's character. He thinks it's not always God's will to heal everyone, but I think it's one of the provisions available to all believers through Jesus' end-life suffering and death. I believe God responds according to the individual's faith in Him. This man thinks God kills, injures, and sickens people today, but I believe it's not God's will for anyone to perish in the sense of Him wanting to wreak havoc like that. Someone else once told me that it was really the intense access to God's power/presence in the Church's beginning stages along with abusing it by offering profane fire in the O.T. for example, not God just wanting to kill people because He was angry at their disobedience. The only time He actually killed-off large numbers of people was the flood incident because the human race became perverted by angelic 'D.N.A.' My pastor also debased me for not having knowledge because I haven't yet attended college. I told him that I'm not interested in any of that right now because I'd otherwise be spending money that I don't have at the moment because I'm not currently working, as is also my father after a car wreck injury to his upper back, shoulders, and arms. I'm now searching for work, but I'm honestly not interested in taking any courses right now because I'm not sure what I want to do yet besides start working a job somewhere. Me not wanting to go back to school (and I did graduate for senior high) doesn't mean I'm not knowledgable or otherwise don't have much of a value as a person.

I felt that my pastor was actually targeting me to feel better about himself and his own kids, even though one of them is an atheist. I haven't ever felt that I was accepted for myself at that church, and this event confirmed these suspicions. I told him that he doesn't have a right to tell me how to believe in God and live my own life. This was probably the first time in my life when I stood my own ground against someone else who wasn't treating me right in person.

My question now, though, is should I go back to that church? What if he targets me in his sermons because it boosts his ego? I don't want to go there to be criticized every week.

I sincerely appreciate all helpful advice given here. I still feel emotional pain from what these men did to me, but I have to choose to not let this pain control my spirit's path; I can't let it tear me away from God or devaluize myself. In fact, this may have been a good experience for me because I learned not to reveal everything in my heart to others (or else not right away) because of the risk of causing offense. I opened myself up to these people because I was hoping they could confirm for me whether or not things in my life (including my feelings about Jesus) were alright with God since I was unsure of this at the time. I achnowledge that I really need confidence now more than ever, but I also learned to let God be pretty much the Only One Who gives it to me because I can't always know whether or not people really know God or what's right concerning different situations. I think it's a matter of relying on Jesus to help me to fully know Him before I can be confident in myself or others (depending on how much their beliefs/hearts match-up with His). Thanks so much for this enlightenment!


I have already revealed some personal things about my heart on this forum, but hopefully it's understandable that I'm a little wary after what happened to me on the other I used to go to. Actually, I expressed more about myself here than I did before on the other site. I guess they were more sensitive on that forum, or else they just wanted rid of me. However, another thing I learned is that I must respect others' sensitivities and weaknesses. But what if I don't initially know what they are, especially when first getting to know someone? Besides, I thought those people would be able to take it without being offended.

Thank-you everyone for your insight on this; I have to see myself as having a greater value with God being present in my life.

One of the ways that people have hurt me before which still bothers me was what happened when I tried seeking advice and prayer from another christian man from out-of-state. I met him on a different forum website pertaining to divine healing, and he said he wouldn't mind calling me. It was during the first call that he 'admitted' to me before I said anything intimate about myself that he used to watch "hard-core" porn on YouTube. I didn't know back then that no one is allowed to post such material there, but I think someone who works with technology and security systems such as himself must have known this unless possibly these images were on YouTube at one time before being totally removed. I fell for his false honesty, as I believe that's what it really was, and afterward told him personal things about myself because I mistakenly thought I had to confess such things [that I really didn't know whether or not were sinful/wrong] in order to be forgiven and physically healed by God. We continued to communicate over the next seven or eight months, and his prayers for me weren't going anywhere or resulting in any positive changes. I also noticed multiple times that he was starting to evade me when I'd mention my opinions on his beliefs; he might say that he's busy and has to go/leave while on chat or during a call if I explained my disagreement with any of his thoughts for example. He was in with others who eventually ganged-up on me and had the main moderator bash me although not ban me. (Keep in mind that I didn't tell anyone else on that site anything personal about myself before I talked with this man on the phone except for my age at the time, which I think was nineteen, my physical infirmities with the durations I've had them, and how unworthy of God's help I felt then.)

What exactly happened then and why? I think it's obvious, but is there something else I'm missing? I believed I could go to these people for help during a time in my life when I didn't think I could go to anyone else. (I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer in 2009, I didn't think I could talk to my father, and I have no siblings and no close friends my age.) They seemed like that nicest people you could ever meet when you first talk with them-the man I talked to on the phone even told me I was "a beautiful person." I never had an experience with guys like this one before, and I wasn't expecting this at all. Furthermore, the man who trashed me finally who was also the main moderator on that site didn't post hardly anything at all while I was there until the time he decided to get me and afterward, and another man I talked to in chat never participated in the tele-conference calls which I did unless he never spoke up and maybe did after I quit taking part in them.

How do I forgive these people now when they believe their treatment of me was right? In fact, I think these people feel that everything they do is right even though they're now trying to hide things by using coded words [that have number and other sybols substituting letters] in their current posts and by not saying as much or just mainly quoting scriptures.

Today I talked with another christian I've known for awhile, and he said that there is something in my presence that attracts people to generally mistreat me. I believe that I'm shy and reserved when communicating with someone in person, and my self-confidence is pretty low. Yet I've been tramped on most of my life, so I just consistently endured it because fighting back never made it stop anyway. Besides, I chose to be very modest because I wanted to be nice instead of hurtful in telling anyone off. Does this mean I should draw people in to hurt me, or else treat me like I have a lesser value as a human being? I certainly don't believe so.

I want to stop this in my life now because I'm recently starting to become upset that many people treat me like this when I express personal views about my faith they don't agree with or when I tell them I disagree with something they believe in as fact. It seems to me that people close to me are trying to control my beliefs about God and the supernatural by not treating me with respect after I tell them I don't believe exactly the same as they do. They may do things like make excuses that they're too busy to talk to me and have to go (basically evade me somehow) or just mock what I tell them. How should I manage this?

I was wondering how to go about this. Can you effectively try this on yourself? What if you don't have experience with speaking in tongues or receiving words of knowledge? Are there such spirits of fear, depression, unbelief, bitterness, etcetera? Can such demons and Satan prevent even a christian from truly knowing God and believing in/hearing from Him, as well as other things like being physically healed and forgiven/delivered from sin? How can I know whether or not I am being affected in any way by demons whether physically, emotionally, or both?

Anyone out there have experience with finding and casting-out demons? Any advice would be helpful. Thank-you.

I used to read sections from it some years ago.


According to Wikipedia, these are some of the ways it differs from Christianity:

-Jesus' crucifixion is not considered an atonement for the sins of humanity. The crucifixion is taught to be an outcome of the fears of religious leaders of the day, who regarded his teachings as a threat to their positions of authority.

-God is never wrathful or angry. He is a personality entirely motivated by Father-like love.

-Jesus is the human incarnation of "Michael of Nebadon," one of more than 700,000 "Paradise Sons" of God, or "Creator Sons." Jesus is not considered the second person of the Trinity as he is in Christianity. The book refers to the Eternal Son as the second person of the Trinity.

-Jesus was born on earth through natural means of conception instead of a virgin birth.

-Jesus did not walk on water or perform some of the miracles that are attributed to him in the Bible.

-Jesus commissioned twelve women (and later more) as religious teachers, who traveled about with him and his apostles on their preaching missions.

-Jesus rose from the dead in a "more glorified form", reflective of a transitional state between material and spiritual existence known as "morontia". As with all mortals, his physical body was subject to decomposition, but celestial beings removed his body from the tomb for the dissolution of his remains through a process of "accelerated time".

-The book states that Jesus may return to the world many times. This contrasts with traditional Christian eschatology, in which Jesus returns only once.


I recently learned that this belief system is a New Age cult. I believe I was attracted to it before because I didn't want to accept that Someone had to suffer and die for me to be accepted by God. Yet, how can I know what's accurate, even including the Bible? How can one know for certain that the Bible (translation of the original Greek text of the NT and that of the Hebrew text of the OT) is reliable? Furthermore, maybe some people overexaggerate some of the "good things" in the Bible, such as love, physical divine healing, Jesus' deeds, and the afterlife (such as how 'perfect' Heaven is supposed to be, for example)? I don't want to offend anyone by saying these things; I'm just searching for answers and the actual truth.

I think my fear of disappointment through breakdown and loss are partly from myself because of many things that have happened in my life. As a result, I'm afraid of rejection and harsh criticism from Jesus. I figure if so many people could be negative towards me, then how could He be any different? I recognize that some of my feelings and dreams could be caused by demonic forces. Yet, I wonder why Satan and demons can have so much power over our lives, even if we're oblivious to it going on?

I'm not sure how popular "Winx Club" is, but I dreamed I was the teenage fairy Bloom. She is a fairy of fire-all of her attacks are of fire-and is the strongest fairy in the "magic dimension" since her power is derived from the "Great Dragon" deity. She also attends Alfea, a school for fairies, with her friends, who take courses on their powers, magic, spells, and the like.

For more information, read: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bloom_(Winx_Club)

I dreamed that I was Bloom and was alive with Jesus, but during the Renaissance. (Possibly relative to the European "Witchhunts?"-I'm not a history buff.) My dream was mainly in 1st-person, but it mostly involved my own vivid thoughts as Bloom. I believe I was in 3D as well, and there is a 3D version of Bloom in the "Winx Club" movies (which are entirely 3D unlike the cartoon series). I was trying to avoid encountering Jesus because I dreaded that He would consider me a witch, publicly make everyone opposed to me, and remove my powers. I remember even being angry and hateful towards Him. I actually didn't meet Jesus, and I was very relieved that I didn't. However, I didn't feel good about the whole experience.

I actually really love Jesus, but I do fear that He could reject me. I've been harshly criticized and rejected by other people, and I'm very used to disappointment, loss, and breakdown. (I lost my dedication to my dreams of entering the medical field someday because not much can really be done for most diseases/conditions. I lost friends in relationships due to offense and my mother to pancreatic cancer. (Many people have made me feel trashy with their words. Maybe much of the negative things I was told about myself cause me to feel as debased as if I was labeled a "witch?" Furthermore, witches operate inversely of fairies in "Winx Club," so much so that fairies would take strong offense at being called a "witch.") My overall health isn't good, and I neglected my body worse than most people by not caring enough about it-I cared more about other things that definitely weren't as important after realizing this too late.) Therefore, I don't have confidence in much at all. My answer to "Are you going to be in Heaven someday?" is "I'm not totaly sure." I think "Winx Club" is cool, but I know that stuff isn't real.

Thanks for any input on this.

Happy First Birthday, kitties! >^..^< >^..^< >^..^< >^..^< >^..^<

Yes, I meant "+<><" to be a fish following a cross, but I just saw it before somewhere on the Internet and thought it was cool.


My five kittens are going to be a year old this Sunday, so how about this?: >^..^<
This one's my idea, but it's probably out there on the Internet, too. I spend too much time on the Internet and watching television. I'd say I'm housebound right now, but I'm going to try to get a job very shortly.

When I first came here, I thought this forum was mainly centered around dream and vision interpretation. However, I'm also now posting about more strange experiences I've had than just my dreams and visions. I'm now wondering if and how everything's connected in my life, so it's all really important. Like, how are the things that are physically happening to me in life related to or maybe caused by the spiritual, and what do all of my circumstances reveal about myself and what's happening supernaturally? It's great to be able to write about your experiences with the supernatural (the positive, negative, and ?) here and then see if you're like others or vice versa, therefore enabling the Body of Christ to be more connected.

Well, I think I'm able to “read” people more than ever by listening to them speak and observing their facial expressions. For example, I can tell from listening to people (esp. on television) whether or not they are skeptical by their tone. Yet, this may not be a gift; I think a lot of people can do this through experience.

I've been told that I'm a very sensitive person, and many things scare and offend me anymore. I probably shouldn't, but I do watch a lot of television ever since my mother died from pancreatic cancer on February 12, 2009. (She was fifty-seven years old.) My family just got basic cable around the time television signals were being switched from analog to digital, so it was easier for us to just upgrade somewhat to cable. My father was working at the time, and I was home alone without a job. (I'm planning on starting work somewhere soon.) I also don't have any siblings, so I was lonely during the day and ended-up sleeping during the daytime and being up at night. When I was up, I'd keep the tube on constantly and channel surf among ten-ish stations. I actually hate much of the stuff on television, and the really morbid content scares me even though it is reality (to an extent when it comes to not believing in God). Yet, I still can't keep the thing off.

Furthermore, I've sensed bad things before knowing what they were, like my dad getting hit from two cars from behind. I didn't know what was happening, but that morning I just felt like I didn't want him to leave for work. I was awake earlier than usual that day as my father was getting ready. I felt uneasy, but I had no idea why. He's still hurting in his shoulders today ever since this accident happened in 2007, and he now can't work because of tearing and nerve damage. I don't feel pain in my shoulders like my dad does, but he does have stiffness in his upper back and arms, and I'll get stiffness and soreness from my jaw joints, to my neck, then down throughout my back and sometimes my legs. My doctor told me my jaw joints are arthritic (I do have TMJ), but I feel wonder if I'm starting to get arthritis in the rest of my body; I'll even get sore in my finger and toe joints. (I can crack my toes often and have for most of my life, but I rarely crack my fingers.) Both my parents had/have arthritis, but I'm not sure exactly how bad it is/was.

In another recent post here, I explained how I've heard voices that predicted future losses/infirmities:

Another odd thing I forgot to mention concerning my mom dying was that I felt this great heaviness and yet seemed to be drifting as I walked through the house this one day—I was alone at home this day as my mother was in the hospital with cancer and my father was at work. In my mind, I get this message like it was a “death” spirit. Could there be any truth about this, or was it just the trauma I was going through then that was taking its toll on me?

I'm not sure if I'm affected by other's pain in unusual ways, Christa, but I believe there's something spiritual going on behind the scenes.

Thank-you for your helpful response, Kitty. I still have issues with fear because I really don't know God as well as I should, and I've been exposed to and live with a lot of negative things. I have many health issues, most of them being permanent/incurable, and have had frequent experiences where I actually heard voices tell me I'll never be healed.

In one instance, I accidentally injured myself one night without me immediately realizing it as the initial pain wasn't too bad. I do remember what happened, and shortly after I hurt myself, this authoritative, masculine voice told me that I'll "be affected by this night for the rest of my life." I didn't realize I injured myself until the next day, and I still have these physical issues to this very day after about two years! (This is because my wounds actually can't be surgically repaired, or so I was told by my doctor.) I was physically alone in my room that night, yet that voice was so real that it seemed like there was literally another person with me. After this happened, I'd sometimes wake-up to being told in my dreams that I'll "never be healed."

Another time, I went in another room to leave my mother alone, who was very bitter at the time. I soon had this voice speak to me in my mind that said in a negative tone, "You better go spend time with your dying mother." I thought, "She isn't dying! That's rediculous!" Not so, since she did die about a month afterward from pancreatic cancer. (My mother passed-away on February 12, 2009, at fifty-seven years old.)

Recently, I had a similar mental-voice experience again where I was told I'll develop a "permanent jaw condition." This occurred some months ago last year, and I now have temporomandibular joint disorder, or TMJ/TMD. It was worse initially, and at least I seem to have a lot less pain with it and maybe more mobility. My jaw is still rather stiff, and I'll have soreness and jaw-cracking/-popping at times. I notice that the muscles in my face tighten when I'm stressed, agitated, or focusing deeply, but I don't really clench my teeth unless I do in my sleep where I believe I'm stressed at times in my dream life.

I physically feel like I'm twice my current age and I'm living in the prison of my body. Also, and I don't mean this in the sense that I want to or believe I'm going to Hell, but I feel like I'm at Hell's doorstep nowadays if that makes sense. I've gotten to the point that I honestly feel (and fear) that my circumstances are more real than God. This is all pretty messed-up. I do believe God is real and love Him, and I have been healed of some things before, but it's difficult to trust Someone you don't entirely know for changes that seem like will never come.

I haven't been here for some time. Thank-you, lola21st. I've been criticzed numerous times before and recently by other christians, so I'm starting to think that condemnation only comes from Satan/demons and people. Sometimes I'd wonder if God could judge harshly like people in some cases. I need to overcome a lot from my past when it comes to people.

Reading the first post here under this topic reminds me of the similar healing miracles I've experienced myself. I went to a healing seminar once; a man there prayed for my legs to align, and my left one supposedly lengthened although I didn't see or feel anything as this occurred. Right after standing-up, though, I felt like I could stand more evenly and my clothes seemed to be laying better on me. This person who prayed for me lives in an area I frequent; he works on computers and provides my Internet service. I visited him one day right after receiving new glasses so he could enable my monitor to allow my speakers to operate. I asked him to pray for me while I was there since he did before with success, and he prayed for me in tongues. My vision in my right eye was blurry while wearing my new glasses that day, and I'd squint that eye--I felt messed-up. As this man prayed for me, I felt this cool air sensation over that eye and immediately could see clearly out of it. I also had this strange type of pain from these supposedly permanent injuries, which I still have after some years, that felt like the point of a knife was in me after standing for about half an hour. I once felt something shift in that area while in church after an interpretation, and I never had that particular pain since. Unfortunately, I still have other relative pain with the nerve and tissue damage as well as many other things: temporomandibular joint disorder; tooth sensitivity from decay; myopia; accidental earlobe-piercing stretching from wearing too-heavy earrings; extrinsic asthma; many food and nasal allergies that have resulted in swallowing difficulty and me losing my uvula to allergic infection; back and leg soreness; hirsutism; and poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. Yeah... Oh, I was also told that I'm at high risk for getting type II diabetes someday, and I'm almost twenty years old now--I feel like I'm about twice my current age.

Now I personally feel that people receive healing from Jesus exactly according to their faith, including how long it takes for it to manifest and if it ever does. I don't intend to offend anyone with what I'm writing, and I read the forum rules, so I won't divulge names. I used to communicate with these 'christians' who really hurt me, and they'd follow certain people who are/were supposedly popular in ministering healing. Some of these famous 'christians' teach the necessity of doing things in order to be able to receive from God (I probably shouldn't mention them here because I'm worried about causing offense). One such person and his followers who I used to follow myself kept telling me and everyone that people generally must wait some time before healing manifests because of such things as "God is honored through patience and may also be testing your faith." (I hope it's alright that I just wrote this.) Yet, this could indeed be why many people don't get healed, and I'd think this would lead to discouragement after a while. In my search to learn the truth, I've unfortunately let myself be too exposed to many of the doubts people have concerning divine healing in the Western Church, and I still fear the possibility of these doubts being true. This is an important reason why I wish I could hear from the Holy Spirit, because it's easy to get confused out there. Besides, I don't remember Jesus practicing this when it came to healing people, except maybe in:

1.) Mark 8:22-25; At Bethsaida, Jesus had to lay His hands on a blind man's eyes twice before he was fully healed.
2.) Luke 17:12-15; Jesus tells ten lepers to show themselves to the priests, and they were cleansed on their way.
3.) John 9:7; A man born blind is healed after Jesus tells him to go wash in the Pool of Siloam.

However, it doesn't seem like anyone was healed by Jesus in His day over longer than twenty-four hours. I know there were other healings in scripture, and even some in the Old Testament, but I don't think any of them took longer than one day, if even that long. If I'm wrong about this, please correct me.

I know of many doubts when it comes to supernatural healing from Jesus, and I'm afraid of any or all of them being true. I believe this along with a low self-value, negative past experiences with many people, unresolved guilt, and misconceptions of God are causing me to stay unhealed. I'd suggest that if you have a strong faith in Jesus as your Healer, guard it! If you don't, guard your heart against anything negative occupying it (if that's possible somehow--I'm not sure how when negative things seem to be a natural part of your life)! I'd assume that God is entirely positive, anyway, so maybe that's a good enough reason to ignore all of the too-common unbelief that's being taught nowadays. Yet, if your new to learning about Jesus being your Healer, how are you supposed to really know what out there is right and what's not?

For anyone who wants to answer:

Is there possibly a wrong way or extent to love Jesus? I've been in love with Him for the past near five years and am not sure if my feelings for Him are wrong to have. I feel very affectionate for Him, but definitely not to the extent that some people I've heard take this. How can I know if I'm wrong? It did feel very awkward at first, but eventually it seemed beautiful. I can't directly hear from God to know if this upset or pleased Him.

Too, I know that there are various ways that the Song of Solomon is interpreted. Besides that, there are many other biblical references to God/Christ being our Husband or the Bridegroom. Jesus is supposed to be everything to us, right? Most people tend to put their relationship with Him in a box, but I feel like I was willing to take mine out of this box. I just wish I was confident with my choice (that it's alright).

Thanks.

In the past week, I had this nightmare where I was struggling and fearful under much water. It looked like I was deep in this sea, and I was moving though some large, dark shipwreck structures. There was only darkness of the shadows from the huge items and a turquoise-like blue from the light that penetrated the water. I could actually breathe, but I felt heavy pressure on my chest and therefore had difficulty in breathing. During this experience, I was being told that this is what my life would be like without Christ, mainly by me not trusting Him or believing that He wants to help me. (I've known that Jesus is real and I do love Him, but I haven't been trusting Him due to my own fears that He may not help in the end.) I remember saying, "Please, I want out. I don't want to be here anymore." I was sad and afraid that I'd be here for the rest of my life or die. Even though I don't recall me confessing my acceptance of trusting God, I think I must've done it well-enough in my heart as I was somehow being lifted up to the surface, but the dream ended just before I reached it.

I had this vision (when I was awake, and it was transparent-I could see my surroundings behind it) of a young woman in mostly white circus attire. Her blonde hair (although I don't have blonde hair and am not as attractive as she was) and skirt had volume, and her top hat wasn't small, either. She was carefully walking down a narrow dirt path out in a grassy field. She had her feet very close together as she was walked, and she held her arms out (horizontally) at her sides, bent at the elbows with her thumbs and index fingers together with her other fingers also extended. Her poise seemed effortless like she wasn't strained at all.

I even had some odd dreams this past year. In one of them, there were students that were being taught by this strange woman. I recall that she kept doing crazy things, and I knew that she was constantly trying to get and keep their attention on her and the things she was doing. I also know she was trying to scare them and maybe even convince them of being failures/threats to themselves. I can't remember all the details, but she walked around a lot, warning them of punishment from her and what they'd make of themselves someday. She also did scary/perverted things that really didn't make sense. One such act was when she was biting into a porcelain bowl with a very large, faux bloody tooth at the upper front of her mouth, which dropped-off into the bowl. The students were pretty aloof, seeming like they weren't affected at all. Some of the boys were even laughing at and mocking this woman behind her back. They thought she was insane. I vividly recall the kids using chalk to draw the same symbol repeatedly on a sidewalk outside. This symbol was an equilateral triangle within a circle-a geometrically perfect image, and the points of the triangle were located on the circle. Their teacher never made them stop drawing and acted oblivious to it.

In another dream, I was in a relationship with Jesus and was my current age (nineteen), but He was in His early twenties. We were both wearing dark-colored, modern clothes. Jesus was wearing all black and had long dark brown, wavy hair. For some reason I don't remember His face, but I don't think He had a long beard-maybe a close-shaven one We were walking outdoors, and I was happy to be with Him at first. I remember balance-walking on this two- or three-foot tall stone border, and He was by my side. As it went on though, He wouldn't let anyone talk to me. Later, there was a young man who came up to me and offered me these dark-colored (practically black) leather and rubber-soled shoes. They looked sharp. Jesus wouldn't let me accept them and actually threw them at the guy who gave them to me, who was then running away. I told Jesus that He was being mean, but He didn't care and said something like He was glad that man was hit by his "crummy"/"shoddy" gift, which Jesus threw at him. At the end of this dream, I didn't want to be near Jesus anymore, so I walked faster (but didn't run) to get away from Him. Jesus did let me have some distance, but I wasn't with anyone else and He was still following and watching me.

I do believe these experiences reflect me. I'd greatly appreciate any feedback about them and their meaning. Thank-you.

My name is Laura, and I'm nineteen years old. I have five kittens that are almost nine months old. They were actually born a month before my own birth date on March 7th of this year. I think I could best describe my christian walk as a work in progress, although that's likely true for everyone. My goal is to grow in faith, which should result in exciting things! I believe I do love God, but I have misgivings about us both sometimes and lack faith due to fear. I think fear is the main emotional issue in my life, and it does still negatively affect my walk with Christ. I hope to overcome it someday, although I'm not sure I will.

Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas everyone!