Thank you Cholette, you have said more that makes sense to me than anyone in years. Thank you so much for answering. I know I'll re-read this many times for help. Thank you for the site too. Strangely enough, I work in a Christian School. I have so many stories that make one wonder if God is really working in the lives of the good, kind and truthful - seems the opposite in our school. There have been death of children, loss of money, position, demotions, disrespect, on and on. Then the ones that are obviously self-serving and fake are rewarded. Parents are even starting to notice. oh well, guess this is God's way? Anyway, Please pray for my personal and financial situation ->this is not related to work. Work is where I have started to question God because of things that have happened to people there over the last ten years. Your picture is beautiful - Makes me happy and comforts me that someone so beautiful is "works for God" in a way. Thank you again. Suzette