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Thanks so much mjtorrence! I will keep you in prayer as well. If you ever want to talk please message me. I would love to hear your story as well.

Thanks ladies! I do know that the Lord does things in ways that we cant always understand. In my mind, it makes no sense for us to be there, but I do think He may have us there for a reason..I just don't know what yet. I know that my comfort is not as important as my growth and learning and understanding. As my husband has said to me, I will be patient and wait on the Lord..I am trusting that if He put us there, it is not in vain and that something good will come of it. Thanks so much! I do have a dream that I need interpreted and I think it may have something to do with all this, im not sure. If either of you wouldnt mind taking a look at it in the interpretation posts I would appreciate it. I have not gotten a reply from anyone yet.

Thank you mama-lisa. I felt something twinge in me when i read that God is preparing me for ministry. I have had a prophet tell me and my husband that we will minister to the youth and couples as well. I had another pastor and a dear friend of mine from years ago tell me that its not a good place to be. But I have had this inner feeling that we do have some purpose there, I guess I just needed some confirmation. I still am not sure if I should keep going to the meetings. I don't want to but again, I am in fear of what will happen if I dont go. Thank you for your prayers!

My husband, me, and my 5 kids have been going to this church for almost 2 years now. We are not new to the charismatic church by any means. So, we are used to walking in spiritual gifts, 5 fold ministry, etc. This church has awesome worship and good messages yet something doesn't seem right. It was very hard for me to put my finger on it for the longest time. When we started going there, my husband and I were having marital issues so they wanted us to do individual counceling and we did that. During these sessions there was a book that we had to go through. It was on "covering" and basically said that the pastor was our covering and that we were to submit to his authority without question and if we "thought" we didnt agree with something that it was our own reasoning and that no one else in the church was equipped to discern it and that it wasnt up to anyone else but God to discern those things. I questioned this many times and tried to reject the teaching and I was told that I was unteachable. My kids were starting to go to the youth group meetings regularly. One night we had friends coming from out of town to see us and so we didnt go to youth group. I was called into a meeting and told that i wasnt being submitted to the leadership because the kids werent there and that they should never miss. I rejected that. Since then I have learned to go along with them because if i dont then i will be met with the same things, im not submitted,or im not teachable. Its been easier to just go along. Well, about 3 weeks ago, I kept the kids home on youth group night and again was chastised during my next meeting. I tried to explain myself and got kind of emotional and one of the ladies told me that i needed to stop it and that i was operating in a spirit of schizophrenia. WHAT?? What does that even mean?? They also made me pray in front of them and repent because i didnt bring the kids.Anyway, I dont want to go to these meetings anymore because anytime I dont agree with whats said, I cannot express it or I will be told I'm unteachable. I have also confided in one lady pastor before about how I so desperately wanted real intimacy with my husband and she told me that I was offended and needed to repent...I was sooo confused! My husband has said that he sees more than I think he does and to be patient. I dont know what that means exactly but thats what Im doing. I have been told directly that we are to obey and submit to leadership no matter what, unconditionally, and if we dont then we arent in obedience with God. I dread going to church and am afraid to miss for the first time in my life. We dont make a habit of missing regularly by any means but the kids are at church 5 days out of the week and it seems like overload to me. I just want the truth and God's will for our lives. Please tell me if I am wrong. My hearts cry is to do whats right before God but I dont know if they are right and I am wrong. Thanks so much for your help.