vanelectro 0 Posted October 31, 2008 First of all, thank you to those who helped interpret my dream here /dreams-and-visions-to-be-interpreted-f1/resurrected-dead-baby-t1175.htm I know I still have to call on the Lord to help me find the meaning behind it and I"ll continue to do so.And now I want to ask you to pray for me and my now ex-fiance, that God will guide us to where we need to go from now on. Just a few minutes ago he came online to chat with me. His attitude seemed cold and indifferent which is not how he was 9 years ago when we first met. I would like to share our story if you don't mind. He was something special for he had strong Christian values. He came to me around a troubling time in my life, you know: being a teenager, moving to a new place/school, and on top of that my family had converted from Catholics to pentacostal which was a whole different kind of thing for me at the time. So I was confused and then all of a sudden this guy approached me and said he liked me. I found it weird cuz he doesn't know anything about me and yet he knew how I was feeling. At first I didn't want to get involved for I wasn't allowed to date, but we became friends during school. Of course eventually it became something more and all of a sudden he was going to move (our families were both in the military). We decided to keep in touch with each other (thank goodness for the internet!) So we actually knew each other for 5 months and then the next 9 years would be a long long distance relationship. What kept us together for so long was our love and God. We knew we didn't have to worry about each other because God was with us. In fact, it was him who got me closer to God. He'd teach me things about God and church that I didn't know about when I used to be Catholic. He also had the ability to sense what a person's personality was like before even talking to them (which is probably how he found me). He had some spiritual gift, so that's why he was so special to me. When we were old enough he would drive hours and across state to see me. But we would only see each other once or twice a year (usually around Christmas and New Years). As the years went by I've gotten busy with school, church, and life basically but I always had time for him. As for him he struggled through many things, trying to find a job, he never finished school, he tried the army but got out of it, basically everything he tried to do didn't work out. But I always thought that means God has something better for him later. Eventually he began to hang out with the wrong crowd, do things that weren't really Christian. But he was still faithful to me but he was changing. And to make a long story short he ended things with me about 2 weeks ago. Part of it comes from my faults in the relationship but to him he says his heart has changed now. Of course that was a huge blow for me because we've been together this long. But perhaps the most devastating part about it is that we were almost there. I'll be done with school by next year and I thought we could finally get married by then. I was really looking forward to being with him. And so as he talked to me today online he was telling me to move on and that he was interested in someone else (who I know isn't Christian). Any girl would go crazy and blow up over that however I didn't feel that way. I felt my body tense a little but didn't get emotional by it. I wasn't angry or sad. I actually felt sorry that he turned out this way. I was sad to see that the good godly Christian guy I knew back in high school turned out this way, lost to the world. I know deep inside God is still inside him but I know he's going through alot of struggles. That is why it's so hard for me to let go of him, because I do not want to leave him in that state. I would rather break up knowing that we both had God with us and it just turned out we weren't meant for each other. And so I wish I could help him in some way but we're in different states. So I can only ask God now to help him out. I cannot say that I am your (stereo)typical ecstatic, Bible carrying, devout Christian because I've had had my faults too. But I always had God with me all thanks to him.And so I asked that you all to pray for both of us, that God will guide us to where we need to go now. I pray that God will deliver him from the things he's going through. I pray that God will heal my heart and help me move on. And to continue to find the meaning behind my dream. I know it has something to do with this. I thank God for keeping my mind and heart sane, that I didn't have to turn to crazy things to help me cope. Only God and prayer. Praise GOD!Thank you all for listening, and if you'd like I don't mind talking to anyone on Aim or something. Thank you again and God Bless you all! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lola21st 2 Posted October 31, 2008 vanelectro - I will pray for you and your ex and will PM you later this weekend. I too have recently had a relationship end unexpectedly so I understand what you are feeling. Just know that God is faithful and that He promises that He will heal the wounds of the brokenhearted. Blessings, Lurdys Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
vanelectro 0 Posted October 31, 2008 Thank you, I will also pray for you too. God Bless. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
