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How are we supposed to approach things like this?: in the beginning of Mark, we read that Jesus approaches Simon(Peter) and his brother Andrew and tells them to Follow Him. but in John, we read that Andrew already met Jesus and THEN went and told Simon that he found The Messiah. there's PLENTY more examples of this kind of thing in The Bible. so how are we supposed to approach little inaccuracies, little contradictions like this? I'm not trying to insult, I'm trying to learn here. Because I can't ignore stuff like this, I MUST find compensation for these things.

That's just it! What GOOD is it for God to 'Prolong Healing?' when INJURIES like this HEAL ON THEIR OWN? There really is no Miracle. However, my concern now at this point is, my injury has NOT healed on its own. How much Faith do I really need? God says He'll heal, I believe, but the DAY wears on, and NO HEALING. How do you explain that?

I either sprained or broke my wrist two months ago and it still hasn't healed. I've prayed for it to heal to no avail.

another thing, please pray about the condition of the computers I've used to commit this sin. i've been REALLY careless with things that aren't even mine, i've used the family computer and my dad's laptop to view pornography. he needs them BOTH to run his business, he works from his computers, and over the years, I've just totally messed up them. there's no telling what kind of spyware, viruses, etc... and my dad NEEDS security when it comes to his work and his computers, because of the kind of work he does, he's always sending out important information, financial information, etc... it's alot worse than just affecting ME. porn brings viruses to the COMPUTER, but in a spiritual, sense, it brings all kinds of nasty things into THE MIND.

Apparently it's up to US to do away with our sins. I've prayed for the Holy Spirit, I've prayed for a heart of Repentence, NOTHING. God enjoys me being addicted to all this. I've wasted salvation, if I ever had it in the first place. I've viewed pornography for so long man, it's amazing. All because of a Biological need, does all this 'Extra Unwanted Evil' come along and ruin someone's life.

This is for real. God is NOT doing anything. I've fallen away from grace. I've squandered grace by constant usage of pornography. my flesh LOOOOOVES it so much!!! my body, my mind, are all decayed. I've had a terrible addiction to unhealthy food and pornography. and now i'm feeling the effects. ^^^ but AGAIN, before all that, it still remains that God NEVER responded to me in the first place.

yeah, right this very second, I'm tempted. this happens alot, I'll wake up from a nap with the urge. maybe i've lost my salvation over this or i never had salvation in the first place. i used to pray and pray and pray, i used to want to be saved. but god never answered me. i even prayed to receive the holy spirit, and nothing happened then either.

it's going to take more than prayer. i've prayed and prayed and NOTHING. God doesn't seem to care that I'm addicted to this. What is it going to take for me to hate this stuff?

please continue to pray as i have not beaten this. i don't hate it enough. pray that this love for it turns to hate, whatever it takes. my mind is so messed up, my conscience is so messed up.

recently, i decided to really stand up and do away with my addiction to pornography and such. but ever since then, it's been going overdrive. this is SUCH a strong sin and i need something more powerful than human will power to get rid of it. maybe I'm just so into it, i don't even see it as all that big a deal. i have no Spiritual fuel to fight this. i need prayer that whatever it takes to get rid of this sin will come about. i love this sin more than i hate it.