chica4christ

thanks again, your right as of now, nothing makes sense!! I dont feel a pull tug here or there. I'm just well here (sigh) so I press forward and trust God for the best. I know he's with me and will guide me each step of the way.

Thank you Heleadsme, I really needed that! A strong pulling to somewhere...

I am UNMOTIVATED and have applied for only 1 job.... I dont know if its God's will for me to stay here in Austin and if so, with the university... I'm just like bla.....I dont want to move back to Houston either So can everyone just pray that i would have incentive and God would direct me in the right path. thanks!!!

Thank you Temi. Awesome how the Lord works because before I napped earlier, I prayed, interceded and held fast to the word of God and this scripture is exactly what I prayed. Blessings.

All, I have been dealing off and on with a sinus infection. In May I had a surgery for my deviated septum and there is a 85% success rate, well since my follow up, I still have minor infection and its inflamed to around my nasal area. God has been USING me tremendously this last week and I never like to give credit to the enemy but I sense this may be an attack from him to get me off path but it wont!!!! Jesus Christ has won the battle already and I wont give up. Enemy knows how to attack me in 2 areas, my finances and sickness but not this time> So PLEASE pray for me when you remember. Thanks and God Bless, Stephani from Austin, TX

thank you Jadams.

[quote="Heleadsme"]Hello Chica, First...tell me...what kind of doggy is that you got there? I"m thinking of getting a new one as my old faithful dog passed away this last April. My 8 month old puppy is half chihuahua half poodle ;) and i love her LOTS

Well currently I do amin work but the JOB that I'm REALLY REALLY interested in is working with middle school students in which I would be the liason between the parents, students and school because of the language barrier. I would be the one to help translate from Spanish to English. Its a program director position. So who knows... I'm applying for other jobs too but my heart and desire would be to get this job. It would be a God sent if it happened. I love helping people and am blessed to speak a second language fluently.

oh WOW :huh2: ....Ok thanks. I want to stay here in Austin but only God knows whats best

you mean moving back home? Or a suitcase - businesswoman??

Good Morning everyone!!! I just found out last week that my job title will be eliminated effective AUgust 31st. If you could please pray for me to find another job and that God's will be done.... As to stay here in Austin or move back home to Houston. Blessings, Stephani

Blessings Cholette :) thanks for your words of encouragement... I am doing a lot better than yesterday or the day before.

I'm glad ya'll were blessed by this

I'm going to pray because settling seems like it will be difficult for me as I began my 6th group this week!! I'm nervous and scared honestly to committ :( after being let down so much. I feel from grace this weekend AGAIN because of my lack of accountability or having a mentor... I wont go into details but my weakness since the divorce has been my sexuality and I can't seem to shake it off. :blushing: and it seems like its a day or 2 before I repent and move on. I know to repent means to do a 180 (to turn away from) and yet I find myself returning to the dogs vomit :duhh: and her I am starting from square number one. I have been attacked by the enemy so much in the last month that I thought I would have a nervous breakdown at some point and its been mainly financial but also spiritual BIG time. So, I pray that I wont have my walls up to the sky with this small group and that I can invite, be open and let them into my world. I need to cut/axe the roots of the same sins I keep struggling with because obviously I keep falling into the same ones over and over. Case and point, I NEED community and for the last year I feel so guilty and horrible at times for talking more about my faith than actually living it out, like a pharisee almost :sarcastic: and this is how i feel the enemy is with me every time I fall. PLEASE pray for me when you remember, for Stephani in Austin, Tx... Only GOd knows what I need to be healed and delivered from this sin that captivates and holds me bondage in my own right. I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. ~ Psalm 40:1, NLT I dont want to go through the motions......

So next week I'm going to start attending another small group and I pray this one will last for a while!!!

Thanks Cholette. I was going to sign up to help in childrens ministry for the summer but that hasn't panned out either (sigh) :huh2: Because I realized I was gone a lot in May and this month too. So not going to be possible after all> Thats the other thing, I feel as though i have a STRONG calling to work with young people, particularury high school or college age but I dont feel strongly about working in ministry in my church per se but I have been able to be a spiritual mentor if you will to a college student and my roommate that is currently in college. I love the teaching, the people and my pastor and I've been there for already 2 yrs and I have yet to serve but God hasn't burdened me with anything either. And so I continue on and pressing forward.

I will try to make this as short as possible aka cliff notes. I moved to Austin from Houston in December of 2002 because I had gotten married. Fast forward to May 2007, I am divorced. June of 2007 I reconcile my relationship with the Lord Start attending my home church, get plugged in, find a small group and become a member Fast forward to June 2009 I have gone through 5 YES i said it 5 small groups They have all gone away for different reason. Leader(s) felt to step down, it was temporary for a particular series, the group was just thrown together, or it just went away all together because people weren't showing up to meet consistently. With this being said, community for me is EXTREMELY important as I am wired as a extrovert, social butterfly and being around people. If I have fallen from grace it is because I become independent and fall into things I shouldn't or hang out with people I shouldn't. Well, I thought my 5th would be IT for a long time and I found out this week, its not going to happpen. So for now I'm going to visit another church during the week as we do not have a sanctuary being we meet in a high school gym. I know A LOT of people to church but I'm not connected to them or the church either, since we only meet once a week on Sundays and now I have no small group AGAIN! I love my church and I know thats where God has me but its been extremely hard to attend on Sundays as well being I have gone home a lot since November 08. In Nov I was gone 3 weekends out of the 4 being that it was my dad's bday, former youth pastor died suddenly in motorcycle accident at the age of 53 and lastly it was Thanksgiving In Dec, I get 2 weeks off and I am gone the whole time Jan - Cousins bday March - My bday April - Easter and went to cousins wedding in Cali May - Mothers day and friends wedding So case in point is I've been gone A LOT and I'm finding it VERY difficult to connect and my mainline is during the week when I'm here. I have prayed about moving back to Houston but haven't had direction or peace on that either. :Yell: Fortunately, i do have a very good friend/best friend/sister and she has taken me as one of her family members and while I appreciate it and love her 5 yr old son and her husband is like a big bro to me...at the end of the day I'm single, I go home and she has her own family. I'm sorry for the rambilng and being all over the page but this season has been EXTREMELY difficult for me. I feel as though I'm not here in Austin totally nor in Houston when I do visit. Everything is just cloudy!

Its GOOD to be single I ran across this the other day and found it EXTREMELY encouraging! God Bless - Stephani What makes you think that just because I am an attractive woman of God that I'm incomplete without a mate? Who told you that without a man somethings missing from my life? And if so, what would that be? Love? I love myself and more importantly I love the Lord. He told me that when I delight in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart. Security? I have everything I need according to His riches in glory. Intimacy? Now, how's a man going to get to know me when he doesn't even know who he is in the Lord. See my Father told me I'm above a ruby's worth and a gem does not seek, it is sought. I'm single and that's all right with me. See, it's not that I oppose relationships it's that I detest co-dependency. As a woman I know it is not my role to chase after any man. Esther 2:14 reads that I am to wait on my king and when he's delighted in me he will call me by my name. My Lord does not intend for me to be needy or desperate. I am to be cherished, Relished, Valued, and Honored. It's not my job to convince him or convict him of that. My mate will already know it and consistently show it and he will stay on his knees daily - not just to adore me but to praise the Lord for the virtuous woman he has found. So, when you see me by myself - I'm not alone. I know what I have coming to me. I'm single and saved, and right now that's all I need to be! - Author Unknown

I'd love to share what the power of prayer does :) I met a very good friend of mine almost 2 years ago in October. She is married 14 yrs to her husband and has a 5 yr old son. We became very close the instant we met at work and since then have become closer, I am part of the family. She has grown up in church like I have, strayed away but came back home about 6 yrs ago after the Lord delivered her from a tumor in her head. Her husband became saved as well. About 3 yrs ago, her fatherinlaw passed on from cancer and her husband became very HARD and turned from the Lord. They both use to serve in the church, he was a Sunday School teacher, and very involved. After the death of his father, church meant nothing to him nor the Lord. Well I came into the picture almost 2 years ago and have since been PRAYING, INTERCEDING and Fighting for their salvation, and I've been in the front line and now know why the enemy has been fighting me tooth and nail. I have cried many tears for my friend, her husband and their family that they would become close again in Jesus and that as a couple they would seek Jesus in everything and come back home. That he would take leadership in their home, become the priest and be a wonderful husband, friend, father, and leader. Well, this afternoon my friend told me that her husband went to church with them this past Sunday, he received from the message and filled out a card to get involved in the church. When she told me this, I got Holy Spirit goosebumps . I was like overwhelmed, emotional and just couldn't believe it but I know the prayers have been heard. So what I'm saying by all of this is NEVER EVER GIVE UP on those you love and care for, in God's timing, they WILL come home :bighug: I just PRAISE GOD!!!! and just stand in awe of HIM :PTL: Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin The Lord has promised good to me His word my hope secures He will my shield and portion be As long as life endures My chains are gone, I've been set free My God, my Savior has ransomed me And like a flood His mercy reigns Unending love, amazing grace

AMEN!!!!!

thank you des

Family in Christ, I have HUGE decisions to make before the end of the year. I moved to Austin from Houston 6 1/2 yrs ago due to marriage. Well, my ex and I divorced 2 yrs ago and since then its become extremely difficult for me financially. Right now, I am in 33k in debt and I don't make more than that a year. I LOVE my job, my church, my roommate and the friends God has blessed me with here. I do desire to go back to school and get my Masters in Higher Education. I work for the university and since I am a full time employee, 1 class would be paid every semester. While all this sounds great, I'm back to square number one in being enslaved to my debt. Part of me does want to move back home because I miss my parents and family greatly and it would be beneficial to get out of debt as well, since I'd be living with my parents. If i was to move back I could always get my masters in Houston as well, but it would be a dream to get it here at The University of Texas. BUT then, I'm like well God I've been here already for 2 yrs since the divorce, if this is where you want me, then I trust you but I feel so overwhelmed sometimes with the debt. So PLEASE pray for me as this has burdened my heart tremendously. Grace, Stephani

I still hope one day if the Lord makes it possible to go to my ex and ask for forgiveness. I've tried 5 times but it hasn't happend, only God knows why! For now I have peace and joy knowing that I have truly forgiven him in my heart.

2 mornings ago , I woke up impressed on my heart through the Holy Spirit, “Absolute Truth”. I was a little taken by it because I didn’t know what God was trying to tell me. Well at the end I really didn't have to think much or pray about it profoundly. I was talking to a friend last night and the Holy Spirit just spoke to me as I was writing to my friend :) Isin't God good??? It's not theologically deep or moving but simple and straightforward. As I was writing I was thinking "Absolute Truth" and I didn't feel compelled to go to a dictionary or google it or even research it on the web. What came to mind is Absolute Truth is Jesus in every aspect of the word. We either stand up for what is right and Absolute as believers in Christ, or we compromise, stand in silence and dilute the truth because its "uncomfortable" to hear the word Jesus, because it penetrates through the spirit and soul as Hebrews states in HIS word. There is deep meaning to the words of Jesus when he said " I am the way the truth (ABSOLUTE) and the life....I'm sure if one was to do their Hebrew on these words and dig very deep, it would mean a lot more than the overall general meaning as we in western Christianity tend to do with easy verses we've memorized all our lives. i.e. John 3:16 We must stand for what is right, not comfortable not tickling ones ears but being bold in Christ (not arrogant or prideful) and win over others with love. We shall be known by our fruits :) I think of that song of long ago by Steven Curtis Chapman, "Diving In" and a portion of the song is as follows... Im diving in, I’m going deep in over my head, I want to be Cought in the rush, lost in the flow, in over my head, I want to go The river’s deep, the river’s wide, the river’s water is alive So sink or swim, I’m diving in I hope and pray that this touches your spirit as it has awakened mine. Ephesians 5:13-16 13 “But when anything is exposed by the light, it becomes visible. 14 for anything that becomes visible is light. Therefore it says, ‘Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.’ 15 Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, 16 making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.”

thank you much dove-soluation, i felt the power of the holy spirit as I read your post.... What is so God is that as of late, different people that I do not communicate with on a regular basis have said that they have been praying for me and only God knows that I have needed those prayers now more than ever. in Him, Stephani