HI MJ, As I was reading this I believe this is the season the Lord is going to be a completly healing in that area. I am sorry to hear that your mother died however I believe he is going to use this situation to reach out to younger people and women as well. You are going to be a living testiomary for his kingdom. I also felt God is bring you to wholeness because of the season that he is taking you. Contiue to yield to him, stay senstive to his Spirit because I believe he is uprooting some things that he want to get rid of. Be encourage and know that God is doing a greater work in you. I pray for a speedly healing, restoration, and delieverance in Jesus name. Be blessed