In need of peace

[Christal 0]

I am really struggeling with life right now. I believe my husband has aspergers syndrome, which the Lord revield to me a few years ago. There are a number of things that show that. I will not get into that. He is a wonderful husband and father who loves the Lord and his family. He's very intelligent almost at the genius level and is one of the most talented musicians I've seen. Plays all by ear. My problem is he can be very socially awkward at times, and if you don't take the time to get him you will just think he's "wierd" or trying to manipulate you . This has caused alot of hurt and pain really within the church. Not really to get into a lot of it, but we helped plant a church and he was leading music (his passion) he can be confusing and very blunt with people and that didn't go over very well. To make a long story short, he stepped down and they brought in another worship leader that didn't work out , my husband did become friends with him to this day. He was asked to step down , then another came in , that didn't work out, then before the next one came in my husband wnet to the pastor who had been his friend and said he wanted to lead and it wouldn't cost the church anything.You have to understand I was in the worship team too and at practices they would always look at my husband and ask him how to do things and say what do you think, this went on at every practice. Well they met for the last time and it was a disaster. Alot of very hurtful things were said I'm sure on both sides and being aspergers my husband really had a melt down . When he is tired and has too much coming at him it turns into the flight or fight. With him the rage comes up . He told the pastor he felt betrayed and robbed. You see the last worship leader we had prophecised over my husband and said he could go anywhere and lead worship. But that day the pastor said he didn't feel the Lord when my husband lead. I know it scared the pastor and he started trying to cast out the devil from my husband which made it worse. My husband has always listened to the Lord. He has to be able to process things in his time. Its like having a outlet thats sparking because it's not connecting with the plug and someone keeps trying to ram the plug in anyway. My issues have beome fear. He was hurt so badly, he has only had a couple meltdowns since we have been married for 28 years and that had to do with him feeling betrayed and left behind or pushed aside. I want to connect with Gods people but I don't want to go through anything like this again. I know all he wants is to be accepted me too. We had started going to a church the Sunday following this incedent. He really liked this church but it's large and I don't believe the Lord wants us to plug in there. We stoped going to church for about 5 months. I just am so scared I get sick sometimes. We started back about 3 weeks ago going to a different church. We really like it. I believe he still has unforgivness and bitterness over this. He doesn't want to give but would like to connect. He has a group of older men he meets with for bible study each week wnd like I said He loves the Lord and listens. The day afer the blow up he came in to me and said" I fell like I need to apologise ," The lord had spoke. He sent an email that I looked at and I don't think the pastor ever responded. And just a side note, I had gone to the pastor a couple months before with information on aspergers I pour out my heart to him and his wife on this , when I left I felt relieved thinking my husband would be understood. I guess not, the pastor approached him in the wrong ways. This is not something we go around talking about or telling everyone. We have talked to each other and my husband know he's different. I'm sorry this is so long . I just felt I could pour out my heart here and recieve prayer and maybe a word. I'm so sad. Thank you.

[LovetoworshipJesus 0]

I Pray GOD GIVE YOU ALL PEACE AND HEALING BY JESUS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED. SING PRASIE WORSHIP WITH YOUR HUSBAND> AND TEAR DOWN STRONGHOLDS> POWERFUL WOMEN OF GOD BE STRONG IN THE LORD AND STAND FIRM AND WAVE THE BANNER FOR JESUS> THIS TOO WILL PASS> I AM A PRAISE AND WORSHIP AT MY CHURCH SO I KNOW THE ATTACK WE CAN GET> HANG IN THERE BREAKTHROUGH IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER> JESUS LOVES YOU

[Dove-Solutions 0]

Amen and I touch and agree!

Love in Jesus,

Connie

[watchman 0]

i am praying for you . Stand through this test!

[Desiree (Starpop) 1]

Definitely praying! Be blessed
desiree

[Virtuous 0]

Being a Praise & Worship Leader myself, I think it's safe for me to speak on this. From what you say about your husband, music is his ministry. When we operate in our ministry, the enemy will do whatever and use whoever to abort/hinder the call Jesus has on our lives. There are times when I only have my music. The breakthrough of prayers come through my Praise & Worship. Just this past few years, the devil has tried his best to pull every trick known in the book to steal my Praise & Worship from me. Just this past Sunday the revelation of that really hit me. I went up for prayer and I told the devil he is a liar. He may strip me of every natural and materialistic thing I have (only if God gives him permission) but HE WILL NOT STEAL MY PRAISE from me and I mean that.

I pray that God will give you peace and rest. He said it in His word,

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

Receive the Peace of God that He left with you. You and your husband together. Pray him through this and you tell that devil who you are (in Christ) and who he ain't (yep, had to go back to my roots with that word ! LOL)

You all have VICTORY in Jesus. He said it and that settles it.

One more thing. I went through an awful time with my Pastor. I wanted to leave so bad. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I told God I was leaving that church and I was going to another one. I told Him I would still give my tithes and offerings in the church until I found another church home but I was not going back. He said, "You're not going anywhere. You're going to sit through this." I couldn't leave. So be sure that before you leave, God has given you permission to do so. Not only will the enemy work to abort our ministry, he will also work to bring separation between us and the Shepherd God has placed over us. We may not understand it, but it happens. I had to learn this the hard way. I was running around (not to everybody...just my family) talking about what happened with me in the church. Big mistake. When it come to our Pastors, if it's something we feel they did wrong, we have to take it to God in prayer. I also learned through this time that God cares about our feelings. God can deal with people far better than we can...including our Pastors.

[LovetoworshipJesus 0]

I pray Peace of GOd rain on you!!

[Christal 0]

Thanks to everyone. I do believe the word that keeps coming to me is to praise. And know who we are in Christ and who we serve. We have already left the church (2 yrs ago) but as you can see the devil is not giving up on hindering but God is bigger and I do believe we will come out with new understanding and new songs. As the confrontation was happeneing with my husband and the pastor (they both were wrong nuf said) God put this song in my heart and I just started singing it on the way down the street.

though I walk through the valley
of pain once again
though I climb the highest mountain
of my faith
I will fear no evil
for You hold my hand
and I will cling to Your promise of love

yes Jesus loves me....yes I know He loves me....yes Jesus loves me...the Bible tells me so


I didn't know how prophetic that was at the time......
Thanks again for the support

Christal