Chiaretta you English is excellent ..which should boost your self esteem straight away. You come accross as an extremely confidant person, maybe you just need to talk to your boyfriend and tell him how you feel ..that you love him and you need to know he loves you ...you are not alone ...lots of men find it difficult or even unnecessary to tell you their feelings all the time.
As you say , you really need to accept yourself and I am sure from personal experience that people are not judging you all the time ...its just how you feel.
Chin up sweetie ...we are always here if you feel the need to talk.