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we were together 9 years - I guess that makes it so much harder.

I guess I am - I'm finally facing the truth. I can't lie to myself anymore. Mr B's been great - we had lovely Christmas - went out for drink in the afternoon and then had meal early evening, botle of cava and lovely red wine to go with it. I've cooked on 24th while he was at work and then on 25th he done the rest of cooking, then he fell asleep while watching Dr Who. 26th we took the dog our for couple of hours to work off the calories. Unsucessfully tried to talk about what will happen in January. 27th - sales shopping - got some lovely new undies in M&S sales - he was wandering around other shops while I was fighing my way throuhg M&S - it's always like a battle field when there is a sale on 28th - Mr B's bday - took him out for breakfast to Cafe Rouge - Kir Royal and eggs benedict, then we went to Orpington in search for a bottle of "single barrel" Jack Daniels. He had a mate coming over to go out with in the evening and this was suppose to be belated bday present for his mate. Didn't find the bottle so went home. They went out in the evening and his mate stay the night in spare bedroom. 29th - trip to Borough to pick up Mr B's bday present - wine aearator. then pub lunch in weatherspoons by Bank Station and then I went out to my meeing with that guy Considering the circumstances - I can't say I had bad festive period.

so sorry hunnie glad you feel better now - yes life is anything but boring rigth now

You can do it Bee and as for a kiss - I kiss people all the time, even my osteopath Well, I'm not kissing her all the time obviously, I'm not some kind of crazed snogger woman, just socially as a pleasantry. It would have been odd to shake hands don't you think? *blush* maybe I was secretely hoping that it would have been more that just a peck on a cheek. I thought we had good time - we met at 4pm and were leaving at 11.30pm - not really realising it's been that late.

[quote="Zoonie"] Bee - I really don't see what the issue is (from the outside looking in) you had a pleasant and sociable evening - that's all. Please don't beat yourself up, or think too hard about things, it just was what it was. Sorry you were ill at the wedding feast thanks guys - I knew you would understand and help me to feel better. I know that it's nothing that anyone done - nothing went wrong there - I guess it's just that when I was sitting on that train home last night (and I guess this morning when I got up too) it finally sunk - stuff I have been lying myself about last few weeks - pretending like all is fine - it was like a slap in a face. Proper wake up call and I'm not sure I was ready for that yet.

my stomach has been dodgy for a while now - I have not been eating well recently and it must have been something that I've eaten there - the food was quite greasy so i guess that must have set me off. Yes it's a shame I couln't stay but i felt that it's better for me to leave that be there feeling uncomfortable. The hall was really full and we were seated on the other side to toilets - you had to make your way throught the always full dacefloor to the other side on the hall - that was challenge by itself

awwww sweetie ....come here and get a big HUG thank you - I guess for most people it's not a big deal. No crime has been commited and no-one died. I went out with a guy last night - few drinks as promised several months ago. Not a big deal, we had nice chat and it was not awkward at all through out the evening. Then it was time to go home and he took underground with me but only one stop appologising that he leave me to travel on my own - then kissed me on a cheek and left. Later I got a text from him wishing me safe journey home. Like I said not a big deal - it was not suppose to be a date and I was not expecing anything else to happen - it just what I did - that I've agree to this in a first place - I'm obviously not ready for stuff like that yet and for some reason I can't stop crying today. Luckily Mr B's at work today so I don't have to explain anything. I thought I was doing well so far but I feel like I'm back at square one

how was your christmas hunnie? peaceful I hope

I've done something stupid yesterday and as a restult of it I've been in tears most of the day today . Well it's not really that big deal but I guess I'm just taking it worse than expected

Hi Bee!! How are you?? How was the wedding?? Was it worth the train ride?? I didn't stay long - got there about 40 minutes late (my fault - forgot the invite and we couldn't find it) and then we had some meze that was on tables while there was lots of dancing going on and then they brought main course and I had about 3 bites from it - my stomach went wild and I ended up in ladies being sick so I left the party. Mr B gentelmenly took me home. So that was my brief introduction to Turkish wedding - I think we stayed litlebit over an hour How are you and your working christmas? hope you had some rest

hello everyone

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guess I'll go for a walk to try to work off yesterday's meal will try to catch you sometimes later

Ok I've changed the setting in preferences to attach singature and as I can see it made no difference what so ever never mind - it's working now

I just created signature and it's now showing - I must have done something wrong

hello Frannie I' still here - cooking soups in PS

Hello everyone hope you all had wonderful Christmas Day and now enjoying peacefull Boxing Day with your friends and family.

ok lunch is here - sorry I didn't stay long byeeee

back for a bit hello

sorry guys - gotta go - work is pilling on to all

sweet dreams hunnie :rudolf:

*drool* you making my hungry now

wouldn't that be wonderfull

Hello from Canada nice to meet you i visited canada since years my unkle lives there hello Orik - nice to meet you

Mr B always told me to think of black but then I start thinking of black shapes.... no that doesn't work for me