Ohhhhhhhh I feel very sad for you I sunk into depression a year ago. It seemed like noone cared or noticed I was here, and I also thought my husband didn't want me anymore. I found the strength and courage to get up and speak to a counselor. She opened my eyes alot. Beforehand, I always told myself "nah I don't need to go to counselling". But in reality, and deep down I knew I needed some form of help. I did not want to carry on living in depression and waking up each morning wondering what I'd cry about this time. I do suggest to go see a counselor Sarah, they will be a great relief. Knowing that they are the type of people you can cry too, let your emotions out and they will not judge you or push you away. I also read a few books on Self confidence just to help me out alittle. Taking up hobbies also kept my mind off feeling sad and miserable. I got into Scrapbooking, crosswords, writing poems, reading, and often I would turn up the music loud and dance around Focus on the positive things in life. Think positive, keep busy, always have goals to work towards, because everybody needs a goal, without them, what the hell are we still living for? That's my thoughts I hope you do succeed in building up the positive side of you and please don't hang on to a guy if you have any sort of doubts about him. If a man cheats, he is truly capable of doing it again I'm not saying he will, but you will always think of the first time he did it, and that thought will stay with you, and you will always have a deep sadness in you because of it.