hind'sfeet 1 Posted March 20, 2010 So, at the meeting with the pastors I told them why God wants me to do (apologize to my mom) and they were in agreement. They confirmed that I don't need to do it voice to ear, that it could be written. My mother is not someone you can apologize to easily and I don't need any interruptions. I'm wondering now if an attitude of 'not caring' if you are forgiven by the person is bad? I feel like there is something to this attitude, like I'm protecting myself from being rejected, and that it's more of a bad attitude than a good one. I can't help the feeling that I don't give a flying cat if she forgives me or not. My deadline that we set to send the letter was today but I'm just finishing it and it's like 2 am. I don't mind that I can send it tomorrow, but I'm troubled about this attitude that seems to have been brought to my attention by being troubled by it in the first place. I'm not asking her to forgive me in the letter anyway, as I don't want her calling me about it. It's just an I'm sorry letter without any butts (that's sort of a joke). It's hard enough admitting my mistakes to her because of how she is. Basically I just listed words that describe what I've done, nothing specific, that would take a life time. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
dreamster 0 Posted March 20, 2010 ugh,,thats courage unda fire,, i kno exactly how u feel,, mi thorts r wiv u, D Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cholette 0 Posted March 20, 2010 That letter isn't about your mother...it's about you. You are right, it doesn't matter if she accept your letter or not...you are getting it off of YOUR heart so YOU can move on. The more you focus on what her response would be, the more you will be in bondage in your heart. She is who she is and it has NOTHING to do with you. Release her with the sending of the letter and move forward with your life.Like Dreamster said, it takes COURAGE to do what you are doing. Go girl...the truth will MAKE you free.Blessings and PEACE!!!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hind'sfeet 1 Posted March 20, 2010 My son is almost out the door to put it in the post box. I am getting all kinds of doubts about my letter, like it was too short, should have put more, it's meaningless... It was a short letter, I am going to put it here and ya'll can tell me what you think:"Dear momGod has put it on my heart to write an apology to you.I am sorry for all the pain, worry, and heartache I've caused you.I'm sorry for having been rebelious, mean, selfish, uncaring, unsympathetic, dishonest, argumentative, vengeful, unforgiving, unloving, resentful, unremorseful, entitled, disobedient, unmerciful, malicious, gossip, hateful, stubborn, and judgmental.I just want to say that I am sorry.AndreaIsaiah 61"Thank you guys for the awesome encouragement!!! Thank you Father for what you are doing!!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cholette 0 Posted March 20, 2010 Oh yes girl!!!! That's all that needs to be said. Now ask God to bring the peace that you need so you can move on and not care whether your mom responds or not...k? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hind'sfeet 1 Posted March 20, 2010 Thank you Cholette Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dove-Solutions 0 Posted March 21, 2010 Hinds feet,The most important part here is that you say what needs to be said so you can forgive either her or yourself or both, because the Lord wants you to put it to rest so you can trust him and you can be healed of the pain. Cholette is right it does not matter what she does but it does matter what we do. So just follow the Lords promptings and do it his way and all will be well with you and the Lord. I know that it's hard. You can do it though. :) Love in Jesus,Connie Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lola21st 2 Posted March 21, 2010 I agree with all that's been said. Congratulations because what you did took courage and humility and you will be blessed for your obedience! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
usemeLord 0 Posted March 21, 2010 Sounds absolutely the right length and words. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hind'sfeet 1 Posted March 21, 2010 You guys have been SUCH and encouragement I could def. feel the humility when writing it. I do get the sense that God is helping me to get it behind me. I want to move forward into the light and not backward into the darkness.This is something I never thought would happen, esp. so soon... Now I know it's happening and God says the time is now to get it done with and to work. Todays sermon at church was God telling people to not pay attention to what He's doing in other's lives, to work on what He is doing/having you do in your own life, to work, get busy and work.All week, I've been having a dry spell, not hearing God really talking to me. I think I was focusing too much on my imperfections and sins again. Trying to have balance. After writing that letter triggered me into very bad moods, grouching at my son like I'm pmsing again. Forgetting to keep perspectives and have balance. I don't think any of us will be balanced until we are made perfect. Right now it's like being on one of those balance tables and made more difficult with a marble. Trying to keep the marble from rolling off the balance table. ok, I'm done Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dove-Solutions 0 Posted March 21, 2010 Every time you feel that way HF just ask the Lord to bring his peace over you.Love in Jesus, Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dove-Solutions 0 Posted March 21, 2010 By the way I am very proud of you and so is the Father! :) Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hind'sfeet 1 Posted March 21, 2010 Thank you Father and Connie Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hind'sfeet 1 Posted April 1, 2010 Thank you blueSkies! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mizzou1228 0 Posted August 14, 2011 I disobeyed my parents and they grounded me from just about everything, but I understand they did it to keep me safe and not just because they could. I felt really bad about all of it because it hurt my mom so much that she cried and I wanted to give her and my dad a note that said I was sorry before they went on their honeymoon (they just got married a week ago and me and my brother and family members pitched in and sent them on a honeymoon since they couldn't afford it) and reading your guys's comments and posts gave me enough encouragement to type them both individualized letters and put them in their suitcases to read on the plane. I just wanted to thank all of you. You all inspired me to write the letters from my heart and make it mean something. Bless all of you,Laci Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dove-Solutions 0 Posted August 14, 2011 Laci,That is so awesome! I think the Lord would like that and I think your parents would like it as well. I pray the peace of the Lord Jesus over all of you. Love in Jesus,Connie Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mizzou1228 0 Posted August 14, 2011 Thank you Connie! I have read many things on here and I think all of this is wonderful and has helped me to see the things in life that are truly important. Best wishes for everyone that is in the safe hands of the Lord and those who are not.God Bless,Laci Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mizzou1228 0 Posted August 19, 2011 I talked to them the other day and they said while they were reading their letters on the plane they were crying tears of joy the whole time they were reading them.God Bless,Laci Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dove-Solutions 0 Posted August 20, 2011 Praise God! Awesome! After tears are joy! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Daisy 0 Posted October 12, 2011 So proud of you hindsfeet for being the bigger person here. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
