Deborah

Sirianta, I had two very talented, smart, beautiful sisters who were in abusive marriages. I say "had" because their husbands killed them. Abusive people are bullies. They don't understand anything but power and won't respect you if you cower. I pray for you right now that you'll have the wisdom to do what you need to do in this marriage. Please don't wait like my sisters did. You are a child of the MOST HIGH GOD!!!This abuse is NOT your fault, you do not deserve it. --Deborah

The sound engineer said he'd record the song the Lord gave me next week then next week and then kept backing out. The violinist moved away to a warmer climate for a few months. I'm considering buying my own digital equipment, but feelin' a little intimidated. If I had my own equipment then I could get songs on a CD myself...Oh the frustration, but this song is the Lord's, not mine, so I continue to hope....meanwhile parts of new songs continue to visit me in the day and night.

And I'm goin to add an I TOLD YOU SO also--the first time I replied to one of your posts (tha table) I told you your dream had to do with PROVISION. So lets dance and sing and I'm happy for you and proud of you for not giving up! Go D!

Ok, D! God bless you on your birthday!

You're welcome! You know, God is the same yesterday, today and forevermore--He's a very consistent God! As you follow in His footsteps you'll find this attribute of His will become more and more yours.

Are you sleeping any better yet, Delightful Soul? You've been on my heart a lot lately. I remember reading one of Catherine Marshall's books long ago where she talks about her battle with insomnia. For her, it was a long fight of faith but eventually she found victory (sorry I don't remember the specific book but it was written after she remarried). I want to encourage you that not all victory is instantaneous, but whether quick or slow, victory is still victory.

[quote="Delightful soulJust wanted to quote the above. I feel to pray also for your families HEARTS that God would heal them all and also to come against HEART PROBLEMS in JESUS NAME. I am glad you were victorious in this situation. Remember Jezebel likes to intimidate through anyway it can especially the silent treatment. Also I know that matters of the heart are always hard and this is how the enemy likes to attack, through family if he can. Bless you Deborah and may the Lord continue to do the amazing work He is doing in your family! [/quote] Thank you so much for your prayers!!!! Yes and amen!!!!

Okay, well the funeral is over--let me tell you what happened--on the way to the funeral I was prayed up, armed with the Word. The Holy Spirit had given me Psalm 143, specifically verse 9: "Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies; in you I take shelter." Normally this would be a 3-hour drive, but we ran into massive road construction. I just felt like I should stay calm and not fret. The funeral was a Catholic funeral and I wasn't ready for all the ritual anyway. Well, we show up 45 minutes late. When we got there, my uncle's body was being wheeled out of the church. He was a veteran so he got full military honors, so we got to see the gun salute and flag folding and all that. Both my sister and brother whom I referred to earlier were there. I FELT NO FEAR!!!!!!!! They both pretty much ignored me, it didn't bother me. I remembered what the Bible says about how if we only greet our friends, we're no different from the heathen, so when my sister walked by, I said "Hello, Karen." She was shocked; like heart attack shocked, and seemed really scared of me. She said a quick "Hi," and scurried off and I didn't see her again. I feel compassion in my heart for my sister. She looks really old and unhappy whereas I am getting more beautiful and more humble every year. My brother who is 4 years older than me looks more like he's 20 years older. I would have greeted him too, but he made it a point to not be around me. So anyway, thanks for your encouragement and prayers. I would have liked to report both my siblings fell on their faces when I walked in the church and everybody got saved and filled with the Holy Ghost, but there's always next time......

Thank you, MJ! Keep those prayers coming, guys, I'm feeling them already!

I homeschooled my son 12 years and helped him memorize hundreds of verses of scripture. The best technique we found was to put the verses to music--sometimes the songs were really silly like "Row, Row your Boat" and once the Holy Spirit gave me a complete song for Psalm 121. Bible book stores often have music like this if you're not comfortable composing your own. Thy Word Creations (David and Alice Meyer) have a high-pitched song for 1 Corinthians 13 that made that chapter stick in my mind in about 15 minutes and years later it's still there! Writing and rewriting a verse helps too. Just work at it consistently--put the scripture on little index cards , take them with you and look at them whenever you have a free moment--standing in line, traffic jams, whatever. Memorizing does get easier with time. Hope this helps.

Proverbs 3:24 "When you lie down, you will not be afraid; yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet." A verse for you to stand on (or in your case, lie down on) as long as you are seeking wisdom. I pray you will soon get the rest you need and your strength will be renewed like the eagle's, that you'll run the race that is set before you and not be weary. I fight insomnia by notifying the enemy that as long as he torments me and keeps me awake I will pray for the salvation of everyone I know.

Good words. Thank you so much for your time and your prayers. Lola, "I will contend with him who contends with you" really ministered to me. I saw vindication come to pass at my mother's funeral 8 years ago from my sister's attacks so I know it's true. Psalm 18 got me through that time, I'm going to have to revisit that chapter too. I'm going to print out this page and reread it on the way to the funeral Friday. Thanks again.

Last week, I had a dream my son and I were sitting in a hospital waiting to see somebody, and a doctor came out to the waiting room, did three tests on our hearts and said we had heart problems. The next morning, I found out my Uncle Joe had had a heart attack. He died this week; his funeral is Friday. On top of dealing with a funeral, I also have to deal with my extended family. I have a sister who has always hated me for some reason (she's 11 years older) and likes to attack me at family funerals. With everything that's going on in my life right now, I'm not sure I can handle her. God has given me grace in the past and I know I just need to trust Him again, but I'm really hurting here and fighting a Jezebel spirit is the last thing I want to do right now...I also have a brother who refuses to talk to me or even acknowledge my presence. I have chosen to forgive my family members, I pray regularly for God to bless them and save them, but in all honesty I don't like seeing them. Please pray for strength for me so I can be a good witness to my family.

Thank you so much, it means so much to me that you're praying for me and this song.

Nice to meet you, Little One. I wish and pray for God's anointing to rest on your song and that your composition will strengthen your relationship with your father. I do believe Christian artists could benefit from supporting one another because discouragement and delay can abort the birthing of songs. My sound engineer's father died, leaving him with a legal mess to sort out, and then his regular job suddenly got very busy so that's the reason for the delay, but the engineer says he'll really try to get it recorded this week before the violinist leaves. I continue to hope.... Keep on with your music!

Have you read Blue101's dream yet about her pastor being shot in the stomach? One Door said it represented words spoken against him, very hurtful words. Good point about the silenced gun--it just finishes that verse, right?--no weapon formed against you shall prosper but EVERY TONGUE that rises against you in judgment you shall show to be in the wrong (or silence)--This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord....sounds like the authority the Holy Spirit wanted me to remind you about. Isn't it so cool how all this fits together? God really is a God of order and to Him goes all glory, honor and praise!

And I don't think it's a coincidence that I reminded you BEFORE your dream that no WEAPON formed against you would prosper and then in your dream you get SHOT BY A GUN, but the wound doesn't give you pain...

I reread your post and I had to chuckle when you said you need some warriors on your side. My maiden name means "warrior" in a European language.

Wow! Could be a connection here--and you know, when you pray for someone you're standing in the gap for them, so it makes sense I'd feel your pain for you so you could handle your situation better. I've taken on other people's pain in the past while interceeding for them. I think you should take heart you faced a very scary situation and the threat went away and after having armed strangers chasing you, does your real-life situation pale a little in comparison? In the dream you had to "die." Maybe in real life you're going to have to "die" to some things. I've had to die to the hope that some people will ever change, that they will ever say they're sorry, that they will ever understand me and I've had to learn to love them anyway and just worry about my own heart....

Nubava--I tried responding to this this morning, but my computer wasn't cooperating...anyway, I wanted to tell you when I read your post, I felt a jab of sharp pain in my abdomen. So whatever your physical attack is, I pray that it cease and desist, in Jesus' name. No weapon formed against you shall prosper--no weapon, that includes fear and doubt! Someone warned John Bevere once, "Walk in your own God-given authority, or someone else will take it from you and use it against you." I encourage you to walk in the authority you have as a daughter to the Most High God. You are seated in heavenly places with Jesus, don't forget that!

I had a big party here at my house yesterday for my dad's birthday. The violinist played the song for my dad and he LOVED it. I accompanied on the piano, my brother played the guitar. I still don't have the song recorded, but I'm wondering if the delay might have to do with getting my brother on board. He did such a wonderful job with the song, and he added another dimension to it. I asked him yesterday if he would be on the recording if time/schedules permit and he said he would. So I'm still waiting on the sound engineer. The violinist leaves the end of this month for several months. I'm trying to be patient here, but it's hard......

I'm so glad for you and your special little cat!

I told you your son was a Mighty Warrior, free of fear! I'm so thankful everything went so well. God has great plans for your son.

I was talking about your son because of Luke 21:26 NKJV.