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Lovetoworshipjesus, My Pastor always say...New Level; new devil!

Desiree, It has not been easy. When you know what it feels like to have icing put on your cake ; not having it when the cake is screaming for it, sometimes drive you crazy. I have 4 kids. So you know I know what it feels like. I'm just soooo tired of being hurt. I want the man God has chosen for me because I know He can't make mistakes. I used to pray and ask God not to send me an ugly man or a man who couldn't satisfy me in bed because that really bothered me. I mean, no one wants an ugly man or someone who can't satisfy them intimately, right? But God knows what I like and I truly believe when He sends him to me he is going to be more than I could've ever imagine. I just get so excited sometimes that I can't do anything but smile. I do realize that we as women and men of God - we can't marry just anybody. I had a dream about a month ago (I posted it) about marrying the wrong man. I learned through that dream that the ministry my husband and I have will be aborted if I marry someone else or vice versa. All I could think about in my dream was, "Oh, no! I married the wrong man. What's going to happen to our (me and my husband) ministry?" I was so scared that I had messed it up and in all actuality, I WILL mess it up if I don't seek God for confirmation concerning who I'm suppose to marry. I'm feeling like lovetoworshipjesus. I think the times are coming upon me that my husband and I will be joined together. Just as Cholette said about the young man and woman who met and became engaged within a few months; I don't feel that my husband and I will have a long dating period. God is going to confirm and give us His permission and His blessing for us to unite without dating long. These past couple of months - sometimes even daily since God cancelled the assignment of the enemy from my life - I have been talked to about marriage. People who don't know me very well, just start talking to me about getting married, the role of a wife, the role of a husband, our role together in ministry and everything. I know it's only God preparing me to receive my husband. I'm willing to wait. What do I have to lose? Absolutely nothing. God is going to blow OUR socks off!!!!!!!

I'm not surprised! I kinda figured that myself... THERE'S TWOOOOOOO OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUS...Look out world - Here we come!

I can only imaging the thoughts going through your friends mind! Everytime I look at you I would "live" laughing! No, I don't think you missed God either. You're right...things will go smoothly (without the running :yes: !...I just can't get over that! I wish I could've been there and knew you at that time! I'm sort of happy I know because I'm 42 years old...I've never been married...it's time out for dating and going around figuring stuff out. I'm 36 and I'm with you on this. I just know how hard it is, for me- I'm saying, to let go of emotions I feel towards a man I've dated (and you know what else ). So I would just rather not get involved, even in dating, than to have to wrestle with letting go. What I meant by it being a wrap is after meeting someone then seeking God about him being the "ONE"; if God doesn't reveal to me that he is...It's a wrap. The relationship (as far as dating) is over...Stick a fork in it cuz it's done.

I agree with everything Cholette and Desiree have said. You know...I have just been thinking about the purpose of some knowing while others don't. THERE HAS GOT TO BE A PURPOSE. I am just curious to know. God has allowed me to know who it wasn't but I'm not sure about if He's actually told me who he is. I thought I knew at one time but now I don't think it's him. Even if it was him, I think what I did is ONE of probably a million reasons why God doesn't reveal it to some of us. Maybe it's because we don't handle the information well. God gave me a dream a few months ago and the man I saw in my dream was my husband. We weren't married in the dream but I just knew he was my husband and I felt like he knew it as well. I didn't recognize him (not ever meeting him IRL) but I knew it was him. Sometimes I want to know exactly who he is and then there are times that I don't want to know and like Desiree, I want to be surprised...just mind blowing! The only thing about this is the fact that I know if God doesn't tell me I'm to marry this man (whenever we meet)...IT'S A WRAP! I don't want to invest any time into a relationship and getting my emotions all tied up in a man if he's not the man God has chosen for me. Cholette...you are a mess! You have me laughing so hard! You ran the other way?!

I have a sister in Christ who knows too. She's known for years. Oh, by the way...noone could ever tell me God is NOT into "arranged" marriages or there is no such thing as "a match made in heaven." I just wondered if there was a significance to knowing beforehand...one knowing (man/woman)and the other(man/woman) not knowing...you know; that sort of thing. Does anyone think if God reveals it to one he will reveal it to the other? Meaning...ok; Cholette, you for example...Do you think God has revealed to the man that you are to be his wife?

Does anyone have any thoughts/answers as to why God reveal husbands/wives beforehand to some and not to others?

Right on point, Cholette!

Have you talked to your Pastor and ask her/him to seek God with you about starting the Singles Ministry you desire to have in church?

The reason I asked is because in January 2007, I was led to pray against the spirit of lust and adultery. I did this for, I would say, well into about 4 or 5 months. All of a sudden I began to lust after a married man. I'm talking about I wanted this man BAD! I was like, "Wait a minute. Now I've been praying about these two spirits. Where in the world are they coming from and why are they trying to attach themselves to me?" I knew something was wrong (couldn't quite put my finger on it at the time) because I knew good and well that I don't do married men. I have never lusted or forcefully desired to be with a married man. That's NOT me! I was terrified. I got so scared that I stopped praying. I later discovered that it was the enemy tempting me in the areas I was praying against to get me to submit to these spirits. The bible says, "The EFFECTUAl, FERVENT prayers of the righteous availeth much!" He knows these types of prayers coming from the righteous are deadly to his kingdom. They mean something and are very powerful! These are the prayers that get God's attention and He moves upon them. Prayer changes things and YOUR prayers against these spirits are EFFECTUAL and FERVENT! Keep praying..Keep praying...Keep praying and resist the devil. Don't get fearful as I did and stop praying. Your prayers ARE making a difference in this area and the devil is MAD, MAD, MAD! Hold on and watch God move!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did God have you praying against these two spirits before your director came into the picture?

Desiree, these words I'm about to quote from your post is confirmation to me as well: "Don't let your past dictate your present expectation" He told me he was going to release his faith to connect with my expectations. He said expectaion is the breeding ground for miracles! "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Don't be afraid or discouraged for the Lord God, my God, is with you. He will NOT fail you or forsake you until ALL the work for the service...of the Lord is finished."-1 Chronicles 28:20 He said the assignment of the enemy was cancelled that I may walk in my season!

mbstudent, I am in agreement with your prayer for thisissparta!

So you quit school (actually doing something that will enhance your ability to get adequate employment that will also provide stability) to do what? Look for a job? Does that take all day? Was that using common sense? Now you're at home ALL DAY doing nothing. More ammunition for your dad to lay it on thick at your expense. when NOBODY is hiring or an employer TURNS ME DOWN even when they ARE hiring You know this, yet in still you quit school. Were you failing? Were you unable to pay for it (i.e. grants, scholarships, loans..etc.)? Stop blaming God. If you are seeking God for answers; did He tell you to quit school?

My reason for asking is this. You say your dad won't allow you to be an adult and he doesn't let you make your own decisions. You made the decision to quit school. If you're in the in-class setting (where you go to class with an instructor and other students), that is time away from your dad. Have you checked into work-study programs (jobs) to keep you busy?

Do (did) you attend an online university or were you attending an in-class setting?

my dad has made another ultimatum...get a FULL TIME JOB/GO TO SCHOOL or GET OUT! I see you thought it is best for you to find employment.

So what are you going to do?

So it's safe to say that you've found employment?

Thank you mbstudent! I receive that word!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing it...I receive it in the name of Jesus. It ministered to me in the spirit. Thank you soooooo much! God is a good God. This word is a confirmation bonus for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, thank you Cholotte! Our God is an AWESOME God. There is truly none like Him. I had to hold on even during the times I felt like giving up...which were many. I had to believe in God's word. What else did I have? It's a must that we keep the faith especially when we think things are at their worst. It's all in His plan to give us an expected end!

Praise the Lord, Saints...Hallelujiah, Glory to God. I haven't talked much about these past 4 years of my life. There have been certain things I've shared during my posts to bring encouragement but there are still other things that I have not shared. These past 4 years has been a BIG test for me. The enemy has tried so hard to tear me down...to cause me to lose faith in God...to cause me to lay my ministry down...to cause me to turn away from God; to doubt God...to cause me let go of my praise and worship even in the darkest hour...to cause me to give up on myself because of past failures, disappointments, pains, hurts, etc... It has been a rough road for me. You can say I lost everything I had (materially speaking-including relationships). I was persecuted, lied on, (God Favors Me - Hezekiah Walker, explains what I went through to a "T") It was aweful. I was trying to hold on. Along the way, God brought words to me to keep the faith. Every word brought to me, I tried to hold on to but it got so hard sometimes. I thought I wasn't going to make it. There was a time that I wanted to just throw in the towel and give up. I wanted to give up on everything. I wanted to leave this world. I wanted to take my own life at times because things seemed to get heavier and heavier for me. I kept reminding myself to trust God. Oh, my Lord...was it hard at times. Jesus, I praise you! The enemy tried to take me out of here...Do yall hear me?! There were times when I thought I was going to lose my mind. There were decisions I made after hearing from God that seemed to be the wrong decision but I knew I was being obedient to God when doing those things. The enemy wanted me to think I had lost out on everything God had promised me. I thank God for His faithfulness. We had a Home Grown Revival at our church last week. Our ministers (Home Grown) preached instead of having outside ministers to come in. It was awesome and I believe it opened the door for what happened yesterday at church. Our Bishop sent a Prophet to speak yesterday. He is out of another state in which we live. He brought a powerful message about the purpose of Jonah being in the belly of the whale. It was an anointed message and came straight from the throne room of God. At the end of the message, he had an altar call. It was about 5 of us had made it to the front when he looked at Pastor and said, "(My last name). Pastor do you have a (My last name) who attends church here?" I looked up and said, "That's my last name. My sister is here too." He said, "I'm hearing (My first name)". I said that's me. Lord, I praise you. He said, "Raise your hands, woman of God. When I came in and said to look at your neighbor and say the good news is that the bad news is wrong, that message was for you. God says it's over. The assignment the enemy had to break you has been cancelled. You have suffered long! It's over!" Hallelujiah....Hallelujiah...my God I praise you. I made it. I made it. I made it! I can't thank Him enough for keeping me! Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello, i really don't know how to answer that question and here's why... when i was in highschool, it NEVER once came to my mind what i should do or wanted to do afterwards, i didn't think about it... and as a result, i can't now either... Maybe it's time that you do. Your dad was obligated to take care of you until you got grown. You're 21 years old now and he is no longer obligated to take care of you because just as you said; you are not a child. As long as you're under his roof...you're under his rules.

This is beautiful. I would like to copy and share it as well. I do agree with Cholette about having it copyrighted. It is kind of expensive but a close relative of mine told me the cheap way to do it because I write poetry as well. Address an envelope to you - from you -and mail it. I always write the name of the poem somewhere on the envelope before I mail it so I'll know which poem it is because you CANNOT OPEN IT. Whatever you do...don't open it. I always put the date I wrote it under my name, as the author, at the end of the poem. Even if you don't mail it the same day, you'll still have the original date (on the poem itself) it was written and then you'll have the postmark date (on the envelope) after it's mail. AGAIN...DO NOT OPEN IT WHEN YOU GET IT BACK THROUGH THE MAIL!

if the guy you are with is of God and is for you...YOU can't do anything to ruin it or to lose it. This is absolutely right. No man can thrawt God's plan for your life.