Christa

Dear Jesus, you see everything that's happening here and you know the outcome. Thank you Jesus that you died on the cross to take every burden, every ailment, every problem, and every pain instead of us....so we wouldn't have to go through such horrors. Holy Spirit, I ask you to come. I ask that your sweet presence fall right now on MB, and that your miraculous power transforms MB's situation instantaneously. Let your peace, joy, and love replace the anxiety, as your presence fills MB's place. Thank you Jesus that you loved us so much that you've already paid the price for our pain be it emotional or physical. Thank you that MB's battle is already won. In Jesus' name I pray, in agreement with Cholette and Hind's Feet, Amen.

I forgot to pay a cell phone moving violation ticket. I have a failure to appear now and an $800- bail amount. I'm going to go to the judge tomorrow to ask for a reduction in the bail amount. The problem is, I have no money, $25- is all I've got. I'm going to plead guilty or no contest. Please pray that the judge somehow dismisses my bail amount and the failure to appear, or that he allows me to do community service for the bail. I have a visitation court date for my daughter on 2/1/10, and if I have a bench warrant from this stupid ticket I got, I could go to jail for just showing up to my court date on 2/1. I'm up to my eyeballs in court, police, mediator, legal crap. I can't stand this court stuff. I HATE going before judges. If I had $800- right now, I'd probably pay $1000- to just not have to go to court. I know that God is going to prove Himself tomorrow for His glory because He's so incredibly merciful and gracious. Please pray that I don't get arrested and that the whole money/bail thing is cleared up tomorrow, and that I trust God instead of worry about this all night. Thanks warriors.

Hi Steady.....I've missed you sister, and I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. I really feel that the Lord is breaking you of some "stuff" right now. Girl......I'm just going to say it - like He's allowing your arms to be broken so that you can pass through the birth canal to REALLY begin life. A baby can't stay inbetween two worlds like that, the umbilical cord needs to be cut and sometimes immediate measures are taken to get the baby out. He's allowing the pain for a little while longer only, simply because He wants to refine you, and REALLY get you livin' the good life, a full and whole life.....in one place...not stuck between two places. You're an awesome intercessor .....and prophetic I might add. You see things way before. While some people notice a few red flags, you notice them way sooner and you see a lot of them. You have very good discernment and you're sensitive to the Spirit of God. I think you have a very high perspective and you've hiked through the tough terrain to get to the top of the mountain, but you've certainly arrived. People with high perspectives can see the immediate futures of those down below.... merely because they're up higher and can see impending dangers that are around the blind corners of those traveling on twisty roads below. I'm really feeling that the Lord wants you to serve Him with a more "reckless abandon" approach. Like He wants ultimate creativity from you. I think that fasting helps us to get there, and soaking too. I think that you are so extremely dangerous to the devil because God knows that you're faithful like Job was. God's not going to allow this pain much longer. I just feel it in my bones. Don't worry. God's got your back girl!

You don't know how much you've encouraged me Delia. "For I know the plans I have for you, to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future." Praise God! The battle is the Lord's and He gets the glory when He wins. It's a double-whammy. We gets the perks of His victories if we're obedient and sensitive to His voice. Thank you for your testimony. I really needed to hear it today.

To My Dear Brothers and Sisters, This site has really helped me get to the bottom of core issues in my life, but God wants to go deeper and dig out the roots. It is a painful choice to walk away for a while, but God wants me to stop running and face the music right now. And, I can't face the music if I'm still in the choir here. God knows I love to sing with you guys though.....so He's going to let me come back, I know it, but He's putting me in the congregation again for now. So, basically, I'm going to take a little break from posting for a while, because I've got some rough spots going on in my personal life that need to be handled. I asked God last night to give me immediate understanding and revelation of my dreams, so that I won't have to post them. It makes me sad, but God is urging me to take a little break, because He's got some stuff He needs to clear up with me before I get the green button to go again. Please remember that I love you all and please pray for me because I'm going through some really hard decisions (re: possible divorce, custody issues, and severe poverty). This will be my last post/reply for a while on this site, but I'll be back, I promise. I probably won't respond to most PM's just because I know I'll get sucked back in by your loving and compassionate hearts. I really want to be obedient and sensitive to God's nudges and urgings. However, if you guys do want to contact me, I'll be adding a "contact me" section to my website, which will go directly to my regular e-mail address. PM me and I'll send you this information. God bless you all, I'll miss you guys. Love, Christa

It's oh so good too. I might make it on Christmas morning for the fam. Maybe this is where the comment, "good gravy" came from....somebody somewhere made some good gravy and it became an inside joke or something.

I've gotten really good at gravy lately. My grandmother was from Oklahoma and she made the best chipped beef gravy for biscuits and gravy. It's sooooo fattening, but sooooo wonderful. She would eat it with some grape jelly. I'm spoiled rotten now and I can't have it any other way. This is how you make it. -Make some bacon and keep the fat in the pan. -Add about 1/4 cup of real butter -Once the butter is melted add in some flour, probably about 1/2 a cup. Mix the flour and the butter together until it makes a paste (you might need to add a little more flour or butter so that you can get the consistency right....the paste should kind of look like sugar cookie dough texture) -Add some sage, chili powder, black pepper, and a couple of dashes of tobasco sauce. -Add your sliced up chipped (dried) beef. I like mine in 2-3 inch rectangle strips. Stir everything together a couple of times. -Get out your gallon of milk and add about a cup to the mixture to start. Stir constantly and keep adding milk little by little as the sauce gets too thick. There will eventually be a point to where the gravy will stop thickening and it'll have a smooth consistency, that's why it's important to add the milk slowly. You don't want to over-milk. -Taste your gravy, add salt and pepper as needed (to your liking), serve with biscuits (or toast) and grape jelly. Yum Yum!

Amen!

I believe that God has put a hedge of protection over the US, and has maintained the "one nation....under God.....indivisible...." foundation. We truly have the hand of God over our country right now. He's so powerful and mighty!

Both of you gave me chills as I just read your replies. Thank you so much. I felt a ton of peace tonight. I even felt free to write during that two hours....something that God's been putting on my heart. Both of your prayers were so powerful, I felt them immediately. Thank you again so very much.

In two hours I'm going to be dropping off my daughter at the police department because my brother refuses to supervise visitation again. I feel a spirit of fear trying to creep up on me right now. The police officers will only intervene if she's in immediate danger, otherwise, they won't. I don't want my husband taking her into the bathroom with him or anything of that nature. I want my husband to be in eyeshot of the police officers the whole time. I want this to be over with. I don't want my husband to have visitation with our daughter unless I'm present. I pray that God's will be done and that my daughter is extremely safe where she's going to be tonight (without me). Please help me pray. I get cloudy and have a hard time praying when I'm in weird spots like this. Thanks you guys.

Thank you so much ladies for the encouragement. Both of you two said things that I truly need to meditate on. Princess said, "I know how you feel about Job and how the despair seems crushing. How almost everyone gives up." It's very true that almost everyone gives up. We as Christians have to be the exception in that because we need that blessing at the end. I have to have that warrior for Christ mentality in all this. Cholette said, "....keep your heart pure. You can do this by praying for him because when you understand that it's not him doing these things and that it's the devil...it will be easier to pray." I very often get sucked into personalizing his offenses towards me, which puts me on the defense towards him. I'm going to start praying for him more instead of looking at the circumstances under a magnifying glass. God makes it so easy for us, our battle comes from our unwillingness to let go of our flesh for sure. Thank you God for these two wonderful women that have keen ears in hearing your voice. Thank you Jesus for relaying the truth to me through them, your precious servants. Bless them Lord with everything they need and desire, especially an abundance of joy and peace, and of course, more of you! We love you Lord.... amen.

God gave me favor, praise God! The police officer didn't want to write up the report....I went through some resistence with him, but in the end he ended up saying, "It doesn't seem that that guy is meant to have parental custody in any form with your child." He told me to start the divorce immediately to get this custody thing taken care of right away. Praise God. He's so good. Yeah, the whole flat tire thing didn't get written up, but at least I got one of the two!

Can you guys pray for me. I'll be going to the police station tonight because my husband broke the court order again. He also flattened my tire this morning by loosening the tire needle in the valve. I really need favor with the police because I have no proof that it was him who did it (although I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he did). The police are very cut and dry because they pretty much have to be. He's now living with his best friend that is a process server and has a lot of equipment to record calls, make videos etc. On an up note...I scanned through the book of Job today. His grief was so great. Other people and his wife would encourage him to give up on God and just die. He stayed faithful, but he grieved through the whole thing. Once it was over, God said, "enough." He blessed Job so greatly after that. His daughters that were born after that trial were the most beautiful in all of the land. He died an old man and a very content man. Not that I really want to go through grief......but I see that by Job, how important it is to stay faithful, obedient, and humble towards the Lord. We have to graduate the class and He never sets us up to fail. I just hope that I choose the right things to say and do and listen to the Holy Spirit each time He speaks to me. Thank you all for your continued prayers for me. I need them and I appreciate every one of you on this site. God bless you.

First of all, are you ok? Who attacked you and will this person do this again? I'm so sorry this happened to you....I hope you're safe and ok now. I was recently attacked by my husband. When it was over, I was completely dumbfounded. I couldn't make a decision if it stood in my way and tripped me. Being attacked put me in a fight or flight mode. I was in shock. The only thing I could do right at that moment was plead with the Holy Spirit to move within me and help me through the experience until I could think again. I couldn't rationalize....so, when I asked the Holy Spirit, "Please help" as well as prayed in tongues, it was like He took over the steering until I was mentally and physically strong enough to get back behind the wheel (which was several days). I went to a doctor that night just to see if I had any serious injuries, and I didn't. I actually knew I didn't because we pretty much know our bodies and when something's bruised or broken. Because I have somewhat of a heavy occult background....I had to get the spirit of witchcraft casted off of me some time back. If you suspect a spirit of witchcraft may have been involved with that scene, it's always better to get it casted off. Remember that you are blessed and not cursed. Sometimes, we have to shout that at the top of our lungs (as well as other scriptures) to the devil to get him the hell out of our lives. I plead the blood of Jesus over myself and my family almost daily. I cast out anything evil or negative out of my house. I bind the devil in Jesus' name. I also ask God to send his angels to surround and protect me. Because we live in a sinful world, these things happen to us at times. So many Christians in the Bible suffered great persecution and horrific deaths for the sake of Christ. Although we don't understand these things sometimes.....God still allows it. However, through these times that the devil sifts us (thinking he's disecting us into nothing and crushing our bones into powder), he doesn't realize that through the sifting, all of the pebbles and the impure things that are caught are tossed out and what is left is what is refined. The devil abandons us at that point, not knowing that God's not done yet. God then carefully scrapes up and collects that weak and refined person to make the most sweetest and refined vessel. God cares for us....He will always collect us and restore us to an even better state once the sifting is over with. I just want to encourage you, that although the process can be long to forgive, get your mind back, get your strength back, or get your sweetness back.........God is in control. He knows what He's doing, and He's way more powerful than any stinkin' curse that somebody TRIES to put on you. You are a blessed child of the Most High King.......the devil is going to get a big butt whoopin' really soon for every little thing He's done to us......all of God's children. God is going to get your vengeance for you and He's going to do it better that you could ever even dream up. He's so good to us. Take care sweetie. I hope this helped you. Psalm 91 1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. 4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. 5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. 7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. 8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. 9 If you make the Most High your dwelling— even the LORD, who is my refuge- 10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. 11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. 14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. 16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

1st: I don't know how to actually explain this....but I physically heard your voices praying for me. And when I heard your prayers....God answered them right as each prayer was finished (when the last word I heard was spoken). I've never physically heard prayers before, like with different voices, male and female. The night I wrote that, I had gone to bed with really high blood pressure. My face was on fire. I heard a voice say, "I cast off the spirit of anger on Christa right now." In a fraction of a second, the heat on my face turned cool. I felt and physically heard your prayers the very next day as well. I had such peace that day. Nothing bothered me the next day. If ever you think (like I have at times) that your prayers fall to the ground.......it absolutely does not happen. God's Word doesn't return to Him void and He proved that to me that night and the next day. 2nd: God did something for me that night to show me something. Here's a little background information: My brother and I were talking about cats about a week ago and how every time I inherited a cat, it was because a person gave it to me (I adopted it). But, every time my mom inherited a cat, it was because they walked right up to her and found her (they adopted her). That night, as I loaded my daughter in the car to take her to see her dad at the police station, a little kitten walked up to us. He appeared friendly. I was in a hurry, so I tried to get the kitten to scram, but he weaved in and out of my legs, even trying to get into the car. The kitten then went under my car, and I didn't want to run him over, so I picked him up, put him on my porch and ran to my car to hop in before he followed me back. I drove to the police station, stayed there for over an hour in the parking lot, crying and praying....letting God know that I really needed Him to show me how much He loved me. After the visitation was finished, I drove home, parked, and brought my daughter inside. I went to go get her something and heard a noise. I tuned my ear into the noise, and the kitten had clawed it's way up the front door screen. I invited him into the house, and he wanted to make himself at home. My daughter loved it. She was so happy that the little kitty was playing with us in the house. I lured him into the back yard after a little while with some food, and fed him. In that little kitten, I believe God showed me that He's promoting me. I'm not sure how yet, but I just know, that I know, that I know...that He's trusting me with more stuff. When I realized that the kitten was a sign of that promotion....instantaneously, I felt a downpour of love from God on me. Even in the midst of my anguish and one of the most dramatic events of my life, He showed me..."For I know the plans I have for you...to prosper you...." I don't have the words to express how amazing both of these experiences were, which came out of something so horrid. Thank you all so very much for your prayers. I pray in return that God would bless you all so much.

My husband broke the stupid restraining order again by calling me a hundred times today. Then my brother decided he didn't want to supervise the visitations yesterday because he hates my husband. I petitioned the court through fax and wrote a written objection to the court order in order to get the visitation supervisors changed and because a judge hasn't signed it yet (and probably won't for a little while) and I didn't know what to do.....my husband threatened to file a police report on me, which he may or may not have done tonight. I had to beat him to the punch and file a "violation of restraining order" on him. The police officer didn't tell me that it was wise to show up at the police dept at the time of visitation irregardless if the visitation supervisors were to be there or not. I wasn't sure what to do, then one of the police officers called me asking me if I wanted to come down there....at 7:15, which was 15 minutes past the start of the visitation time. This threw me into violation of the court order....I decided it was best to go ...at the coercion of the police officer, so that it would look that I was late instead of absent. Easier to explain to the court I guess. I've never wanted to leave our daughter alone with my husband because he's violent and verbally abusive towards me and may be that way with her in the future at some point. It is rare that I've ever left him alone with her. I might've gone and done laundry while she had her nap during the day, but I've always gotten back within a half an hour of her waking. I've never trusted him as well because he abuses drugs and alcohol....then drives like an idiot. The thought of him being alone with her terrifies me....even at the sheriff's office. He's changed maybe 5 diapers since our daughter's been born...what if her diaper's dirty? She'll get a rash if she's not changed right away. He always does things half-way, so he might not clean her properly. I don't want my daughter to suffer with rashes, not being fed right, not being comforted right, for the sake of trial and error. My brother changed his mind to supervise visitation simply for my daughter's sake praise God, but although he's a Christian, he's backsliding. He feels like I'm ruining his life. He told me that he might as well just kick my husband's butt, get it over with, then they can be jail buddies if they're going to be spending all this time together anyway. His wife agreed to do this supervision and then didn't take it seriously and lied to him regarding what supervised custody consists of...spending time with the supervised parent. She was screaming at him, while I was talking to him, about how horrible of a person I am. I couldn't believe it.....she lied and I'm the horrible person for simply asking her if she and my brother could do this for me (telling her that it was absolutely, perfectly, 100% fine if she said "no"..that I understood). My brother's fuming mad that he has to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with one of the most horrible men on the planet, and you know what???? I don't blame him. I truly hate myself for marrying this putz. To the core, it's all my fault...I listened to no one and I married the world's worst man. My husband accepted Christ into his heart about a month ago. I was talking to a friend today and she said she knew the devil was going to try and mess me up over this. I want this to be over. I feel like checking out mentally over this one.....but I can't, I have a kid that needs a stable mother. I don't know how I'm going to do this. I know what I gotta do, but I'm too much in my head to get the words out right to even pray properly. The devil is a liar and I hate him. I don't want to pray for my husband to mess up, but I secretly want him so far out of my life that he's but a speck in a binocular.......however, that's wrong of me to do and it will torture my daughter. My husband gets all of his friends involved in our affairs...they've enabled him to do horrible things in our marriage....keeping secrets from me, doing drugs behind my back, not including me in their gatherings. I wish God would smite them off the face of this planet, he truly would be better without them. I feel no mercy towards them tonight (usually I do, but not tonight). Saint Patrick asked God to smite the sorcerer that was giving advice to the king of Ireland. How much do these people have to do to offend God in order to get wiped off of the planet? I secretly hope - not much more than what they've already done to mess with my life. Please pray for me.....my mind is not right tonight. I want to have mercy and to love my enemies, but I can't even fathom that thought right now. These jerks have messed with a mother's cub and the claws are going to come out soon .... if God doesn't set me straight.

No we sure don't have to put up with that nonsense. Thank you Cholette for you and your friend's prayers for me. I feel truly loved by that. God knows I need that extra dose of love here and there. He's so good that He sends such wonderful people in our lives to help us get through. I'm going to Uuuuggh. Thanks again for your prayers.

Luv you. I feel the same way about this site. We need you here desperately....a real live "life coach" who is anointed!!!!! I'm going to read all of your posts from here on out!

Hi, I agree with Cholette and Linda whole heartedly. I've been having issues just getting the full request out to God. This has helped me: Joyce Meyer once said that you need to butter God up a little bit with praise and worship first before asking for anything. He loves to be loved by you and he loves to hear it over and over how much you love Him. Joyce said, when her kids butter her up and tell her how wonderful she is, and what a good mother she is, she immediately wants to give them everything (she knows they're buttering her up for something). I love the thought that our God is our daddy.....that He is a loving parent to us. "Delight yourselves in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." God is good and He wants you to have clarity and wisdom. God bless you!

Thanks Cholette.....You know I feel 90% better. Something broke last night and I began to sweat. Maybe I had a stomach virus? My stomach is a little sore today, but I feel so much better. Thank you for your prayers Cholette, you're such a prayer warrior, and I appreciate you so much!

I've been in pain for most of the morning. I don't have health insurance, and no money at this time. I don't want to go to the emergency room because county hospital will have me wait a minimum of 7 hours. I can't do that with a 2 year old. I don't want to name any illnesses.....however, the pains resemble that of someone who has endometriosis, where progesterone levels are depleting and estrogen levels raise. This works a number on the body and causes a grip of pain. When I'm in pain, I can't eat....my head, back, stomach hurt all at the same time and I feel noxious. My sister-in-law has had to help me watch my daughter for several hours when it has hit me. The funny thing is......if I got pregnant, it might cure it. I've had a lot of baby dreams lately. Maybe if I get spiritually fertile, it might get this monkey off of my back. I know that if I go to the doctor, they'll find nothing.....this is what always happens anyway with me, Glory to God, and that's what I want....a clean bill of health, but I don't want this pain anymore. Can you guys pray for me to trust God, have faith, and to be obedient? Thanks so much everyone.

This may be a weird thing to say, but the word "digits" popped up in my mind. Your feet and hands have digits, like no other body parts. Hands allow us to use our fine motor skills. Feet help us to move forward. My mom told me the other day, "The devil is in the details." Please forgive me if I'm off, but I'm wondering if maybe you're fine-tuning your walk with the Lord, and the devil is trying to make this a completely sore experience for you. He's trying to make what is meant to have quantitative results (down to the exact digits) into qualitative results (only a percentile, not exact). Basically what I'm trying to say is...the devil is in the details and trying to weaken your fine-tuning in order to make you ineffective in your walk. I just want to encourage you to keep plugging forward...through the pain. There's a song by Tim McGraw (not a huge fan, but I like this song) and the chorus goes: "If you're going through hell, keep on moving, don't look back, if you're scared don't show it, you might get out before the devil even knows you're there." If what I said rings true with you, then this is a good song to encourage you that you're going to get through it triumphantly. God bless you. I hope this helped a little. I pray that God will replace that soreness with soarness, so you can mount up on the wings of an eagle!

I just want to give a shout out to God right now. Thank you Holy Spirit for showing up in that courtroom and for the 180 degree turn around in every area that's wrong. Thank you for that start Lord....it's a great start and thank you that you have our best interests at heart for the great finish as well. Thank you Jesus for your mercy on my husband and on me as well. You're worthy of all our attention and all our praise. You're glorious and magnificent. Thank you....thank you....thank you.

Thanks girls. The only think that felt on fire in that courtroom today was my face......but God showed up mightily and oh so sweetly. God bless you all!