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Amen!

That's encouraging Chollette!!

AMen DJJ!!! Praise Yah!!! Amen, Virtuous.

You're welcome DJJ

Another thing my aunt tells me all the time is that when we accuse, point a finger, blame etc. we will always need to look to ourselves first (the Bible tells me that too...). It's so true, it's sad. I know there were others in the church that prob. felt the same way I did and I never went to talk to them either and make them feel better.

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. I used to leave my last church crying almost every Sunday. I would wait around, look for the people that I did know, a lot of Sunday's I found no one I knew and no one would come talk to me, so I would leave and be in tears by the time I was out of the parking lot. I know that I could go up and talk to people I don't know but somehow I couldn't. I loved that church and I know it's where God wanted me at the time. I believe He had it like that so I wouldn't start relying on people instead of Him for my fulfillment whatever it was. I go to another church now that I love just as much and it's getting a little better. I can go and talk to people a little easier now. At both the churches, the pastors encouraged people to talk to people they didn't know because they did see it as a big problem too. Yeah, the fat sheep thing... It upsets me. My aunt often brought to light my motives for wanting my family to all get together in the living room rather than being scattered around the house. She called it controlling... There was more to it than just that but I won't get into it (I rarely get to see my family and it's very large... I was very sad that they didn't do things the way we grew up and it hurt). I'm just saying that you are right, God did speak that to you about your motive for singing in the church. I wouldn't do anything unless it's God leading you to do it. If you are doing it out of hurt, then I would not do it.

I'm glad you posted it as well as your last post just above this one. Everyone loses sight of Yah's blessings and has gone/goes through what you've gone through in some form. Yah will use this to help others stay encouraged to keep going. God's Will is Better than all we could ever wish for. If He says NO, He's got something better in His will for you. I go through not knowing if something is His will or not and it helps to ask Him for a confirmation (or a few) to know what He wants. I once asked Him for a confirmation that based on whether or not I got an answer from someone or no reply. If I got no reply then God's answer was a big fat NO. I did get a reply, the answer was YES. Don't ever desire to be anyone but yourself. God says for us to do our best at everything we put our hands to. Yahweh says for us to take care of our bodies, inside and out because we are His Holy Temple. He even goes so far as to tell us what to eat to stay healthy.

Yah is always right!! Amen

So what D?! Yah can do anything between now and then. I'm preaching to myself as well So, Yah says to not worry about the end of your 2 weeks nor even the end of your first week, or your first day. Just take care of the first day of work and work as hard as you can all for Him.

Amen!

I prayed a modified prayer of what you wrote, for you

Thank you Deborah and Connie!! Deborah, I can see what you are talking about. I told Father today that I don't know what being a wanted daughter is like and asked Him to make that more real to me because it's easy to read in the Bible what He says I am, but that doesn't make it to be understood inside. I just thought of "the grass is always greener on the other side" but I'm using this as that the side of the fence I'm on is dead grass. I can understand how I would want God as my father more than people who have had good fathers. In that I can be grateful to Him. But I think it's easier for those who have had good father's to be more trusting towards Father Yah. Connie, thank you for that prayer. I'm always needing insight into who I need to forgive and why. Thank you for speeding it up for me a little!! I often don't realize that I need to forgive my family for stuff like that. I don't know why it never occurs to me. I mean I forgive my parents and siblings and a cousin for being mean to me but other stuff doesn't isn't so obvious even though it should be because it stands out just as much as the meanness does. I prayed your prayer and will try to remember that prayer so that I can pray it again. I just love that you said to list all the pain I feel, never done that before.

Amen D!! Deborah, that's a real eye opener... I did fear that everyone had a better life than me when I was growing up!! Because I was abused and treated differently by my guardian, I wanted my real dad. When My real dad had a son I became seriously jealous of him because he had my dad. That's how I felt after all my siblings were born and even my cousins!! I was the first born of all my cousins and siblings.... So, my mom was MY mom and my aunts and uncles were MY aunts and uncles., my grandparents were MY grandparents... I even still get those feelings and I'm an adult! I don't feel that way so much any more about them because I love all of them now. But, I do in a sense that I feel like some of them are favoured by my grandparents over me...

I never considered that D. I knew that I had a LOT of healing that needed to be done that goes back to my mom before she got married but never considered that my real dad was part of it. Yeshua will have to do it. I don't know what He will bring up in regards to that. Thank you for the encouragement D and everyone

KDRE, I really want that too!!! I feel emotionally blank quite often. D, yeah, there was a lot of rejection. My real dad left my mom when I was a toddler and it seemed that I forgot about him except for in pictures. My mom remarried When I was a toddler... that man was abusive. My mom was already abusive when she would make me eat food. He favoured his own daughter he had with my mom when I was 4 and then all the rest of the kids, over me.

Thank you Cholette, that is exactly what my apple dream was about, Awesome!! I will try to do the morning prayer because I do want a closer relationship with God and for Him to free me of things.

I failed to mention that I am abstaining from tv watching today and have been praying that God would remove the desire from my heart.

Thank you guys I love that Dove, I can only forgive for today, tomorrow will take care of itself. I forgive only when they come to mind? If I'm not thinking about them I guess I don't have anything at the moment that I need to forgive them for? Do I forgive myself for the stuff that I have to ask forgiveness for? KDRE, I will ask God to help me with what you said. That's going to be really tough to do as the main thing I do to start every day. My aunt and uncle do that, every single morning. I have such a difficult time trying to keep any semblance of a routine, it would be a miracle!! D, you've got a really good point!! My aunt has been doing this thing with me for a few years now, getting to the root of my feelings and it always goes to how I feel about God!! Speaking of fruits of the Spirit... brought me right back to my apple tree dream!! I love that D, that Yeshua answered like that! Thank you Father for inspiring my friends through your Holy Spirit, in the name of Yeshua, Amen Ok, my friends please pray what D spoke about that Yah would reveal what the root is that is growing those ugly fruits. I want it to be healed, in the name of Yeshua AMEN!!

There are things that Yahweh has been convicting me of but right now it has come to the point where I want to be free. Now that I think of it, He convicts me of stuff for a while and it seems to prepare me to let go of it in the future. Is that the experience of anyone else? I have to make a list of the things I want out of my life: the idol of TV and entertainment (I don't want another idol taking it's place ie. instead of tv watching it would be book reading). Most of the stuff I watch are the learning channels, not one for day time tv... I do have SOME series shows that I like but not as much as the Discovery channel etc. I do watch some Christian preaching and some stuff about Israel/archaeology. I know that God wants me to learn. What I want is to want Yah more than tv and learning stuff. What I don't understand is how I can bring Yah into my insatiable desire to learn. It's not like I don't thank God for the cool stuff that I'm watching or pray for the people I see on tv that need justice or need God (I don't always pray for people though). Other things that God has brought up to me: Pride and arrogance (I really really hate it and am always finding this in me. I don't want to be separated from God because of it. I hate it.) laziness (He's been helping me with this, but I need to get rid of my idols...) disrespect vengefulness unforgiveness sinning in anger ( I can't tell the difference between anger and hate sometimes... I don't want to have any hate.) I really want to see people as Yeshua sees them. I can't though. I can't seem to separate the wrong that people do from the person. I've been praying for Him to let me see people how He sees them so that I won't develop any hate or sin in anger). I say stuff all the time in anger. Even if I'm not angry, I am often brusque with my son and husband for various reasons. I don't feel sweet inside, most of the time (I wonder if sweet people feel sweet inside). Jealousy, He's been working on that in me for a long time now, but I want it GONE. I want what HE wants for me, to concentrate on that instead of other people. There are some things I don't get jealous of much anymore like things/stuff. gossiping, I hate it. I want to be free of it. Apparently I don't know what all is considered gossip. not putting Yahweh first, I feel this is part of laziness... I can't think of anything else right now so, if you do think of something I haven't put on here, please pray for that Please about this stuff for me. Thank you guys

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AMEN John.

D, you really did crack me up last night Yes, you=stand up comic I'm sorry that we made you feel we didn't want you there, we really did.

Hey Owen, I'm sorry I didn't reply. I read your reply before but wasn't able to answer then. That's a relief to know! Yeah, that describes it... I'm glad I'm not the only one that's going/gone through that. What are some other reasons?

Amen Lurdys!!!