lithiumkat

Dang. I didn't realize this. Hadn't done items in awhile. Wish I'da kept more spares and hadn't gotten so $ desperate to sell so many of my extras. bahhh! There will be more stuff I want I try to stop myself getting sucked in w/ greedy

Some days are better than others. I'm still plugging along. Sometimes it helps just getting it out, I guess like Dumbledore and the Pensieve for those of you that are Potter fans like me lol. Day by day really, some are good some are maybe not. But there's always tomorrow and hey...I like that Annie song too!! lol. Lea you'll love this...I've been listening to some 80's classics along with classic rock like from the 70's but....I have loved this one forever! Helps everytime!! I been through a desert on a horse. it felt good to be out of the rain. What helps the most is people like you guys caring! Thanks, it means a whole lot. "

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Well I've struggled and sometimes still struggle with low self-esteem. I would say one way to help is just to help lift someone up a little, tell them their hair looks nice if you think it does, if you think the necklace we wear is cool...let us know, if you think we are funny then tell us that! It really starts to help make someone feel special and noticed instead of invisible and unnoticable... Maybe if it's your friend call her out of the blue just to talk for a bit. Invite her over to do something even if it's silly like just having a sleepover or going to eat somewhere or watch a movie. Anything to make someone feel special or treasured, and know they have folks that care and that pay attention to them, and that they are well liked and well accepted. Just how I see it from my viewpoint and things that would be helpful to me, so probably others too

I'm in Missouri too!! Small world right! So howdy neighbor!

Very clever and original idea...love it!

I'm still having so much problems coping. My boyfriend of about a year was in prison for 3 years before we met, nothing scary as far as why, but was on parole the whole time we'd been dating. He'd gotten into some trouble and wound up living at the Parole Office after a long string of events which he supposedly stole his roommates last 20 dollars they caught him on video police got called he ran from the cops cuz he was scared of getting locked up. Going through his stuff provides evidence that he was possibly unfaithful to me as well, something we've had a problem with before but I thought was cleared up. He's in jail now, where I can't really talk to him or see him, right before Xmas, our 1 year anniversary. This has taken a huge toll on my self esteem, my mood, my whole life. I feel like all of a sudden I'm out here alone and lost. And we are supposedly bumping it down to being "friends" but he loves me, he wants to be together when he's out of whatever mess he's in, etc etc. I have bipolar disorder that seems to be majorly triggered by emotional blows, and this is a huge one. I cry all the time, I'm sad all the time. I'll cry during a song, or randomly and be unable to stop. I feel ridiculous. I feel alone and unwanted, I feel invisible and ignored. I feel ugly. I wonder if it's because I had gained weight that he was maybe unfaithful or even if he was because he tells me that nothing happened. I'm so confused, I don't know how to feel or what to think. I still love him, I find out tonight he just found out his dad has colon cancer, and hes stuck in there and I can't help him and I feel so alone and useless and lost. I feel like I have no purpose, I have nothing to do with myself, my phone is like a ghost without him to be calling me or texting me throughout the day. And I go visit him Sunday. Parts of me are so angry at him I could explode, how could he have put me in this position how could he have done this to us...to me?? And parts of me love him and know that no matter what happens he is my best friend, the best I've ever had, I've never had a connection on all levels with someone like him and I love him fiercely and feel he is mine and I know he loves me no matter what stupid rubbish he does and that matters and I know he thinks I'm beautiful and smart and worthy, and if I am truly these things....now that I'm "single" or whatever and have this freedom that I didn't want, need or ask for that I wish I didn't have, no one else seems to notice or appreciate these things. I dress up to be very cute for work...work on my hair, makeup, clothes choice to hope some cute guy will flirt or give me a number to make me feel better and no. No one notices because no one looks. no one sees, no one cares. And all I want is Antoine back......I can be doing anything and if I think about him....his eyes, the way he laughs, his smell, that adorable smile, the way he hugs me, how it's perfect, the songs we liked to listen to together, the things we would do everyday together, shows that were ones we watched together and I just feel like the more and more I think of us together and that we aren't now....the more I start falling apart. And I don't know where I'm going with this....but I feel like sort of as if I'm drowning sometimes.....and I just keep swallowing this oceanwater and choking........

I agree Gaia that's a great pic! It made me smile for sure. Thanks sweetie. Hope ya have a Merry Christmas yourself

I haven't had much luck with this. I think I got more with the old feature to be honest.

Pretty cool feature honestly

I'm going to bed soon myself. But also good morning to all those waking up. I didn't have a great day myself either. But when you have something bad happening, you just get through it day by day. I know things will get easier and I won't be so sad as more time passes. Sometimes things are hard and you just have to trudge through it and keep plugging along tell you find it out on the other side of it.

HI! Nice to meet you!

aaaaannnnnnndddd.................. Goodnight from me. It's bout 5 am here in good ole Missouri, USA and time for my butt to be sleeping. I've been kind of distracted lately and shouldn't have even stayed up thislate, but I wasn't really thinking about it.

It's hard to keep up with this silly calender sometimes methinks.....But I've managed so far...evenwith FB issues.

Just published it too, feel free to snag it off my profile if ya need it anyone.

I just updated the settings. I'll check the fb link in this post. to make sure it works.

Cool. I'll have to try and snag me one. It's very cute.

Hi everyone. Hope you have a wonderful day

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Happy Birthday hon, Hope it's a good one

Just gave Sphinx a makeover yay.

I'm cooking something now. We'll see how it goes.

F/R me stating Fox Plushie Wish and I can grant that wish for you

Send me a F/R stating "mac and cheese wish" and I can grant that wish for ya

Smut check your door I've sent a package