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Touching in Agreement. Be a blessing and glory to the Lord, Love.

Wowsers! I always wanted to say that. After all of these years of having no one to discuss these things with, and being the outcast, now I have a whole family that I can go online and talk to about what I love, and who I love, and why I love Him...That makes me feel great. I know that God loves me now. I feel that we are "the school of the prophets" now.

Jeanie, this ministered so deeply to me - it is a whisper in my soul.........

It was the one on the bus, that I was telling God I couldn't stand!!! And Cholette, there is definitely a theme here. Now, it might only be me and the way that I think, but what are the chances that all us complete strangers could be getting the same kind of info from our famous Lord?

I once had a dream that my cousin had a little boy with blond hair that was going in and out of my mom's cabinet This occurred during the July 4th holiday, so I am waiting for the rest of the vision to come to pass now. I saw the car that I am driving now. I was driving around near my sister's house The story behind the car is that it was not one that I would have chosen, and in the dream it broke down on me, which it did this past weekend, so I left it at her house. Now, it did not come to mind that this was the car until I was on the same block that I was in in the dream. Then I loved the car!!! Hehheheh.PS, I was not familiar with where she leaves now when I had the dream.

:seespeakhear: I am telling the absolute truth. LOL<I didn't put in everything that I remembered, because it would have been too long!!

Here's my story - I guess I can tell it. When I was twelve, I dreamed about my spouse. In the dream, there was these preternaturally handsome guy with fiery red hair, that sparkled and glittered with light, and he was just beautiful and powerful, etc. Then he asked me to be his wife. I was really frightened of this man. He felt like death, know what I mean? Then this plain man with a gentle heart came to me and I ended up marrying him. IRL, keep in mind that I am twelve, and I still believed that I could get pregnant off of a kiss - courtesy of Nell Carter's "Give Me a Break". So the dream ended. That dream was right before Easter that year. So I was meditating on that in the backyard, and really thinking hard about it, and I "know" all of a sudden that I am going to Dallas in a little while. The end of the school year was on us, and, because I had perfect grades, I was privileged to board a bus to take a trip to Dallas, TX. I went there, and everywhere my foot hit, I claimed it for Christ. Now, the Lord had been talking to me, so I knew that my husband was here. I didn't know anything about Dallas, except for Knots Landing and the TV show Dallas, featuring that ambassador of doom, JR Ewing. So, after the trip, I got back on the bus and went back home. I forgot about all of this, until I turned 26, and I ended up back in Dallas, fourteen years later. This time, I already had a boyfriend and he was built like an Adonis. OMG:), anyway, God broke that up really quickly as I kept having visions that would come true about him. Finally, I left him, because as badly as I wanted him, I loved and needed God more. One day, I was sitting on my balcony in the dark and I was crying, sad because I still loved Him, and I was pleading with God to change him so that he would be acceptable to God. I really thought that would work. LOL!. That night, I went to sleep and dreamed in song. When I woke up, the Spirit told me to get dressed and go downstairs to catch the bus. When I did this, I was looking all scruffy (when you are broken-hearted, this is your scruffiest looking time) when my painter's pants on, a t-shirt, a head rag, a leather coat, and some sandals and socks. HEEEE, I should be and am embarassed about this description, but if I am going to tell the story, it may as well be right. When I stepped up on that bus, I looked into the bus driver's face and it was the same person from my dream when I was twelve! My heart stopped, I couldn't breathe. I sat down near him, and we began to have this discourse on the word of God. I wanted to see if he was - if this was - real or if my grief had taken me over into a new level of depravity. I stayed with him all that day, and when I went home, I did not care for the guy. I felt that he was arrogant and I knew that God had made a serious mistake. I wanted God to fix Kevin, begged Him. Then I did what I usually did, fend off calls from his new girlfriend and him because he was angry that she was not like me and she was angry because he was throwing me up in her face - she believed that he was cheating on her with me - only I was celibate, so that wasn't it. Integrity will get you a Primo reputation, even with the exes. So that night, I went to sleep and had another dream, and in it, we were in this office, and it had a coat rack behind the door. There was a big brown desk and the man was seated behind it. I was seated perpendicular to him, and we were laughing. There was this really tall man standing by him and he did not seem to notice. They had on the same work clothes, but the other man was deep dark with gray hair, and he was standing like he was his protection. Know what I am saying. Then I reached out and I touched the man's stomach and rubbed it lightly. We made a joke, bout him gaining weight since we had gotten married. I could not see myself, but I knew that I had a french roll in my hand, and I had on a nice ring on my wedding finger. It was a 3D type of vision. Then I woke up, flew out of bed and made myself like really fahn! After that we were together everyday. Some things have changed drastically, but I know that if God could show me that scenario, then this is what will happen. I know that my time is close. I dream of things that happen to him before they occur, so I know better than to doubt even when I do doubt. I asked God why our marriage could not happen sooner, and he showed me that he would talk to me harshly and treat me with disrespect and contempt the way that he was at the moment. I saw myself broken-hearted, crying, walking to get away, walking back because I could not stay away, and basically being used like a mop, because I wanted so badly to please Him. After that dream, I was like, OK, God, do what needs to be done that your will may be done, and that it works out to both of our advantage, and I will remember to pay my vows. I once had a dream that my cousin had a little boy with blond hair that was going in and out of my mom's cabinet, and a little while after that, he came. I saw the car that I am driving now. I was driving around near my sister's house, and I remember the whole dream. So I am nearer than I think. but after so long, is it hard for you to think it will happen once it is upon you???? It is for me, and I feel faint most days if i think about it. But I can say that about four years ago, I had an open vision of line upon line upon line of wedding dresses all neatly hung up on a clothes line in the sky, all types of dresses from every country, for every size, weight, pregnant, not pregnant. I also saw a lot of bedding. And a bed with a colorful quilt made of seven quilts. Then I snapped to.

My aunt was 51 and a virgin when she got married, and very happily I might add. Very beautiful octaroon, with long black hair, but saved, and she waited, and married a pastor. Have strong faith and wait. Not saying that you have to wait 19 more years, but when God blesses you, He blesses you real good, and it will be satisfying and fruitful.

2livischrist, we are not meant to be looking over our shoulders. We are more than conquerors through Him that loves us. Consider this-there are churchs that get out of hand in leadership, making war with the children, instead of with the enemy. But consider Psalm 144 Of David. 1 Praise be to the LORD my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle. 2 He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples [a] under me. 3 O LORD, what is man that you care for him, the son of man that you think of him? 4 Man is like a breath; his days are like a fleeting shadow. 5 Part your heavens, O LORD, and come down; touch the mountains, so that they smoke. 6 Send forth lightning and scatter {the enemies}; shoot your arrows and rout them. 7 Reach down your hand from on high; deliver me and rescue me from the mighty waters, from the hands of foreigners 8 whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful. 9 I will sing a new song to you, O God; on the ten-stringed lyre I will make music to you, 10 to the One who gives victory to kings, who delivers his servant David from the deadly sword. 11 Deliver me and rescue me from the hands of foreigners whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful. 12 Then our sons in their youth will be like well-nurtured plants, and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace. 13 Our barns will be filled with every kind of provision. Our sheep will increase by thousands, by tens of thousands in our fields; 14 our oxen will draw heavy loads. [b] There will be no breaching of walls, no going into captivity, no cry of distress in our streets. 15 Blessed are the people of whom this is true; blessed are the people whose God is the LORD. Be cautious, but don't worry. When God has plans for your life, and you have faith in Him, and are working out that faith in obedience to Him, He will cover you and be a Rock in a weary land, and a shelter in time of storm. So, you made a mistake. You apologized and repented before Father. Everyone makes mistakes. Little birds run and tell things that are whispered in secret. What matters is that you tried to correct the situation, but now God has to work things out. And it will work out for your good, but do not be afraid or dismayed, because if Father is with you, then you have more for you than the people that feel that they need to be against you. Maybe it is time for you to feel God out on whether it is time to seek another church, dear, or whether you should weather the storm right where you are. I know how it is to be pursued by the enemy who uses people to do his grudge work. But I also know how it is to be rescued by the Mighty God, the Lord Strong and Mighty, the Lord Mighty in battle. Ifeel like His cheerleader! Hallelujah, bless the Lord o my soul and all that is within me. Keep praising Him and blessing His name, and give God the Glory, for He can and will deliver you. It is not His will that this situation to oppress you, but for you to shine that righteousness like the noon day sun, and show forth His praises, and show that Christ in you, that righteous priesthood, filled with dignity and humility in God. Show Jesus. Praise is your weapon and it is sharp!!! I am being realistic here, because we know not to trust in "horses, men, and princes" because these can fail you. Practically, do a police report, but have a license plate, and possible description, and the number of times each car has followed you as well, camera shots, and video tape are real helpful too, buuuuuuttt...they are only creatures hand-made. Don't expect too much from them. God is the first and the last, the being and the end, the alpha and the omega. He can never fail you.

I always ask God what my dreams mean. I too would like to understand every one of them. I will stand in agreement with you that you receive the gift of illumination, and discernment concerning dreams, that you may give God the glory in all that you do. Lord, let it be your will, not ours. We know that you give gifts, and even give gifts if we just ask for them. But we will thank you for all of the other marvelous gifts that you have given to us through us and through others. Thank you for allowing me to be whatever portion of the body that I fit into, whether it is the hand or the foot. I know that we cannot be all things, or else we would be dislocated from the body and independent in ourselves, and that's not your will. We thank you for every good and perfect gift that you give us, in Jesus name we ask it all and thank you for doing what we requested, even though you didn't have to .

++++++++add onto her, Lord. Wisdom, strength, understanding, a continuing will to do. Protection from your angels. Peace as well. Lord, our lives and times are in your hands, and because we put them there, we know it is the safest place we can ever pray for. She is dwelling in your secret place, and abiding in the shadow of you, the Most High God. We know the enemy cannot touch her unless you say, "I'll allow it." Lord, we believe in your power and strength. Let your will be done in our lives today Lord on earth as it is in heaven, Lord. We pray for this man to be delivered from the enemy Lord, but also for him to want to love you, to serve you, and to want to get to know you in such a manner that it automatically leads him to a position of loving someone else more than he loves himself. so that he can be there for his child, and for Christa, but ultimately, just be set at liberty in Christ. We are all your people, but now, we are looking for him to desire to be your child, to be filled with the presence of the holy ghost, and to be lead by the same gentle spirit.

How about our miracle-working God, Amen?

OMFather! I never -knew you had this beautiful and exciting testimony! Praise God. I need to get online more often and READ!

:bighug: . Ok, dear! Well, you are a phenomenal person. You are successful, talented, and should be excited about your future.

Safe travel, Connie. May God's peace and His angels travel with you and intercede physically for your protection. I am sorry to hear about your family member's passing.

Dear Blue 504: It is my guess that at any point in time, on different levels of life, we each have, will, or are currently going through situations that are a source of depression. We pray for you, because it is our most powerful weapon, praying in the name of Jesus, who at the mention of His name, every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord of all to the glory of the Father, whether in heaven, on or under the earth. I say to you, call on the name of Jesus as we do this. Keep calling on him to save you. It is the truth that depression is soulful and sometimes clinical, but we believe the Lord for your healing to take place as you forgive and release those who have hurt you, really release them of the debt of sin against you. We also pray for your sadness, and that you will reach out and replace that sadness with the word of the Lord, because the Joy of the Lord is your strength, and you get that strength from openly rejoicing in and praising the Lord. It gets hard to do that doesn't it? Sometimes, I have even felt that something was holding me down, so right now, we take the authority that Christ has given us, and we bind the strong man who has you hostage, and we forceably take you out of his hands in the name of Jesus. We pray for your steps to be ordered by the Lord. None who are in the Lord can be the path to destruction. I know that is how you feel. No one is denying what you feel. But feelings, as real as they are, can be really wrong. According to Deuteronomy 28, 29, 30, I say to you that you are the head and not the tail, above and not beneath, a lender not a borrower, and I command you to live and not to die, in the name of Jesus. Father says that if we walk in obedience, we will command the blessing. Even though you are single, you are never alone. God takes care of the stranger the widow and the orphan, and I believe he has a special tenderness for the single mother. I pray that you put aside all wrath, clamoring, and malice, and that that spirit of rage, but pushed out by the Holy Spirit, so that you may be able to be gentle, modest, tender, bold for the Lord. I encourage, and urge you to release the persons that have offended you and forgive them. I plead the blood of Jesus over this situation. As a covenant partaker, I am commanding these things into your life under the authority of Jesus Christ. I pray for the will of our Father who is in heaven, for His kingdom to come to you today, for His will to be done for you today. I am asking that He circumvent your natural circumstances and send to you the miracle of the job and finances, and transportation, and an overflow that you may willingly and happily be a blessing to others. I pray for seed for you, the sower. I pray for the tithe to protect what God has blessed you with. I pray for the offering for God to pour out a blessing that you will not have room enough to receive it. I pray for a great seed for you to plant in the natural that the offering will water. I pray for wisdom to come upon you, and a pray for a talent for handling finances in that wisdom. May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you, Blue504. I pray for you to receive the Holy Ghost with power, to always pray in the Spirit and naturally. You have the mind of Christ, which is decent and orderly and calm. You can make it, blue504. Remember that the facts are what you see, but the truth is what you have faith in, which is the word of God. My prayer is that you give yourself over to Holy Spirit, who will keep you until Christ comes for you. Holy Spirit will help you with control issues. We all have them. You are not along. Continue to raise her according to the word of God, and let the Holy Spirit counsel you in what you need to do. He will bring what you need back to your remembrance. Remember to love yourself, no matter what you perceive that you look like. God says that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Be encouraged God will help you, and send people alongside you to help you as well.

I am glad that this is working out for you, Love. It is good to take it one daily ration at a time, right? You are right, you have to be settled in your spirit before you do anything, even if it looks good, doesn't mean the new job is necessarily God.

PS, don't let this make you hold a grudge against the lady or anyone else. Choose to release, choose to forgive, and choose to plead the blood of Jesus over the situation. Last of all James 5:7Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. 8You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. 9Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door! 10Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. 11As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.

You are going through a lot in the enemy is trying to confuse you. I want to just go back over some of the information that you have already relayed to us. The first meeting was an impromptu meeting, in which day the director had already inflamed you. I am not saying that you are not to take an active role in responsibility for prepared classwork (I would try to be 2 to 4 chapters ahead of the class and other teachers if I could, just because you have an excellent spirit.), but this was supposed to just be a quick meeting to see where you were. The enemy is wily, subtle, crafty, waiting for an opportunity to trap you with your own words. We live in this world, so I know that you know. Please don't take what I am saying in any other way. Can you see how this woman made it a point to remember your conversation, verbatim? PS if you are on break, break is what it is supposed to be. If you want to take it in the library, classroom, or the bathroom - anywhere else, that is a perrogative and a privilege that she cannot condemn you for. Is there time to go to the lab to work on the computers? If you are not mismanaging your time, I can understand how hard it is to get away from the classroom to do this. completely. Also, I know she is aware that the tension between you two has strained relationships with the other teachers, who may or may not be willing to help you. Can you access the Klickers system at a home computer? Many programs work that way. I am sorry this is not working out, but on paper it does look professional. Now, that does not mean the situation is. I know that people can be very manipulative. If she is going to try to get rid of you, best to believe that she is going to close all loopholes, so that you cannot escape a pinkslip. Did she complete your second training. How did that go? I know these are a lot of questions- we are not able to witness what is going on, but I know from experience that people will try to set you up so that it looks like you, even if it is them. I gather that you are doing rather well now. She is not the most encouraging person. I would certainly have assigned someone to alternate for me if I could not be there to train you on a daily basis. But I would encourage you to look past all of the negative connotations on this letter, and take the pointers that are written therein, and just practice and follow through. Because, right now, you may be thinking about all the other things that she has done to you, the ones that she would not dare document. Right. Look past it. Email her a thankyou for her "valuable" input, and give a "respectfully requesting to be assigned a teacher with whom I could be mentored, when you are not available due to time constraints and other important calendared events". Then show her an example of all the things that she is saying you are not doing. She has already acknowledged that you are doing atleast some of it. You are almost at your four months. Continue to be prayerful and seek God's wisdom on how to talk to this woman, even if it means right now, not even looking her in the eyes. Continue to respect the title and the position. You will be fine, Kimie.

Yes, because, I noticed that the Director can make things look as if she is just being incompetent. Just go. This letter on the other prayer is the type of thing that can destroy potential of being an instructor elsewhere. When you go, make sure that you have your contract for the other job in hand. You are way past the point where you could even get a letter of reference.

Take the job, if you are only going in 2 - 3 months, that way you can give notice, and still have your job here. If you are in the same job description, it shouldn't - shouldn't hurt, but double check. IE, teacher to teacher position. A lateral move.

Oh, blossom, my heart goes out to you. My foster daughter had the same things occur with her. Days go by that I pray for her. And let me tell you something. God loves us all. We are all God's people. The next level would be to become a child of the Lord, which you have done. It does not mean that you will not struggle. Until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force. We are in a fight for our lives everyday. It never gets easy. We are soldiers in the army of the Lord. Except that we fight with the word of God. You were formerly one thing, but now you are a new creature. The enemy is trying to appeal to your flesh, because your spirit is now a different spirit. He doesn't care if you succumb to temptation - except to have it hurt your witness - but he wants you to fall under condemnation so that you feel that you are not under God's loving protection.

I believe that man can subvert the design of God. We see it everyday. But I know that when God tells me the outcome, it is because He has already seen the end from the beginning. He already knows what we need, and He is making our mates for us. So, we all have spiritual, relational and eternal longings. The spirit of loneliness tries to connect to us with the spirit of fear. But perfect love cast out all fear. I am preaching to myself. The bottom line is that when God gives you that type of knowledge, He also says, "It is finished," because He is a God of eternity that steps into our time, but not only that, everything He has ever done for us was already done for us. That's good news. In my humanness, I forget that, but the truth is the truth. He has already done everything for me. I am just intersecting with my blessings and trials and shaping, and going from glory to glory, along the lifewalk that God has given me in my length of days. You guys have encouraged me once again.

Lol, I feel like we have our own little school of the prophets, and it just goes to show the fact that God is able to put together those who are of like mind, who have similar situations, and who have gone through similar situations. We know that we are not alone, that what we walk through daily is common to man, and woman:), and that we are able to encourage ourselves and others through faith and testimony that God is not a man that He should lie, neither the Son of man that He should repent of what He has said. That's great news, especially when we begin to doubt God's word. We can turn that doubt within ourselves, and say, "God, I believe (whatever You told me about my future and how I can give you glory), but help my unbelief." God is such a God of grace. I have had a series of defunct mornings, but I am stubbornly looking at the Word and the world and to see the great contrast. God said it was not good for a man and woman to be alone. We are supposed to look like Elohim, and produce godly offspring who will honor Him and walk in His statutes. I believe that God will do whatever it takes to maintain His glory and in such a way that His Word will still be line upon line, precept upon precept, without violating the design of God.

After having given this careful prayer and consideration, my response to this frustrating situation is this-if God has given you the finances to be able to move out on your own without it affecting things like tithe, offering, and seed, and you can still maintain, then feel free to make that move. I pray that God give you favor to move to an area of safety, and where there are fields ripe for the harvest, where there are saints who will be like a good family to you there, so that you won't feel alone and isolated. That your angels stay posted up wherever you are and wherever you live. Family is family, however. If A is your helpmate, then God will have prepared him to be able to love and accept your family, and not consider any faults in anybody against you. You are all individuals. I have said to myself, and I am sure that it has been said of me="such and such is cool, but her/his people are a little different." Whether or not I was the such and such or the people. LOLLLL! Just because you are feeling the need for distance does not mean that you are putting them at a distance. Things change. People change. Our roles toward each other are constantly being defined. you may even find yourself being challenged to be your parents friend as well as child sometimes, and they may even find themselves listening to you more and more as a peacemaker, old wisdom and knowledge from the Lord as opposed to how they used to perceive you with barretts and skinned knees. Go for it, kimie. It is more dangerous to be still all the time and become stale, than to take a risk, a chance and discover success. You've done it before, and enjoyed your space. You just prepare to enjoy it again.