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AMEN Joy!! hehe almondjoy Thank you for being such a great encourager and you are my dear sister too I know I said several days before all this crashed down that every corner God gets me backed into gets tougher and tougher... but I always come out stronger and stronger and He has always brought me out unscathed and with His favour on my side. The enemy tries to make me see with my physical eyes every time, but with those eyes there is no hope. AMEN Joy!!

Yeah, I don't think I'll take her there anymore! Thank you for the compliment Joy, I thought I was a horrible story teller

Wings, I can't help but think that this dream has to do with this too. I thought of my Delete That dream during and after my prayer too. /dreams-and-visions-to-be-interpreted-f1/delete-that-t8271.htm

I just found it tonight!! I have to get to bed myself, hubby hopefully will come home tomorrow!! Oh, goodnight and sleep tight

I NEED The Light of Your Face to Shine down on me

God had me turn to Psalms 29-31 just now! I Love praying the psalms especially when God uses it as confirmation!!

It is real, not a dream! I've never been to Any store/place that had a bug problem that was obvious! When I was paying for my dog's grooming, a huge roach scramble across the desk and the woman Swatted it like it was a normal thing to have roaches running across the desk at work.

Lord I am going under. I cannot keep my head up Father. Every one wants everything I have and I have nothing. All of this is too much and it's all caving in and my husband is coming home and I'm supposed to be enjoying his RandR and I'm going to be thinking about all this stuff the whole time because I won't be able to do anything while we are on vacation. What is a RandR when my health and all these people are coming at me like a flood within only a couple days before he comes home? Father, I know you provide for me and that You have Never let me down Father. Father I just don't have anything, I'm backed in a corner and You are the only one who can get me out. Every single corner you get me backed into get deeper and deeper and harder and harder. Father You created the earth, all the elements, all the atoms, the music, our minds, our ability to think, our freedom of good or evil, our ideas, creativeness, monetary systems, our immune systems, rules and regulations for govts, establishments, rich and poor, free and slave. You created the whole earth and everything in it! The gold and silver is Yours, YOU said, you would provide ALL my needs according to YOUR RICHES in Glory, You PROMISED/PROMISE and YOU Say that YOUR WORD NEVER DIES, That IS Your word, You say YOU ALWAYS keep Your Word Father. You also say that You will will not let the waters overwhelm me, that you will be with me WHEN I Pass through them, that when I walk through the fire, You will NOT let it burn me Father, nor will You let the flames consume me, FOR YOU ARE I AM, the LORD MY YAH my GOD, The HOLY ONE of IsraEL, MY SAVIOR!!! I am so exhausted Father, I have not been able to sleep well for the past month, I am bone tired and sore, my heart sick. I am so imperfect! Everyday is the same, unending trouble caused by my own sin! I do not deserve Your mercy and blessings that I ask You for and I am always not asking because I know I don't deserve Your favour, but You don't want it like that You say, but I'm still hesitant and frugal, held back by my own pride. You hate my pride, You WANT to Bless me with YOUR riches, mercy, and blessings!!! FATHER I HATE my pride, I hate my sin that makes me feel like I can't ask YOU for GREAT THINGS that You say You promise, that KEEPS me from coming to You for forgiveness and mercy!!! My SAVIOR, My LORD Died for ALL of my sins and pride, all my debts and even debtors, for my sickness and viruses that have attacked me within only a few days, like it was all intended for my husbands RandR!! He's been gone for over half a year and I feel like JOB!!! I know you blessed Job with MORE, ABUNDANTLY MORE than You EVER blessed him with before You let Satan afflict him. Father, I only HAVE 1 or 2 days before he comes home!!! SET ME FREEE FATHER SET ME FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Give me YOUR Peace, YOUR Healing, YoUR GRACE, MERCY, PARDON my DEBTS and SICKNESS FATHER!!! Father I have been DUPED, Stolen from, Lied to, Cheated, taken advantage of by people MORE powerful than me, people in high places, people who KNOW BETTER, SELFISH PEOPLE, THEY are trying to take Everything and they DON"T CARE, they want everything, they entrapped me with the INTENTIONS of taking and taking and taking, They will go at NOTHING for their power hungry schemes, they intend on devouring the world of it's wealth, they will go at nothing to take from the poor and wealthy alike for their power hungry schemes to rule the world FATHER, the world YOU MADE, the People YOU MADE, Satan tried to tempt my Lord with this wealth, with the rule of the nations, with their worship, but His Kingdom is NOT of THIS World and it's evil lusts of power, greed, and UTTER SELFISHNESS!!!! Father I look for the day when you Tear them down, their empires built on the backs of YOUR people, who trust You, who LOVE YOU, who Know The TRUTH, that You are the ONLY Truth!!! Father I ask that You Give me THEIR WEALTH to pay for what they CHEATED, LIED, DUPED, CONIVED, me out of, that YOUR HOLY Revenge would be on their backs, that You would TAKE BACK what the Thieves have stolen, what the moths have eaten, Father I give it all to You, it is ALL YOURS, Everything I have, it is all for Your Good Pleasure. THis is ALL for YOUR GLORY FATHER, that the Sinners would SEE YOUR GLORY, YOUR POWER, YOUR MAJESTY, that You are the END ALL BE ALL, that NOTHING gets by You, that what we all do does NOT escape your notice because we are ALL imperfect BUT I have been made perfect through Your SON MY SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST, though my flesh goes it's own way a whole lot, it is NOT what I want, I want you to conquer my flesh Father because I can do NOTHING through mySELF, consume me, burn within me, consume me, Spirit of God, Cover the Earth with YOUR HOLINESS, Reveal the secret plans of the enemy, expose their evil deeds, LET THEM COME TO SHAME, let them FALL at YOUR FEET at the SOUND of your HOLY Name, Let the FEAR of the LORD CONSUME THEM, EXPOSE THeir SCHEMES to hurt Your beloved, Your people, Your Bride, LET their stored Riches POUR OUT ON Your beloved, I am Your beloved, Your people ARE YOUR BELOVED, pay my debts that the enemy has hoodwinked me into!!! FAther, they don't realize that YOU CAN take Everything they wrongfully ganged at my expense and give it all back and cancel the debts THEY SaY I OWE THEM, that the ENemy is TRYING to feed me to the Tiger, but FATHER YOU WoN'T let them, You are taking from them and giving back to me, EVERYTHING, it's not their's It's ALL YOURs!!!!!!!!!! My health is NOT the enemies, MY LORD's Stripes are MY HEALING, my sickness is a lie because Jesus took my sickness before I even got it, all my debts. Father They don't know what they are doing Father, they don't know what they are doing to You, to your Beloved, to the people of this world your creations. Father, pour your spirit out on them, give them dreams and Visions of the LORD JESUS CHRIST, of what HE did FOR them on the Cross, You said that Your Will is that ALL would be saved and that NONE would Perish, there is mercy and there is grace, everlasting hope, safety in MY LORD JESUS, He will Never let me go, You will never let them go if they would only let You HOLD them, wrap me in YOUR arms LORD, Don't EVER LET GO!!!!!!! Father I THANK YOU for healing me, for setting me free from my debtors because YOU tell me that You do NOT want me to be in slavery to debtors, You want me FREE to help YOUR People, to bless them with the income and riches YOu Provide!!!! Father SET me free of this world's chains and bondage because my wealth is not of this world, but IN YOU, You have provided and I THANK YOU!!!! Father, I thank for forgiving me of my pride and my selfishness, for putting forgiveness into my heart for those who hurt people because I cannot forgive of my own strength. Father I thank you for canceling my debts, for healing me, for providing the money out of the fishes mouth like You did for My Savior, My Beloved Jesus Father YOU say not to worry about where my next meal comes from, about my clothes, about my house, about my finances, about my debts, about my sickness because they are NOT MINE PRAISE YOU MY FATHER YAH!!!!! MY debts are NOT mine they are Yours, you take them and You say, these are mine why are You worrying about how you are going to pay them? Why are you afraid that your debtors are going to hurt you? I'm protecting you, they CAN'T hurt you because I won't let them. My plans are better than your plans, in fact your plans are HORRIBLE and My plans make your plans look like suicide!!!! PRAISE YOU FATHER YAH, My LORD MY SAVIOR!!!! The world says that THEIR plans and their rules are the law, that's what the banks and the credit people say but they don't realize that I AM can take it ALL away from THEM and give it to you My beloved, they don't have a leg to stand on because they follow the plans of their father Satan, who I KICKED out of MY Kingdom Heaven, I created him, I can tear down his establishments with less than half a word, I rearranged the atoms and I can un-arrange them!!!! Miracles are my favourite to bestow upon you!!! I LOVE the look on your face when you recognize the small miracles I do for you every day, the world calls them coincidence and fate, I hate the god coincidence and fate with a burning passion because they take credit for my miracles !!!! I love how you love the little things and all that I've made, how you take joy in my creations, how you seek me on your country drives and through your walks in the woods, how you wonder at the beauty and majesty of MY power and might. I LOVE to delight you with my creations because that's why I made you!!! I LOVE to do miracles for you because the world says I can't, the world says you are hopeless and laughs at you for consider you to be easy, I LOVE to show them up through you!!! I LOVE to show those of mine that have kept their faith in a box that I AM can DO ALL and More than they could ever imagine, they need their faith built up in me and what better way than to have my beloved backed into a corner surrounded by your enemies so I can show them MY POWER and MIGHT, that I keep my promises that their little bit of faith will be encouraged to go deeper, to ask for MORE to quit putting limits on what they ask for, to quit putting boundaries of time, boundaries of worldly laws, boundaries of space and place, boundaries of persons, because I AM beyond boundaries, I MADE them only for those of the earth!!! I made them so you could have a solidness and a frame of reference, but they are not for me. As I speak, I am already working on people to help you, I started before you even asked!!! AM I not the one who put it in your Heart to clean that couch so that you would find TWO important things you needed, one for that moment and one for later?! You had NO IDEA what was going to happen that night!!! I DID!!! I was with you the WHOLE TIME!!! Don't question HOW I am going to free you from your debtors, from your balls and chains, I know how you feel, I was there and your balls and chains is just like an ant to me and I can SMASH the with just a look!!! That tiger dream you had, was about this day!!!!! Your bosses are your debtors, they intend on feeding you to the tiger and they have a hold of you, they are your ball and chain holding you in place so they can feed you to the tiger, and they have the tigers cage door open and the tiger licks you, that is how close the enemy has come to destroying you financially and intentionally destroying your beautiful RandR time with your husband, but that tiger only gets in a lick!!! Then look what happens, you go and SMASH out their TWO cars windows with a POLE and then, you jump on top of those cars and jump up and down on the roofs and hoods and it's quite funny how you do it, cause you look like a kid just out making mischief and not even out of anger, the reason was being that they tried to feed you to their tiger, and then you run away like a little kid running away!!! You Totaled their cars and it looked more like a man of 500 lbs and not the 200, jumped up and down on their cars!!! They couldn't believe you had defeated them, what you did to their cars!!!! I gave you the weight of a 500 lb man, you are a defeeter , I gave you the power and they can't go anywhere now with those vehicles, they can't chase you now, you ARE FREE!!!! Then you know, their son gave you THEIR MONEY out of THEIR stash!!! It only represented what I can do for you because to you 5,000 is a ton of money and it could pay off several of your bills!!! Don't worry, about money, I've got you covered, I've got my sources, Ha that is me I've dropped money from planes, I've put it in fishes mouths, I've recovered long lost treasures thought to be permanently gone and never to be seen again only to show up immediately and, within days to months to a few years to 20, 30, 60 or so years later!!! I LOVE showing you my Power!!! Your life is the dream, that's why it feels unreal, every second is in the physical realm which has time restraints and your spirit doesn't have time restraints, so every second it feel to you like vagueness. Remember this that you are spirit and what you speak is in the spirit and words have power to tear down or build up, their is power in your tongue and that is why I say to use it wisely when you speak about ANYTHING, that's why I tell you not to be negative, to speak the positive, curses AND blessings are in the tongue, never curse yourself, your finances, your debt, your son, your husband because you are playing with fire. Bless them with more than what is in your humanly realm, more than what humans think is possible and be imaginative for I AM!!! I bless you with the salvation of your husband and your son, I bless you with freedom from debtors and your house I have set you free already in the spirit realm and what I do in the spirit is done to you in the flesh, I bless you with over abundantly more than you could ever imagine I AM your DAD your REAL Father, everyone else is temporary, but I AM before they ever were, I planned them in your life even if you don't understand why, you will!!! I bless your home with peace, mercy, love, kindness, goodness, gentleness, self control, faithfulness, hope, and health, and freedom in ME!!!! I PRAISE YOU FATHER!!! You ARE the Alpha and the Omega, the End all Be all, the beginning and the end, the everlasting GOD, the only God, the only LIGHT and TRUTH, the Only PEACE, the ONLY GOOD God My SAVIOR Your new name will be "The City of God's Delight" and "The Bide of YAH," for the LORD delights in you and claim you as his bride. Your children will commit themselves to you O Jerusalem just as a young man commits himself to his bride. Then Yah will rejoice over you as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride. Ojersusalme, I have posted watchmen on your walls; they will pray day and night, continually. Take no rest, all you who pray to the LORD. Give the LORD NO res until he completes his work, until he makes Jerusalem the pride of the earth. The LORD has sworn to Jerusalme by his own strength; "I will never again hand you over to your enemies. Never again will foreign warriors come and take away your grain and new wine. You raised the grain , and you will eat it, praising the LORD within the courtyards of the Temple, you yourselves will drink the wine you have pressed." Thank you Father for showing me that verse first thing, I LOVE you too That is my petition my Father and I pray this as though Jesus Himself were praying this Thank you Father for hearing my cries

Halo, what that preacher said made me sick! It's FULL of condemnation and bondage. It would feel down right horrible to be part of that church and then God leads you to another one but you feel trapped because of a preacher.

Joy, that is THE reason I stopped going to church for a few years!! I felt brainwashed. I never doubted the Bible, God, Jesus and the cross, but I knew that I wasn't hearing everything correctly and traditions and holidays weren't questioned except for halloween. It was a gut feeling.

Ok, I took my dog to a doggy grooming "spa" today. When they took her away I noticed some roaches... I was like yuck, what kind of spa has those... So, they call me to come get her and when I'm waiting I noticed some kind of weird worm (not an earth worm) that I couldn't really tell if it was a maggot type worm, that's just what I assumed. There were dead roaches on the floor, they were just all over the place coming out of the front desk. When I was looking at the worm on the floor, I felt like I had been there before looking at the same thing. I still feel strongly about that too. Like maybe my husband took her and I went with him? I just don't know, it was the worm situation and the whole setting.

PRAISE YAH!! How freeing your word study is for me!! I wish the bible would clear this stuff up themselves. One Bible version I've come to really like is the Amplified Bible because it will put other like words in so we can get a better understanding of which sense the word is being used. Joy, this is my Fav. stuff, it makes the Bible New and much clearer. For those who grew up in church, this is def. refreshing.

Totally AWESOME!!!! PRAISE YAH!!!!!

So, my son did his business in the toilette last night, flushed the toilet and after a while came and told me there was something weird going on with the toilette. I go in there and water was Gushing out! I panicked and could only think to call 911 because I don't have the apt. maintenance emergency number. I soon remembered I could turn off the valve and hesitated big time to go in there because it had little bits of poopies... it had flooded almost an inch but there is a marble door jamb that kept the water from flowing out. I turned off the valve right before it would have over flowed into the house. Ok, before I was on the verge of calling 911 I looked down and on a table I had place a business card for one of the lawn maintenance contractors that I had spoken to before about my stolen debit card. God is SO Good!!! That card would not have been there if I had not decided I really needed to clean my couch of All it's paper mess and paper trash (envelopes)!!! What's more interesting is that I had found something else earlier yesterday as I was cleaning that made me go "fwhew..." what a relief that I saw that... So, as the guy was vacuuming my bathroom and fixing my toilette my eyes fell on some Godly wisdom type notes I had written many years ago, what I had immediately seen was "Praise God in all conditions, difficulty, etc. Even if you don't feel like it." Ha, I just read the rest of it (I think this note is a keeper) "It is not how you feel that makes a difference it is what you do. When you feel down, discouraged Praise God and you will find joy and make the devil angry. Get your act together and Praise, this is no time to quit. You are not supposed to feel comfortable where you are at. Maturity, and victory come when we Praise. You have got to get the Spirit of Praise. Feelings don't count." That is SO Correct!!! I DID have Joy through the whole thing, all the nastiness, esp. when I saw God at work!! I had this revelation (for me it was) and clarity, God knows the plans of the enemy, though God uses it to build us and try our faith, He is right there like a game competition buddy, putting real things we need to grab in that emergency, within reach and hones our eyes onto it, directs our thoughts when we are in a panic. Def. a new experience for me as I've Never had an emergency like that in my life! Though once I had to call 911 on an intruder that was near my vehicles in the middle of the night, few days later found one of my tires slashed. He had been going around the hood slashing tires and doing all sorts of ugliness!! I locked my gate and kept my dog outside at night from then on even when she barked. That was the intent! You can eat off my floor now it's so clean (I spent whole hour cleaning the grout with a used tooth brush, cleaned the whole toilette and sides of the walls, tub, tiles etc. It's been washed and bleached.

That really is Awesome!!!

Amen to that too Cholette! I believe this subject isn't spoken in honesty enough... God has brought that to my attention. Once it fully had my attention, every time he would get his hair cut refreshed (he has to have his hair at regs standard, not touching the ears, I like it shaved) I would tell him that he looks hot, which is true. I think I just realized something, I think he is afraid of true affection (real hugs). A hug or kiss from him meant that he wanted something, and that was VERY often. I came to not want any hugging. I called him out on it a couple years ago and even before he deployed. He thinks he DOEs give me hugs and kisses all the time. He feels rejected when I don't want to have sex and I feel rejected when I don't hugs and kisses with no strings attached. But I only realized that when he deployed this last time, because he hasn't used the hugs with strings attached in a quite a long time, but that doesn't mean we weren't having sex. We compromised on the sex issue and he doesn't feel rejected. I still do though. He doesn't hug or kiss me much any more, at least he never initiates a hug, or even tell me I'm beautiful, or whatever (he's rarely done that, he makes me feel ugly). So, I can see how it could be mutual, that I have made him feel unattractive because of his weight. I plan on telling him when he comes home. I've told him in parts before but he's a man he doesn't get it. Also, it's not like he doesn't do things for me, but things don't make me feel loved even though I am appreciative. Anyway, he is really excited to come home, we are too. He didn't even have cousins, aunts and uncles, or grandparents that hugged him all the time. I can see that God is working on this issue! I am def. going to try harder to build him up! I've learned some new things that I didn't know before, men need to be made to feel MANLY. Maybe that's one of the reasons he plays that stupid game WOW all the time and has powerful characters, but then again he's been gaming since he was our sons age! I guess having a father to start you off feeling manly does start young. I need to pray about this for my son too, his dad has been absent for a good portion of his life and some of the most important parts too. God has been faithful and helping me to be attracted to him regardless of his weight, by letting me see him as strong and manly. That's basically what I've gone through. If anything I hope that helps any woman or man who reads this. I also wasn't attracted to him when we got married, though God told me on 2 occasions that we would get married (at one time I did have a crush on him and didn't realize it was the same guy until after we got married) He had been asking other girls to marry him and I told him that he hadn't asked me, and he asked me and I told him yes (another of our mutual friends had told him she would too, it was all cool, at the time it wasn't a big deal). I married him because I trusted him, and I loved his personality. We basically got married as friends. I'm glad I married him. I can't imagine being married to anyone else. I've since learned what real love is and that was God's will, I would have stayed in my insecure shell by having a hot good looking man and being jealous if someone looked at my man or my man looked at someone else. I don't recall that he ever has, at least not in front of me, and also he's never commented on any woman irl or on tv. My husband IS handsome and has the manly face, it's just that he wasn't my type. I asked God to make him my type.

I hate it when I realize I've been limiting God in areas, but love the revelation that It's not hopeless because I have a God that is bigger than that, and that He does give us the desires of our heart! He gave me one this week concerning a certain womanly body function that occurs once a month, I had asked him to bring it on before my husband gets home for RandR Seriously! Every single one of our anniversaries that he was actually home for (rarely) I was on that point of the month Last month I had it at the same time that he said he would be coming home this month... But, good thing is, we have 2 anniversaries to choose from, the justice of the peace, or our actual wedding ceremony. We usually go with our official wedding date, justice op. LOL, I'm talking about 2 different subjects in regards to the same monthly problem, at the same time

"I think we've created a monster..." Cholette!!

Joy, Cholette, even when I was in #1 for YEARS, even in it I was BEGGing God to let me be attracted to my husband. When he would get his military cut refreshed and esp. when they had shaved the sides of his head I thought he looked really good. It was the way he acted that really turned me off. He didn't know how to act like a man (effeminate) when he tried to be romantic... He didn't have a dad his whole life... I've found that I have to "get to him" first before he starts acting like that, then I'm fine. I love seeing him being a man, doing hard work, coming home sweaty and greasy from working on aircraft, I love it. I dread the day he leaves the military and "lets his hair down" and/or takes an office job. Someone once told me that her mother didn't think that her son in law was a man. He is a preacher, wears a suit, and doesn't get his hands dirty at his job. At the time I didn't see it that way either and agreed with my friend that a man is a man no matter what. But my mind has changed slowly over the years and I see seriously groomed men in suits as effeminate, it's rather gross to me now. I can also def. see how 2-4 is related to 1 as well! Even today one of my top prayers is to let me be attracted to my husband. Now I've added a new part to it, to put it in my husbands heart to start working out other than PT and to stop eating/junk food and energy drinks/soda all the time. So, basically it's been his weight and the effeminate part, when he gets scraggily around the head, and new to me, the other stuff. You've really brought to light other issues that were affecting my attraction to him. I'll add those to my prayer list in regards to it affecting my attraction to him as well as to those things individually. Joy, I will try to keep my eyes on Jesus rather than the other stuff. Thank you 2

That's def. something to keep in mind Cholette! I've been there on #1 myself... not fun. I feel for you Dreams, I too prayed for all what you said

Yes DO relax

That's a lot to go through... I prayed for you all

I prayed for you dem.

Yah!!!!